Set after Season 6 episode 14.

This is my first fanfiction in a very long time. Say 10 years. So, be gentle please.

***Trigger Warning, Rape Warning***

Disclaimer: I don't own any of these characters.

Set after Season 6 episode 14 after Killian proposed to Emma, Regina is having trouble coping with the thought that she had lost the small chance to be with Emma. A terrible incident occurs that changes both Regina's life and the savior's. Warning Rape.

Damaged

Regina stood in her office staring intently at herself, attempting and failing at keeping her tears from falling as her mind raced with the words that Emma had said just a few hours ago.

"Hook proposed" Emma's voice echoed in her mind.

Regina could only do what was expected and congratulate the woman she grew to love and care for. Realizing any form of hope of having a relationship with Emma dashed into oblivion. Watching as Emma's bashful smile lightened her face, Regina couldn't even bare to look at the shimmering rock Zelena was admiring. They embraced in an awkward hug and Regina was saved from the potential embarrassment she would have felt when Snow voiced her concern regarding the Evil Queen's disappearance. Now, Regina had embraced and loved herself, finally able to accept the darker half and allowing herself another chance at happiness.

A knock came on the door, distracting her from her memories.

"Regina" Emma's voice called out from behind the door. "Regina open up, I need to talk to you". With a deep breath, composing herself, and quickly wiping any trace of tears that might have fallen, Regina's trembling hand reached for the knob all the while coaching herself not to well up in front of Emma. Emma stood at the door, red puffy eyes, wet cheeks and looking miserable. Not at all like a woman should look like when she just became engaged.

"Emma, what's wrong?" Regina exclaimed, shocked at the appearance of the savior at her door.

"Hook" Emma replied entering the room "He hasn't come back, we had an argument and I gave back the ring". Regina's eyes widened. "He tried to erase his memories, memories he was too ashamed of and I got mad"

"Slow down, Emma, what do you mean erase his memories?" she said, leading Emma to the couch.

"He... was going to burn his dream catcher with his memories. He killed David's father and he couldn't even tell me, said that he didn't believe that my parents will ever be able to forgive him" Emma's face was red, remembering the anger she felt towards Hook for betraying her trust, lying to her. "I gave him back the ring, he took off and he hasn't come home"

"Emma he may need some time to think things over" Regina stated as she listened intently trying to provide as much comfort as she could. "It will be okay... Have you said anything to your parents yet?"

"No, you're the first person I thought of that wouldn't push me to find him, or give me a lecture or ask me a million questions" Emma turned to Regina "I feel comfortable with you" Emma suddenly remembered that Regina was in her office and possibly in the middle of doing something important. She looked around wiping her tears and noting no one else was in the room. "I'm sorry, I probably interrupted you"

"No, you haven't, I was in my own thoughts" Regina assured "I'm here for you, Emma". She leaned over and embraced her friend, in a more natural hug. "You sit here, I'm going to make you some hot cocoa, with cinnamon" Regina smiled as she got up off the couch, immediately pausing when she felt a soft hand grab hers.

"Can you sit with me a little while longer Regina" Emma said gently, staring up at her with hopeful eyes. Regina froze not knowing if she was imagining things, dreaming, or Emma was drunk. Regina slowly looked down at Emma, searching her eyes for the meaning in her words. A small tug brought Regina back towards Emma on the couch to sit incredibly close to the blonde. Emma gazed into the mayor's eyes, lifting her hand up gently to stroke her cheek. Regina closed her eyes and enjoyed the feeling of a warm touch. Regina took in a shaking breath as her mind was yelling at her to pull away and run as fast as she could. Soft lips touching hers just barely as a hand caressed the arm of her silky burgundy blouse Regina was wearing. Emma's eyes slowly closed as she leaned forward, breathing in Regina's sweet scent. Regina's eyes snapped open and quickly pulled away from Emma's reach, eyes wide shaking her head as if to shake the thought out of her head.

"Emma!" Regina gasped. "Emma, you're in pain... and I know... I know what you're feeling right now is very difficult... but this is not going to help you" Emma looked away, eyebrows knitted feeling rejected again. Getting up, Emma strode to the door in a hurry, avoiding eye contact with the mayor. Regina, not wanting her friend to leave in such a state, raced after her blocking her from the passage. "Wait!"

"Get out of my way" Emma said coldly, still avoiding eye contact.

"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to react that way" Regina said trying to regain eye contact and to find a sign that Emma was going to be okay. "Emma I want to-"

"Move Regina, or you won't enjoy what I'll do to you" Emma replied in a raspy voice. It was Regina's turn to furrow her brow, shocked by the threat that came out of Emma. Emma rose her head, eyes narrowing at Regina. "I won't ask again" she said sharply.

"What has gotten into you?" Regina said puzzled by this strange behaviour.

Emma moved quickly, too quickly for Regina to realize she was in danger. She was pinned to her white and gray covered walls gasping for air as Emma's hand slowly cut the air flow to her lungs. Regina clawed at Emma's arms trying to free herself. "E-mm...a" she choked out calling out to her friend who had suddenly snapped. Emma's eyes were not her own anymore, they had dilated and were nearly black. Much different than her sparkling green eyes Regina was so used to. Regina used all the strength she had to channel her magic to move Emma away from her. Emma recognized it immediately and used her own to counter the attack, tossing the former Evil Queen onto the ground where she watched her gasp for breath. Regina regained just enough strength to look back at Emma who was standing right on top of her glaring down.

"Are we trying to be the "Good Queen" now? The "Saint Queen"? You think by resisting this temptation that you will gain some kind of award?" Emma mocked.

"Emma, why are you doing this?" Emma leaned in, straddling her, pushing Regina to the floor, pinning the former Evil Queen beneath her. Emma tilted forward her breath hot as she whispered in her ear.

"Because I want you to never look at me the same way again, Regina" she breathed, making Regina's eyes widen, "I want to hear you scream" and with that Emma had grabbed Regina's outer thigh raking her nails across it, causing the tights to rip leaving five long scratches and blood trail in their path. Regina let out a scream, not expecting the pain to come that quickly, trying and failing to push the woman away.

"EMMA STOP!" she yelled gathering up her magic to use once again to knock Emma off of her so she can come back to her senses. Emma once again overpowered her using her magic to pin her arms above her head. "Emma please!" she pleaded, tears now forming in the corners of her eyes dreading what's about to happen. "Emma, don't do this" she shuddered with the thought that it was Emma that was doing this to her. Emma ignored the pleas and began ripping her blouse, buttons flying in every direction as she tore it impatiently, eyes hungry for the forbidden flesh under her. Emma's hands roamed the former Evil Queen's body admiring the curves and the olive skin laid out in front of her. Her ears grew deaf to the trembling voice beneath her begging her to stop. The blonde's only focus was her goal of claiming Regina as hers. If she wouldn't go with her willingly, then she should be forced. Emma traveled down ripping the skirt and rest of the clothing that covered Regina from Emma's eager eyes. Hands trailing all over Regina's body as it trembled and tried to wince away from Emma's touch. Regina's head flew back as Emma penetrated her entrance forcefully. Regina let out a scream, tears wetting her hair as her head tilted back trying to get away from Emma. Regina then froze, afraid to move, afraid to think and afraid to look at her attacker. Emma's eyes were fixated on Regina's pained expression as the blonde's fingers pumped, coating them in blood.

Then suddenly, Emma blinked. Eyes slowly returning to their normal colour. Emma looked down, seeking the mayor's naked body, bound, sobbing and bleeding. Emma quickly got to her feet backing away like a scared child, staring at her friend's broken body. Emma started panting, not knowing what occurred. Emma looked down at her hands which were covered in blood, Regina's blood.

"Please, Emma" she heard Regina choke, "let me go" Emma stared, unable to move, stunned by the scene in front of her, and more so that she was responsible for this scene. She waved her hand loosening the bonds on Regina's wrists. Regina moved to grab the first torn article of clothing that she could find to cover herself with before scooting to the wall in an attempt to get away as far as she can from her attacker. Emma stared at her, tears forming in her eyes as she watched Regina try to compose herself. Emma sank to the ground in complete shock.