Should I remember?
Susan Pevensie, all grown up and married, finds her children playing in the backyard of their house. Daniel was playing in the sandbox while Jullianne was drawing pictures on paper, sitting on the grass quietly.
"What are you drawing sweetie?" she said, kneeling by her daughter. Jullianne looks up at her mother. She smiles and shows her mother the newly drawn picture.
The picture of a beautiful castle by the ocean, glistening in the bright sunshine.
"What a pretty drawing. Do you want to go there?" Susan says, remembering everything she tried to forget. Everything she completely shut out if her mind in a single night of grief. She started to look sick, she was going to burst into tears.
"Mommy, are you okay?" Jullianne says, putting her drawing down. Daniel stops meddling with the shovel.
"I'm alright sweetie." She replies, trying to smile. The door starts to knock.
"You go back to drawing. That, I suppose, is your father. Come in a little bit later, okay?" she says, looking at Jullianne, who starts to nod her head. She looked at Daniel, still meddling with the shovel. She giggles, and goes inside.
She answered the door. It was Nathan.
"Hello sweetheart." She says, holding the door for him.
"Hello." He replies, kissing her on the cheek. He comes in, and puts his suitcase on the floor. Susan closes the door, and turns to him.
"What happened at work today?" she asks. He turns to her.
"Nothing much. The usual. As always." He answers, and continues.
"I saw the strangest thing today."
"What is it?"
"I saw a group of boys and girls, teenagers by the look, wearing weird clothes, the boys were holding swords and shields, and the girls were holding a bow, and a quiver of arrows were at their backs. An unusual sight in London, really."
"What?" she asks, looking at her husband who was already sitting on the sofa. Her heart stopped beating for a second. "what did they look like?"
"The oldest boy had gold hair and blue eyes; when you look into them, they had deep meaning. One boy had dark brown hair and eyes, he looked very wise. A very young boy had blonde hair and grey eyes. One girl had auburn hair, long enough to reach the ground, with brown sparkling eyes, she had a pretty face; and a young girl had short golden hair, with eyes shining like jewels." He said, looking at her. She started to pace around the room.
"It can't be." She muttered to herself.
"What is it?" Nathan asks her, standing up. She stopped pacing and fell into a chair.
"Nothing. My head just hurts. Can you tell the kids to come in?" she replies.
Her husband goes out of the room, puzzled. She closes her eyes tight. Susan starts to feel sick. No way would all of them come back dead.
"Mommy! Are you okay?" Jullianne says, running into the room. Susan looks up, looking sick. Jullianne, Daniel and Nathan were looking at her. Indeed she looked sick.
Jullianne and Daniel hugged her.
"Are you all right dear?" Nathan asks, looking at her with eyes full of worry.
"I'm fine. I must have a headache." She replies, looking at them with a small smile.
"You should get some rest. Come on." Her husband says, helping her stand up.
Nathan lead Susan to their room upstairs. She lay in bed as her husband goes out of the room.
She closes her eyes. All these images start to flash in front of her.
Peter, Lucy and Edmund sitting by her side at Cair Paravel. Father Christmas giving her a bow, a quiverful of arrows, and a magic horn. Meeting Caspian in the Dancing Lawn. Leaving her beautiful land. And the picture of Aslan, looking deep into her eyes. She tried to open her eyes.
But they wouldn't open.
Suddenly the door opened.
She opened her eyes. Jullianne came to her, carrying a pile of papers in her hands.
"Hi mommy. Are you feeling better?" she asks, sitting on the bed. Susan sits up.
"I'm fine Jullianne. My head just hurts." She replies, looking at her first born. Then she looks at the pile of papers. "What are these?" she asks.
"They're pictures. I made them myself. I hope they make you feel better mommy."
"Can you show me one?" she asks. Jullianne smiles a big smile, and hands her one. It was a picture of a faun and a little girl, under an umbrella, holding packages. It was a snowing.
"What's this?" she asks, pretending not to know, but she knew this very well.
"The man with goat legs is a faun, and he met a little girl. They are very good friends. They met in the woods, on a very snowy night." Jullianne replies. Susan remembers Lucy and Mr. Tumnus. She smiles a bit. Jullianne sees her mother's reaction, and beams a big smile. "Can you show me another one?" she asks.
Jullianne starts to look for another picture from the pile. She hands it to her mom. Susan sees a picture of a little boy in an icy castle, looking at a tall lady sitting on a throne made of hard ice. Susan imagines Edmund meeting the White Witch in her castle.
"This one is about a little boy who goes to a castle of a mean witch." Jullianne says.
Susan thought to herself 'Can it be my daughter is seeing what adventures we had in Narnia?' Jullianne looks at her, and hands her another one. Susan sees four children wearing beautiful clothes, wearing crowns of gold and silver, a look of honor and glory on their faces, sitting on four thrones. She remembers herself in Cair Paravel, with her sister and two brothers, and smiles.
"This one is about four Kings and Queens who rule forever. They are very good people." Jullianne explains, with a look of pride on her face.
Then Jullianne gives her a picture of a lion. A lion terribly big and noble, with a golden mane, and eyes full of wisdom and knowledge. The lion's eyes looked deep into her own. Ashamed, she puts the picture down and lets a tear fall.
"Mommy, why are you crying?" Jullianne asks.