Why is he truly with me? It is not because of love. How can it? When he loves her. Than it's pity. But it can't be pity because I know what it is like to have pity in bed beside me, naked beside me running all over my body.
Perhaps it's friendship and loneliness on his side. I know that he and I will remain friends for the rest of life ... us being together now won't change that. Even when this ends. Which it will because all things come to an end. I have learned that in my life.
I will just simply enjoy what he gives me ... for the time that I have it. I have to because it's my saving Grace and without it I would sink even lower than I had when she first left me and took my son from me.
I will just enjoy having Spencer Reid in my life and bed for as long as I can.