Disclaimer: I do not own Star Trek or its characters.
Lilmisscrazywithyaoi: I admit it...I love Star Trek after watching the movie..I especially love Kirk/Spock,
because as they say opposites attract...and they both have so much chemistry..The only thing i want to say
is that i don't have muck knowledge about star trek...so what ever is foreign to you guys, is just a made belief
for me....please enjoy...
Today is the day that Captain James T. Kirk will make a history. Take note of this day, ladies and gentlemen because today is the day that I'm going to confess my deepest feelings to my first officer.
Yes. My first officer. Spock.
Say whatever you want. You want to say I'm mad, go ahead. Foolish? Go ahead. Whatever it is, I love him. I think I fell in love with him when he ask for permission to come aboard the Enterprise. That was when my heart swells with pride to know that Spock, the half Human and Half Vulcan prodigy to choose Enterprise and work on her. I wanted to make Spock my friend, that is why I have been extending invites for him to join me at my quarters for a game of chess.I would say we have a mutual friendship now. I told him things that I never told Bones before and he told me about his feelings about the destruction ofVulcan. I felt blessed to hear that from him. He was telling me all this willingly.
Speaking of Bones, I noticed the tension between Spock and Bones. Can't have the two important people in my life arguing like cats and dogs. I invited Spock and Bones over for dinner and surprisingly, it went well. I feel like I'm the luckiest man on Earth and galaxy now that Spock and Bones are such good friends. Even now, if I'm busy with my duties, Bones and Spock will have dinner together and Spock will assist Bones in medical problems.
I finally arrive in front of Spock's room, hand reaching out to alert Spock of my presence but something made me halt. Or rather some voices.
"I do not see how your confession of feelings will improve our friendship," said Spock.
"Spock, please. I'm telling you. I love you. Don't you feel the same way too," asked someone, who strangely sounds like
someone I know.
"Leonard. I can't."
I gasp...I couldn't believe my ears..Bones? What is he doing? What is Spock saying? They are playing a trick on me. Any minute now, Spock will come out and just say it's just a joke that both him and Bones make up just to irritate me. Any minute now.
"Why, Spock? Because of Jim? You're afraid he will think we will leave him just because we are a couple?"
" Affirmative"
" Then we can keep it a secret from him, Spock. We don't need to tell him first. After we're comfortable we can tell him. Please Spock..I love you"
" I...I share your feelings too Leonard"
My heart broke into million pieces when I hear Spock's feelings for Bones. I felt tears building on my eyelid but I did not want to cry. Crying means that all of this is real and Spock is someone'e else now. I have lost him. It felt like somebody just step on my heart and repeatedly stab it with a sharp knife. Why didn't they want me to know about them? Am I such a bad friend to them?
" Then you agree to be mine?"
" Affirmative, Leonard"
" Thank god Spock! Thank you so much! You just made me the happiest man on Space!"
And now I'm the loser. I brought them together and now. This is all my fault to begin with. My two important people in my life is in love with each other, why shouldn't I support them. I care for them. If they want to be together, they have my consent. Anybody who disagree will have to answer to me. I'm glad Bones have found someone that he love and Spock too. I have to help them keep their relationship a secret from everyone, even from me. But why oh why does my soul feel like it's no longer there? Hearing to Bones joyful voice and Spock's loving words make me determine to forget my feelings and help them in their relationship. After all, who want me, Captain James T. Kirk, the manwhore. Not even a Vulcan want me..Haha..how pathetic..
Without my knowledge, I arrive at my quarters and went inside. I lay on my bed, hoping for sleep to come and relieve me of what I had just saw. But it never came, I was forced to play the memories because of my eidetic memory. I finally went to sleep, with tears on my face and Spock's name on my lips.
Lilmisscrazywithyaoi: Doing the conversation for Spock was difficult, you know!! Haiz..I almost cry when I typed this story...
any suggestion for the next chap? Kirk angst here...haiz...he's so pitiful..lost his father when he was a newborn, mom did not care about him since he was a baby and now he had just lost his loved one to his best friend who was always there for him. of course, Kirk will do his best for his best friend even to forgo his feelings for Spock..Haiz..where could we find a man like this? DAMN YOU SPOCK...!!!!!!!!!!!Please revieew.