Tears and Hatred

Me: Mello, do the disclaimer.

Mello: Why me?

Me: Because I will take away all of your chocolate and I´ll publish on the internet all the photos involving you, Matt and Near. *evil grin*

Mello: - glares at me- Fine! I will do that fucking disclaimer! She doesn´t own me, Near, Matt, L or anyone from anime Death you satisfied now?

Me: * laught* That was not so hard, was it? Well, let´s continue with my story. After all, you and Near are „close friends" , so you won´t mind it.

Mello: What do you mean „close friends" ?

Me: Don´t pretend it. I know you like him. That´s why I have decided to do you a favour. You will thank me for it someday.

Mello: NO! STOP! I DON´T WANT –

Me: End of disclaimer! * another evil grin*

It doesn´t happen too much often, but a certain albino was looking curiously on a bad- tempered blonde with icy aqua eyes, which wore black leather and it fitted him perfectly.

„What are you looking at, you albino sheep?" Mello was, as always rude to the albinotic teenager, Near.

Near didn´t say anything and Mello´s words made him only more desperate. He moved forward and Mello backed off.

„What, something on my face?" Near further hesitated to answer. The blonde was becoming a little pissed off. His eyes were burning with fire and his face wore a very dangerous look. Most people he scared off with his look. Even Matt, his best friend was scared, when Mello had such an expression.

But, they weren´t like Near. He feared nothing. Nothing at all.

Well, that´s what Mello thought.

Near sighed and returned to his position on the floor filled with puzzles. Mello replaced dangerous look with surprised one. Blonde teen raised one of his eyebrows. Near sighed? Near, that albinotic emotionless freak?

Mello felt that something is happening with his enemy and he wanted to take advantage of it. Not having any kind of plan at all, he stood up from a chair and walked to the other corner of the huge room.

There he was. His archenemy, his rival. Sitting on the floor and solving a puzzle, twirling his snowy white hair with his index finger. Mello crouched next to him and stared at him. Near didn´t even move an inch on his face, his eyes gazing on the puzzle below.

„ Hey, you freak, if you have something on your mind, then say it."

Silence. No response. Mello was feeling like he was talking to a wall. Then Near finally looked at him. In his grey eyes were....tears? Since he knew Near, this was the first time he showed emotion and he just didn´t know what to do.

Laugh him out? Beat him up? Comfort him?

Before he could do anything, Near suddenly stood up and left the room. The blonde boy was shocked. What´s up with Near? All of sudden, he aproaches me and stares at me as if he wants to say something and then he cries and leaves the room in a rush.

That´s not like him. Maybe I should go after him and ask him. I wonder what he wanted to say to me?

Mello glares at the door for a while, thinking and then he stoods up and exits the room , leaving Near´s unfinished puzzle on the floor.

The hallway was empty, so no one would see him if he right now went to Near´s room, correct? So without further thinking, Mello went across the hall, he walked up the stairs and he stopped before a white door. Near´s room.

He alone in the whole orphanage didn´t have a roommate. He prefered to be alone.

Mello prepared himself mentaly for whatever has Near on his hearth. The blonde teenager knocked on the door. Silence. He knocked again. Nothing. He tried to open that freakin´ door, but it was locked.

What the hell?! „Near, open up! I wanna talk to you!" Silence. Mello was again losing his patience. If he has to, he will break up that fucking door!

He took a few steps back and prepared to bash on the door, but unfortunately, Roger was crossing the hall, so he had to stop.

Damn! If Roger saw him, he would think he did something bad to Near and then he locked himself ip in his room.

Mello had no other choice, but to escape.

Since that accident in the large room known as common room, Near avoided Mello even more as before. Mello thought he avoided him, but in the reality he avoided someone else. Someone very close tp Mello.

His best friend, the redhead, gamer and cool- like Matt.

.............Mello had yet to realize it.

The blonde teen found it out accidently two weeks after the scene with Near in common room. He was walking across the main hallways back from kitchen to his and Matt´s room, when he saw a little light. A door was slightly let open and he heard a familiar voice. It was Matt´s.

„ See? This is what you get for hurting people, which you shouldn´t." A hard slap sounded, then Matt´s laught and only a few nanoseconds later, the door slammed. Thank goodness, Mello managed to hide behind a wall, so Matt didn´t notice him. The redhead want straight to their room.

This was Mello´s chance to find out, what is beyond that door. Curiosity was getting the better of him.

Mello walked quietly to that abandoned room and entered it. Once the door behind him closed, before his eyes was put a scene from a really bad class B horror.

Near, crouching on the floor, naked, hugging his knees, his white clothes stained with blood and ripped. The worst of all, he was crying , just like before.

Mello was for no reason the second best in Wammy´s. He put all things together. Near, acting strange and showing emotions. Matt, on the other hand happy and smiling, that was okay. But his eyes..they were different.

In last days his best friendwas leaving Mello alone too much often and he always returned with an evil grin a few hours later.

Mello was paralysed in his sudden realization. Matt had just now raped , beat up Near and god knows what more. That´s what he wanted to say to me, but he probably thought I woudn´t believe him! And here I am now, with Near in this really bad situation.

......I should comfort Near, for now, Mello thought and carefully put his hand on his shoulder. The blonde teen thought, that after this painfull experience he didn´t want any contact with Mello. But Near proved him wrong.

Near looked at him, only now noticing Mello. „M- Mello....I..." and he started to sob and cry even louder.

Mello´s hearth was aching,as he stared in Near´s grey eyes full of sorrow and pain. Damn you, Matt! Why did you do this to Near, why?!

Mello pulled on Near his bloody clothes and hugged him. He dunno why he did that, but it looked as something he had to do. They stayed like that for a while. Near´s sobbing stopped.

Mello helped Near to stand up and then he turned around, so that Near could get dressed completely. As soon as he was finished, Mello glared at him again. He had bruises all over pale, fragile body.

All of sudden, Near´s vision blurred and he fell on his knees, shaking. The albino teen crossed his arms and stretched himself to blood.

Mello knew, why he did that. Near was pure as snow, never tainted by anyone, not even Mello and Matt has tainted him.

Mello had to stop it. „Near! Stop it! I promise I won´t never again let anyone hurt you! So stop destroying your pride and I´ll go to settle things with that fucker in your stead!!" Mello turned around and walked to the door, his blood boiling inside of his veins with so much anger, that he had to burst out. But, he was stopped by Near, hugging him from behind and not letting the blond teen proceed any further.

„ Please, Mello! I don´t want any trouble. I´m fine as long as Mello stays by me. I don´t know why Matt did, what he did, but if he finds out that you know about today, he is bound to hurt me again!!"

Mello breathed heavily. „ Near, I already told you. I won´t let anyone I repeat anyone even if it is my best friend hurt you again. I will settle things with him, but not today. You seem to be very stressed. No wonder. After what he did to you....AARGH! Next time I see that redhead fucker, best friend or not, I will kill him with my own hands for making you suffer so much. How many times did he do thid to you?"

Near releasedblonde teen from his hug. „ I can´t tell for sure. Six or seven times ." Albino teen replied, his voice full of pain. Mello was shocked. So, this wasn´t the first time? No wonder Near is broken. Matt, what on earth has Near ever done to you?! Sure, I hated him too, but that was sooo many years ago and since then I´ve acted as if I hated him, but in fact I....liked him. A lot. I liked everything about Near. The way he walks, sits, plays with toys, twirls his hair, talks, everything.

Mello took Near´s hands gently and leaded him straight to Near´s room and they entered it together. The door shut and silence lied between them.

„Come on, Near. You have to get rid of those bloody clothes and get a shover.I´ll stay here with you tonight, just to make sure Matt won´t show off again." Albino teen looked into the blonde´s eyes. Grey met aqua. Then something, consider it like a miracle happened. Near smiled at Mello. Not a grin, but a real smile. „ Thank you, Mello." And he blushed.

Mello was feeling a little embarassed, but Near´s smile warmed him on his hearth. „Just go.I´ll make sure no one disturbs you." Near nodded and he took a few steps to his closet and he found a white clean pajamas and went to bathroom.

A while after that,Mello heard water dropping in the shover corner. Good. Mello thought and sat on Near´s bed. He was never before in his room. Everythinga in it was snowy whiteand pure, just like Near.

His toys and puzzles were on the floor. After twenty minutes , Near came out of the bathroom, now in clean clothes. Mello looked at him with a worried expression. „ Now, come and take a rest. Tommorow we will face Matt." Near only nodded and he slid under the blankets, his silver hair resting on the pillow beneath him.

Near stared at Mello. „ Would Mello...um, sleep by my side? It would make me feel more comfortable." Mello shook his head in an agree. He got undressed, he left only his boxers on and slid under the blankets next to Near.

Near glared at him. Mello glared back. The blonde teen hugged the albino teen. And then it felt too hot in the room. To both of them. Near blushed and Mello smiled at him.

They didn´t need any words. They would only ruin everything. Near slowly closed his eyes. Soon, he fell asleep in Mello´s arms. „I won´t let anyone hurt you again. I promise." And he kissed him on the forehead. After a while, Mello too fell to the world of dreams, involving Near.

So, this was the first chapter. This story has two. Like it, hate it? Thanks for reading so far and rewiew. Next chapter coming soon, I promise .

Guren-sama