I would like to visit you for awhile
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone hat to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me
The house has been dull and dark for months on end now. Perhaps it has even years. I haven't been keeping track. There hasn't been much of a need to really. As I looked out the window the same thoughts started to flood my head. 'What can I do?' 'How has the gang been?' 'Did Cid ever quit smoking?' 'Did Barret ever get Marlene off to a good school?' I've been thinking of them all. All though one person has been on my mind constantly.
"Tifa," I said out loud. I haven't heard from her in months. Barret just gave me her new phone number a few days ago. He never had a chance to talk to her, but he caught a small chat with her and was able to grab her phone number. The phone shook violently in my hand as I started to dial the numbers. The phone rang twice before finally being answered.
"Hello?" a small, sweet voice greeted from the other end of the phone.
"Is that you, Tifa?" I asked almost certain that it was.
"Who is this?" she sounded startled.
"It's me, Cloud." I could feel a smile spread across my face at her reaction when she finally knew it was I.
"Cloud...I...I can't really talk right now." Her voice didn't sound the same at all. She sounded scared, as if she wasn't allowed to be talking to anybody or me.
"Wait. Can we meet sometime? I haven't seen you for so long," I pleaded.
"I don't know if I can Cloud. I'm sorry. It's not that I'm trying to avoid you or anything it's just..." I heard her voice being cut off quickly from a male's voice.
"Who's on the phone?" the voice asked.
"It's no one. Just a sales man," Tifa lied quickly. "Cloud, I have got to go now," she reverted her conversation back to me.
"All right Tifa. I guess I'll see you some time, hopefully."
"Yeah, hopefully," Tifa said softly. I didn't have a chance to say good-bye before I heard the receiver be hung up. The question started to build up in my mind as I grabbed a jacket and my boots to make a journey over to her house, even if I wasn't invited.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't do to see your face again
I stood at the front door with my hand again shaking violently. 'Why am I so scared right now? It's just Tifa now,' I thought to myself. I shaped my hand into a small fist and moved it to the door and made a small knocking sound. I waited for a few minutes before I heard small footsteps pattering to the door. To my surprise, a small child around the age of three opened the door and looked up at me.
"Mommy!" the child called. I noticed a small blonde tuff of hair on his head and electric blue eyes. 'That kid looks a lot like me,' I thought to myself as I waited for the child's mother to come.
"Zell, how many time do I have to tell you, do not open the door to...strangers," Tifa came from a doorway and stuttered her last word as she noticed her visitor. I gave a flattered smile at her rude greeting.
"Cloud!" I heard her whisper loudly. "What are you doing here?"
"I had to see you Tifa. I miss hearing your voice and seeing your smile around," I answered honestly.
"You shouldn't be here Cloud," she said in a flat tone. I knew she really didn't mean it, but obviously something was keeping her from seeing me.
"Why not?" I asked.
"Because Cloud. I'm married and I have a..." Tifa didn't complete her sentence. She simply pointed down to the blonde child staring up at me from my feet. "But Johnny isn't home right now, so I guess you could stay for a little while."
I took Tifa's offer gratefully and walked in her new house. Barret told me that she had been living in Kalm now and after making a few mistakes of which house she could have been living in; I finally made the right choice and found her. A stairway led upstairs to the main bedroom and a smaller bedroom. Downstairs was the kitchen, living room, and bathroom. It truthfully wasn't a large house, but it did seem to be a comfy one.
I saw Tifa heading out the back door onto the patio out back. I followed her and took a seat on one of her white deck chairs. She followed my example and sat down on one of the ones next to me. I watched the small child named Zell come running out of the house and out into the grass to play on his jungle gym. The conversation started out like most others and quickly grew.
Springtime in the city
Always such a relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold if you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep your chin up you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
"I'm telling you, gathering wood starts to get back braking after a while," I wasn't talking about much anymore, basically anything to keep the conversation.
"Yeah, I know what you mean. The winter has been tough here too, but I was able to manage." Every once an awhile during our conversation I noticed her pull her jacket closer to her, as if hiding something precious. One of the first things I noticed when I had come in was that her weight seemed to have gone down a lot. She never weighed much before either, but now she seemed as if she was just skin and bones. I didn't want to say anything, so I just kept talking about the past winter.
"I went and visited Red, and he seems to be doing rather good. He says that it does get a little hectic every once and a while but besides that he's doing well. I haven't seen Vincent around lately, have you?" She seemed to start growing quieter, and glance and the front door constantly.
"I've seen him once or twice," she answered while still glancing at the front door.
"I'm going to go get a glass of water. Is that okay?" I asked and watched her eyes meet mine.
"Yeah, that's fine," she said with a smile. It was the first time I had seen her smile in years. I felt my heart skip a beat when I saw that smile. It always did that to me. I raised my body from the chair and walked inside the house and headed into the kitchen.
On my way, I stopped and glanced at a picture. In it, were Tifa, Zell, and Johnny. Tifa had Zell in her arms with Johnny hugging her around the waist. I felt my stomach drop as I picked it off from the counter. 'I was too late,' I thought to myself. 'If only I told you sooner.' I felt a tear slip from my eye and fall onto the glass of the picture.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't do to see your face again
I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it everyday
The water from the faucet was ice cold so there was no need to put ice in the glass. I drew the cup up to my mouth and drank the cool water. I took the glass from my mouth and set it down on the counter when I felt two eyes staring at me. The look on Tifa's face almost scared me. She looked like she was about to fall down in tears but for no reason at all. She looked scared, frightened like a small child lost from its mother.
"I think you'd better go before Johnny comes back. He doesn't like visitors," Tifa said in a low voice.
"But I'm a friend though."
"I know. I know. But still, he never got a long with you when we were younger, remember?" I started to have a small flashback from when Johnny and me were constantly in a scuffle. I shook off the thoughts and nodded to Tifa. I was too late though. A loud knock came from the front door that startled us both.
"Tifa! Why the hell is the door locked?" Johnny asked from the front door.
"Cloud, you've gotta go!" Tifa whispered loudly and walked over to me. "Cloud, you don't understand, you have got to leave." I saw tears start to streak down her face as she grabbed my arm and brought me to the back door.
"Tifa, why are you so scared?" I asked before leaving the patio.
"It's nothing Cloud. Look, I'll call you whenever I can, okay?" Tifa pleaded with her words and her eyes. The knocking became even louder and obscene words could be heard around the whole neighborhood.
So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?
I hopped the back fence and watched Tifa walk back into the house. I didn't know her fate then, if I had things would have been a lot different then and there. I could have helped her a lot sooner, but I don't blame her for not speaking up then. She was scared and didn't know what to do. I probably wouldn't have known what to do either.
Home was the only thing I could do now. The walk home would be long, but it could be done. I was lucky enough to have hitched a ride before, but I wouldn't be that lucky this time. Midgar was a long ways away, but that would be time for me to think. To think about what happened today, and to think about my future.
My future with Tifa was ruined. I was too late to tell her the truth and now I was going to pay for it. She had a family now consisting of a husband and a small child. Even if she did get married to Johnny, I should still be happy for her. Something wasn't right back at the house, but it was something that only time could tell. It was her call when she was going to call for help. But for now, I'm just going home and am going to take care of my problems at hand.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changes and so has you name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running for the pain
But what I wouldn't do to see your face again
Author's Note: As you all know, I don't own any of the characters from FF7, and I definitely don't own the song. The song is from Savage Garden's new CD and it is a very good song if anybody wants to listen to it sometime. Well, I should have the last part to this up soon because the last part of it is going to be from Tifa's view of what happened after Cloud left and her thoughts of the situation. Anyways, I wanted to try the chaptering thingy dingy, Heh Heh! ~_^
Get away and out of this city
Maybe I shouldn't have called but someone hat to be the first to break
We can go sit on your back porch
Relax
Talk about anything
It don't matter
I'll be courageous if you can pretend that you've forgiven me
The house has been dull and dark for months on end now. Perhaps it has even years. I haven't been keeping track. There hasn't been much of a need to really. As I looked out the window the same thoughts started to flood my head. 'What can I do?' 'How has the gang been?' 'Did Cid ever quit smoking?' 'Did Barret ever get Marlene off to a good school?' I've been thinking of them all. All though one person has been on my mind constantly.
"Tifa," I said out loud. I haven't heard from her in months. Barret just gave me her new phone number a few days ago. He never had a chance to talk to her, but he caught a small chat with her and was able to grab her phone number. The phone shook violently in my hand as I started to dial the numbers. The phone rang twice before finally being answered.
"Hello?" a small, sweet voice greeted from the other end of the phone.
"Is that you, Tifa?" I asked almost certain that it was.
"Who is this?" she sounded startled.
"It's me, Cloud." I could feel a smile spread across my face at her reaction when she finally knew it was I.
"Cloud...I...I can't really talk right now." Her voice didn't sound the same at all. She sounded scared, as if she wasn't allowed to be talking to anybody or me.
"Wait. Can we meet sometime? I haven't seen you for so long," I pleaded.
"I don't know if I can Cloud. I'm sorry. It's not that I'm trying to avoid you or anything it's just..." I heard her voice being cut off quickly from a male's voice.
"Who's on the phone?" the voice asked.
"It's no one. Just a sales man," Tifa lied quickly. "Cloud, I have got to go now," she reverted her conversation back to me.
"All right Tifa. I guess I'll see you some time, hopefully."
"Yeah, hopefully," Tifa said softly. I didn't have a chance to say good-bye before I heard the receiver be hung up. The question started to build up in my mind as I grabbed a jacket and my boots to make a journey over to her house, even if I wasn't invited.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from the pain
But what I wouldn't do to see your face again
I stood at the front door with my hand again shaking violently. 'Why am I so scared right now? It's just Tifa now,' I thought to myself. I shaped my hand into a small fist and moved it to the door and made a small knocking sound. I waited for a few minutes before I heard small footsteps pattering to the door. To my surprise, a small child around the age of three opened the door and looked up at me.
"Mommy!" the child called. I noticed a small blonde tuff of hair on his head and electric blue eyes. 'That kid looks a lot like me,' I thought to myself as I waited for the child's mother to come.
"Zell, how many time do I have to tell you, do not open the door to...strangers," Tifa came from a doorway and stuttered her last word as she noticed her visitor. I gave a flattered smile at her rude greeting.
"Cloud!" I heard her whisper loudly. "What are you doing here?"
"I had to see you Tifa. I miss hearing your voice and seeing your smile around," I answered honestly.
"You shouldn't be here Cloud," she said in a flat tone. I knew she really didn't mean it, but obviously something was keeping her from seeing me.
"Why not?" I asked.
"Because Cloud. I'm married and I have a..." Tifa didn't complete her sentence. She simply pointed down to the blonde child staring up at me from my feet. "But Johnny isn't home right now, so I guess you could stay for a little while."
I took Tifa's offer gratefully and walked in her new house. Barret told me that she had been living in Kalm now and after making a few mistakes of which house she could have been living in; I finally made the right choice and found her. A stairway led upstairs to the main bedroom and a smaller bedroom. Downstairs was the kitchen, living room, and bathroom. It truthfully wasn't a large house, but it did seem to be a comfy one.
I saw Tifa heading out the back door onto the patio out back. I followed her and took a seat on one of her white deck chairs. She followed my example and sat down on one of the ones next to me. I watched the small child named Zell come running out of the house and out into the grass to play on his jungle gym. The conversation started out like most others and quickly grew.
Springtime in the city
Always such a relief from the winter freeze
The snow was more lonely than cold if you know what I mean
Everyone's got an agenda
Don't stop keep your chin up you'll be all right
Can you believe what a year it's been
Are you still the same?
Has your opinion changed?
"I'm telling you, gathering wood starts to get back braking after a while," I wasn't talking about much anymore, basically anything to keep the conversation.
"Yeah, I know what you mean. The winter has been tough here too, but I was able to manage." Every once an awhile during our conversation I noticed her pull her jacket closer to her, as if hiding something precious. One of the first things I noticed when I had come in was that her weight seemed to have gone down a lot. She never weighed much before either, but now she seemed as if she was just skin and bones. I didn't want to say anything, so I just kept talking about the past winter.
"I went and visited Red, and he seems to be doing rather good. He says that it does get a little hectic every once and a while but besides that he's doing well. I haven't seen Vincent around lately, have you?" She seemed to start growing quieter, and glance and the front door constantly.
"I've seen him once or twice," she answered while still glancing at the front door.
"I'm going to go get a glass of water. Is that okay?" I asked and watched her eyes meet mine.
"Yeah, that's fine," she said with a smile. It was the first time I had seen her smile in years. I felt my heart skip a beat when I saw that smile. It always did that to me. I raised my body from the chair and walked inside the house and headed into the kitchen.
On my way, I stopped and glanced at a picture. In it, were Tifa, Zell, and Johnny. Tifa had Zell in her arms with Johnny hugging her around the waist. I felt my stomach drop as I picked it off from the counter. 'I was too late,' I thought to myself. 'If only I told you sooner.' I felt a tear slip from my eye and fall onto the glass of the picture.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changed and so has your name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running from these sentences
But what I wouldn't do to see your face again
I know I let you down
Again and again
I know I never really treated you right
I've paid the price
I'm still paying for it everyday
The water from the faucet was ice cold so there was no need to put ice in the glass. I drew the cup up to my mouth and drank the cool water. I took the glass from my mouth and set it down on the counter when I felt two eyes staring at me. The look on Tifa's face almost scared me. She looked like she was about to fall down in tears but for no reason at all. She looked scared, frightened like a small child lost from its mother.
"I think you'd better go before Johnny comes back. He doesn't like visitors," Tifa said in a low voice.
"But I'm a friend though."
"I know. I know. But still, he never got a long with you when we were younger, remember?" I started to have a small flashback from when Johnny and me were constantly in a scuffle. I shook off the thoughts and nodded to Tifa. I was too late though. A loud knock came from the front door that startled us both.
"Tifa! Why the hell is the door locked?" Johnny asked from the front door.
"Cloud, you've gotta go!" Tifa whispered loudly and walked over to me. "Cloud, you don't understand, you have got to leave." I saw tears start to streak down her face as she grabbed my arm and brought me to the back door.
"Tifa, why are you so scared?" I asked before leaving the patio.
"It's nothing Cloud. Look, I'll call you whenever I can, okay?" Tifa pleaded with her words and her eyes. The knocking became even louder and obscene words could be heard around the whole neighborhood.
So maybe I shouldn't have called
Was it too soon to tell?
Oh what the hell
It doesn't really matter
How do you redefine something that never really had a name?
Has your opinion changed?
I hopped the back fence and watched Tifa walk back into the house. I didn't know her fate then, if I had things would have been a lot different then and there. I could have helped her a lot sooner, but I don't blame her for not speaking up then. She was scared and didn't know what to do. I probably wouldn't have known what to do either.
Home was the only thing I could do now. The walk home would be long, but it could be done. I was lucky enough to have hitched a ride before, but I wouldn't be that lucky this time. Midgar was a long ways away, but that would be time for me to think. To think about what happened today, and to think about my future.
My future with Tifa was ruined. I was too late to tell her the truth and now I was going to pay for it. She had a family now consisting of a husband and a small child. Even if she did get married to Johnny, I should still be happy for her. Something wasn't right back at the house, but it was something that only time could tell. It was her call when she was going to call for help. But for now, I'm just going home and am going to take care of my problems at hand.
Because I don't know you anymore
I don't recognize this place
The picture frames have changes and so has you name
We don't talk much anymore
We keep running for the pain
But what I wouldn't do to see your face again
Author's Note: As you all know, I don't own any of the characters from FF7, and I definitely don't own the song. The song is from Savage Garden's new CD and it is a very good song if anybody wants to listen to it sometime. Well, I should have the last part to this up soon because the last part of it is going to be from Tifa's view of what happened after Cloud left and her thoughts of the situation. Anyways, I wanted to try the chaptering thingy dingy, Heh Heh! ~_^