Explaining the why to Bells.
"Were you never scared?" Bella asked me.
"Why should I have been?" I asked.
"Jasper is rather intimidating."
"You mean he is scary with the scars."
"Yeah." Bella said. She would have blushed if she could.
"He is. Can you imagine your life without Edward after first conversation in biology?"
"No not at all. Was it the same for you?"
"Yes and no." I said thinking how to explain this to Bella. "You have to understand something Bella. I had nothing when I woke up as a vampire. There was a huge void behind me and if Jasper wouldn't have been there my future would have been as dark, as uncertain and as scary as my past. Jasper gave me something to live forward to. He was there for me when I needed him the most. It wouldn't have made it without him. When I met him, I felt relief and happiness to finally find my savior in real life. I think he had felt so much fear and hate that he didn't even remembered happiness and love. I returned those feelings to him when he was at the darkest point of his life. I healed his soul and he was grateful, he still is. He gave me light in the darkness and I returned the favor. He was still surprised his scars didn't bother me. He asked me the exact same question you asked me. I told him he was my light. Even in my first vision I hadn't felt fear, I felt hope for the future to be bright. I was never scared because of the love I felt for his help in finding my way in life. He removed the darkness of my past by giving me a future. I healed his soul by giving him the love he had always deserved but had never received. He saw himself as a monster and considered his scars the evidence. I saw so much beauty hidden way beneath his skin that he could not see. He said he wasn't beautiful. I told him, perhaps not on the outside but I know you are beautiful where it really matters. That was the reason his scars didn't matter to me. He felt hope because I never judged him. He had saved my life before he even met me, how could I fear or hate him after what he did to me? From that first meeting we both knew we would be together, always." I took Jaspers hand as he came to sit beside me. I saw a look of understanding cross her face as I traced one of Jaspers many scars with my thumb. She had never feared Edward, though she had every right to, just like I had never feared Jasper though I had every reason to. We both loved our husbands beyond logic or rationality. They loved us for helping them not to see themselves as monsters anymore. We had forever and somebody to live for.