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The look in his eyes told me he finally understood. He finally understood my actions and words towards him. When it all began, even I didn't understand. My heart had been shattered by a false love before and his had never been touched by such a thing. He hadn't let it. Somehow, when I came to the conclusion of what I was and had been doing, it was suddenly too late to turn back.

I had fallen considerably hard for Hiei Jaganshi.

The knowing looks came from Keiko, Botan, and Kurama. All the while Yusuke and Kuwabara were oblivious. Well, so was Hiei. He had suspicions though. But I kept my silent epiphany to myself for as long as I could from the team. When Yusuke and Kuwabara found out, Hiei remained in the dark.

You seriously love him? Is the question that was posed to me at first. After the answer to that was given, came more questions like how and when did this happen? For some unexplainable reason I couldn't answer. I told them I didn't know and didn't want to either. I knew that Hiei wouldn't accept love and convincing them that I was happy and fine with how things were was tough. Eventually everything settled down again and life went on. However I now watched Hiei from afar.

It was inevitable that the team would get a mission where they would be hurt severely. And as ever, because I was a female regardless of power, I stayed behind. But this time scared me more than ever before. I needed to go to see them to safety. Still, I was left in the background while the boys saved humanity.

I'm sure they're fine Keiko had told me. I knew that she was worried about Yusuke but I couldn't think of anything else except Hiei.

When they came back, all of them were beaten badly. Yukina and I tended to their wounds. At least their physical ones. While on this mission they had gone through tremendous mental agony and torture. Time would heal these wounds, not I.

As the time passed, Hiei became more suspicious of my behavior. Why do you continue to look at me Onna? I had been caught watching him from the corner of my eye.

I'm simply watching to see if you're okay, Hiei. The partial lie fell from my mouth with so much ease that I was shocked.

At night I would lay awake and let the pent up emotions of the day flow with my tears of the forgotten. One fateful night, there was actually an attack on the place wee all stayed at when Koenma would need us. The demon was strong, unbelievably strong to be truthful. When I got to the battle field, the boys were already fighting. But each one was injured in some from or other.

The demon was close to death from what I could tell and I saw its final attack clearly in its eyes. The creature lashed out with its remaining strength at Hiei, who was closest to it.

I had no control over my body. It moved on its own accord and I didn't dare try to stop it. The only thought running through my mind was to save the man I loved. Soon I felt the slash of the claws biting into my flesh with a sickening sound. I fell back into Hiei, whose eyes had widened with shock and what I believed to be horror. Then the expected happened and I fainted.

Coming to, I saw garnet eyes placed on an indifferent face. But the eyes weren't as hateful as before and there wasn't a glare in sight.

I… Hiei began but I held my hand up to stop him. I know was all I said with a smile. All it took was for me to bleed for him. Each of us understood then. Hiei accepted it and so did I and I think that our lives have changed for the better with the happiness of love to look upon.