So there it was. Goodbye. I was going to be strong. I was not going
to pine and whine and wish. I was going to be good. For me, for Josh,
and for Ivy. That was my promise to myself.
*after chapter 1
Josh……I have always loved him. I always had and always will. But I can't let this feeling ruin everything in me. I promised that to myself I promised to be good for me, Ivy and Josh. I know it sounds impossible, but it's all that I can do now. Ivy needs Josh, I know it. But why do I feel like I have just been slapped in the face?
When I was across the hallway, I stole another look at where Josh was standing before. He was gone. He was probably with Ivy at her room, holding her seemingly lifeless hand. The thought made me feel sick inside and before I knew it tears began to run down my face again.
As soon as I reached the waiting room, Noelle pulled me and gave me a tight hug. It is the tightest hug she ever gave me since we met and it made me happy. "Are you okay?" those were the first words that came out of her mouth. The sincerity in her voice made me very happy that were finally best friends again. "Yeah, I guess" I told her. She sensed that I was lying and she decided to change the subject. "Everyone's here, let's go to them" she said.
What she said was true. Almost all people from the pre-party she and Amberly organized for Kiran's birthday bash were there. All Billings Girls were there with pure concern present in their eyes. Even Missy looked concerned but of course with the exemption of Amberly. "Why do you all looked concerned about her, its not like she was the one who got shot." Amberly said. What she said was true. Noelle shot her a frightening look. "Amberly, we're not asking your opinion so why don't you just shut up?" Noelle shot back. This made Amberly bend her head down and it made her cheeks burn with embarrasment and she shut up. I missed Noelle so much especially when she saved me from people like Amberly. She was always my savior, besides Josh.
But what she said still didn't make me feel better. Amberly was right, I was the one Sabine attempted to kill but because Josh pushed me Ivy was the one who got shot. The thought of Sabine made me remember the last semester. All those times I thought she was my best friend she had tries to kill me.
Noelle took me out of my trail of thought when she finally broke the uncomfortable silence, "Reed, we just decided, your back at Billings!" Noelle said with a huge smile on her face.
I looked at everyone and they all flashed me the same smile Noelle gave me. Yes, this is what I needed. After all the things that has happened to me. I deserve to be happy. I wish I could share this happiness with Josh. Although not all things may turn out well, at least some things go on my way. Maybe things wouldn't be bad after all. I never thought I was capable of being treated like this. I guess I'm wrong. My love for Josh can wait, but not forever. I will fight for him without hurting anyone especially Ivy. What's important is that I have my friends back and we will have a fantastic winter break. But what I need to do now is go with my friends to a place that I can call home.
Please review! !ell me what you thought about this sentimental chapter 1! I made this chapter short but I promise to give you more! I'm new in this but I really love the private series and this story is how I want it to turn out.