Loss Of Faith
`You a real spy then? She asked.
`Well only for our side luv `.he said
She kissed him then,
`Well fancy me being with a real spy`, she giggled.
`You go over and fight the Krauts then? she asked as she ran her fingers lightly down his chest.
`Well not on my own luv`, he said kissing her. `There's a team of us to pull the jobs off, but we get all the dangerous jobs cos we're the best, They even have a special name for us, they call us
Garrisons' Gorillas, after our Lt. Real special unit , that's what we are, do all the jobs that regular guys can't do`, he boasted.
`Oooh how brave`, she said` It must be real dangerous`.
`Nah ain't nothing to worry about, we don't get shot too often`, he said quietly.
`You've been shot? Oh you poor thing, did it hurt very much? she asked coyly.
`Not for too long, they fixed me up in hospital real good` he said.
`Have you got a scar then? she asked.
He rolled onto his side and showed her the scar left from the last time he had been shot, it was just a scratch really , but she seemed to be impressed.
`Oh let me kiss it better for you `, she said as she pulled the sheet over the two of them.
`Yeah , why don't you do just that`. He said smiling `I'm sure that will make it feel a lot better.
…
It had all gone so badly wrong then.
The girl had gone downstairs straight away and bragged to her friends about what a hero he was, told them all the half truths that he had told her just to keep her with him those few extra hours.
He had not even noticed the M.P. standing in the background listening to all that she said. Hadn't really thought that he was really doing anything wrong until he had been arrested.
Only then did he realize that what he had told her was enough to get the Warden into a lot of trouble and maybe get them all sent back to prison.
The next day Major Reynolds had arrived at the estate and had hauled Garrison over the coals for letting information about their missions be broadcast all over the village, by cons that weren't
supposed to be there in the first place , as they had been confined to the mansion as punishment for starting a fight.
Goniff could hear the Major yelling at Garrison and then heard the Warden tell him that none of them would be that stupid , but that he would look into the matter and report back to the Major as soon
as he got to the bottom of the trouble. If Garrison had hoped that the Major would leave and let him get on with the investigation he was sorely mistaken. Reynolds had told Garrison that he would
wait, and that he expected the problem to be resolved in the next few minutes.
Garrison walked through the door resisting the urge to slam it behind him and headed up the stairs two at a time.
He lined them up and looked at them in turn.
`All right which one of you clowns is responsible this time? He asked far too quietly.
`I assure you Warden that I have said nothing to anyone about what we do`, said Actor
He moved to Chief.
`Don't know nothing`, Chief said quietly daring Craig to argue with him.
That left the two that he thought most likely to have caused the problem.
`Aw come on Warden, even we ain't that stupid`, said Casino,
Goniff knew that they were all looking at him.
`Goniff`.he said.
`Was just a few little white lies, that's all Warden, I swear, didn't mean to get anyone into trouble`.
`Why you little limey fink, what the hell did you think you were doing shouting your mouth off to a cop? Asked Casino
`Did no such thing , just told the skirt I was with , that's all and she told her mates and he was listening. I'd never tell a screw nothing , you know that`, said Goniff sounding offended at the very idea.
`Well whatever you said it was enough to get all of you into trouble, considering that none of you should have been off the estate at all`. Said Craig. `I'll be damned lucky if I can talk us out of this
one`.
Goniff looked remorseful.
`Sorry Warden, didn't mean no harm , honest`. He said.
`Well let's just hope that it's not too late to put things right`, he said
Craig turned and headed for the door , hoping that for once Major Reynolds would listen to reason.
He had looked back once , giving Goniff a look that told him that he was disappointed in him, and that the subject would not be forgotten.
After the Warden left Casino had started.
`Dumb limey , you could get us all sent down , and for what , a dame, that's what`.
He grabbed Goniff by the front of his shirt.
`Why I outa knock some sense into your thick skull, you stupid little traitor`.
Actor came quickly between them.
`This is not the time Casino, if there is any more trouble from any one of us I don't think even the Warden could save us from the Majors wrath`, he said.
`Actor's right Casino, just chill ok? said Chief.
Casino threw Goniff on to the nearest bed.
`Well like the Warden said limey, this ain't over`. He said angrily.
Goniff said nothing, just got off the bed and walked quickly out of the room and downstairs to the kitchen, at least here he could be alone. Unfortunately he could also hear every word that was being
said in the Warden's office.
`I should have them all thrown in the stockade `, Reynolds said `Or better still put them back where they obviously all belong`.
`No harm was meant Major, Goniff just made a mistake that's all, I'll make sure that it doesn't happen again, you have my word`.
`Oh and just how are you going to accomplish that little miracle Lt? They seem to do just what they want around here, I'm beginning to wonder just who's in charge , if it wasn't for the fact that they
were so damn good at what they do, when they do decide to get the job done, I'd have them sent back to prison months ago.` Reynolds said angrily.
`Major it was one mistake, they shouldn't all be punished for that`.
`You're right , but I can at least do something to rectify the situation and prove to them that this sort of behaviour will not be tolerated`. He said, `I want a replacement for Goniff, I don't care where
you get him from , but I want him here within the week, Goniff will be sent back to finish his sentence That will at least send a message to the rest of them`.
Goniff stood still, trying not to show the fear he felt.
He couldn't go back inside ,
He stood waiting for the Warden to defend him, tell the Major that the team would not run as smoothly without him, that he needed him.
But all he heard was silence.
The Warden didn't say anything, not one word in his defence.
It was then that he realised that he was shaking.
They were going to send him back, well they'd have to catch him first He knew that the others wouldn't help him, Casino had been right, he hadn't meant to hurt them all this badly , but he was a
traitor after all, he had betrayed the people he was closest too. People who relied on him, he didn't deserve to stay with them, they would never trust him again , of that he was sure .
But he couldn't go back inside.
It was then that the fear engulfed him completely and the next minute he was running .
Getting off the estate was easy , he had done it so many times before it was almost second nature, and then he had hopped on the first lorry he had seen, not really caring where he was going, only
knowing that he had let everyone down, and that they could not possibly want him back there.
It had taken him to London ,and after getting his bearings he headed for the nearest pub and got himself a beer.
He sat alone in the corner trying to decide what to do for the best.
He had never felt so miserable ,or so alone in a room full of people.
He still had some contacts, he would get some money together and then head up north, any place would do, so long as it was away from them.
Somewhere where they would never find him.
He got up, finished his drink and leaving the pub disappeared into the darkness.