Chapter One

Bella Swan

i woke up with the most unpleasant greeting i could have thought of. one with no Edward. but while there may have been no Edward, there was one thing i hadnt counted on. Renee.

now i love my mother, but when she took Edwards place, that i didnt like.

"Mom?" i rubbed my eyes, hoping maybe i was either still dreaming, or that i was imagining things.

"Hey sweetie, i didnt mean to wake you."

"You didnt wake me." where was Edward?

she smiled and pushed out of the rocking chair. "I'll go tell Charlie you're up."

"you're not going to tell me why you're here yet?" i inquired.

"not yet." she sang, closing the door behind her.

i hopped out of bed and ran downstairs after her.

"Mom, what are you doing here?" i begged, nearly falling over the rug in the front hall. i followed her into the kitchen, which smelled really good. "why does the kitchen smell of blueberries and eggs?"

"your mother made blueberry pancakes and eggs for breakfast." Charlie said through a mouth full of Renee's breakfast. "you never told me she was a good cook. she never cooked for me."

"well, she never told me what she is doing here." i looked around the house from where i sat.

"what are you looking for Bells?" Charlie asked.

"What?" i looked back at him, i hadnt realized i had been being so noticable about my fruitless seach looking for Edward. "oh, nothing. anyway, Mom, what are you doing here?"

"what? you can come visit me, but i cant visit you?"

"No, you can visit." a call might of been nice. "Of course you can visit. i'd love to catch up but i have to get to school." It was Saturday.

"you havent eaten."

i stuffed a tiny pancake in my mouth. "all done." i gargled and charged upstairs.

a few minutes later i pulled into Edward's driveway. my truck had protested the whole way. i tried to go over sixty. it didnt want to.

i knew that they knew i was here before i even arrived, but they werent coming out to greet me as usual. i slammed my truck shut and stomped up to the door. i hit my fist against it twice. "Edward! Alice! i know your in there and that you can hear me!"

a tinkling voice from behind me answered my shouts. "even a human could hear that." i turned to see Alice spring lightly up the porch steps. "what can i do for you?"

"where's Edward?" i hissed.

the door opened behind me.

"i told you that we should have warned her."

"warned me about my mother coming to visit. yes, that would have been nice." i spat, glaring at Alice. i turned to Edward and all the anger was flushed from me. in his jeans and black sweater he looked amazing. his eyes were worried and his mouth was in a straight line.

i threw my arms around Edward. "why is she here? she wont tell me."

Alice danced inside and Edward clsoed the door, wrapping his arms around my waist as he did so.

"When she arrived this morning she was thinking about seeing you, then, as i left, she started thinking about how she was going to tell you about..."

"about what? we'll talk about you leaving soon." i growled, pulling my head back from his shoulder.

he buried his face in my hair. "about the new baby."

i jumped back. "new what?"

"Renee is pregnant." Alice told me.

i glared at her. "how long have you known?" i snarled impressively

"Renee has known for about three weeks." Edward said warily.

"and you?" i questioned Alice.

"eight weeks." she coughed, trying to hide it.

"eight weeks!" i exclaimed.

Edward placed a hand on my waist. "Bella, she thought you would like to hear it from Renee herself, and in order to do that, it had to be a surprise that she was coming."

Alice took my distraction to her advantage and dashed up the stairs.

i ignored her and turned to Edward.

"a new baby..."

"a boy." he told me.

"a new baby brother." i looked into his eyes.

"i'm going to be a big sister." then realization sank in. i wasnt going to get to be a big sister. i was going to be a vampire. vampires dont have little brothers. they have to break away from their life. i was going to become a member of Edward's family in two weeks. i would have a brother a few months after that.

Even though he cant read my thoughts, i knew Edward had realized what was seeping into me.

"we can wait."

"but, but, i'm through waiting. i want to be one of you..." my head was spinning and i collapsed. "i-i-i need to be one of you. i cant w-w-wait any longer." my chest hurt. i felt like i was going to throw up. but instead tears fell one by one down my face.

Edward crouched next to me as i started to sob.

as he pulled me into his lap pictures flooded into my mind.

pictures of a little boy running around, laughing, knowing he has a sister, but not knowing who she was. pictures of the little boy as a teenager, still wondering where the sister his mother always talks about is. why he has never met her. why he hasnt seen any pictures of her over the age of eighteen. why she doesnt want to know him.

"Shh, Bella, love, we'll figure something out."