"The only real mistake is the one from which we learn nothing" John Powell
Chapter 1
Rachel is trying to properly decorate the Christmas tree. None nearly normal would actually take so long to put a simple ornament on a tree, but she wants, no, she needs it to be perfect, because he deserves perfection, and after all Christmas is a magical time, and if Artie can walk, Finn can be happy. The problem is that right now he needs her to be far away from him as possible to his Christmas miracle become true which means she is back to her lonesomeness. She has no friends, and that was ok because she had him. But now that's not good anymore, she needs a friend, someone to distract her from her thoughts and memory of how great her life was and how easily she threw it all away.
Just for a second she takes her eyes from the tree and they immediately focus on him. They are so used to it that she thinks if there was a book "Where's Finn?" instead of "Where's Waldo?" she would detain a world record by now. Looking at him she can see he's not happy, neither is she, but he's better and that's progress, so she feels better too. But then, he meets her eyes and she feels her entire body melting down, her legs want to start move and go to him, her arms want to be around him and her lips want to be on his. She has to concentrate all of her energy to fight this feeling and be strong because, most of all, every part of her (legs, arms, lips and especially heart) wants him to be happy, after all she still loves him, she will probably always do, so she smiles and turn her look away, back to the tree, refocusing on her task.
Eventually Finn goes and talk to Mr. Schue and Rachel can relax a little, releasing all the tension of her body, so far no good, but she fulfilled her objective and that feeling makes her smile. And just then, as her mind is far away from reality and from everything surrounding her she is brought back by his question.
"So, aren´t you over the Santana´s drama yet?" Puck asked.
This question takes her by surprise. It's clear to everyone in Glee club that Finn and she is not a pair anymore but they don't seem to know the real reason of it.
"Actually, we are not over the Noah's drama." She gives him a sad smile while answers his question.
"I can't believe you told him! Why did you do it? Why didn't he punch me?" He seems as confusing as his sounded, looking back and forth between Rachel and Finn.
"He didn't want to be anymore lies between us. And I guess he is already used to your behavior by now. It was me who really surprised him". She responds, her eyes showing all the sadness and sorrow for the consequence of her own action. She will never be able to forget his sad puppy eyes the moment he said to her "I never thought you would make me feel like this", you being the key word. It was her and only her who disappointed him.
"I'm sorry. I didn't want to break you guys apart. Damn, even when I try to be good and fulfill my promise to God I end it messing all up." He stood there shaking his head no, in completely disbelief.
"It wasn't your fault. I was so mad at Finn, at everything. I mean, how could him lie to me like that? Making me feel special? I know we both lie at the time it all happened but once we were together I came clean, I told him the truth and it was not easy to me. I was terrified. I didn't know how he would react or even if he'd forgive me, but I did it anyway. And for what? To find out the truth from Santana in front of everyone at practice. So that once again she gets to humiliates me in front of everyone? And then I think the way she looked at him in the hallway, and worse, the way he looked her back and why wouldn't him? After all he told me that he thinks she is superhot. Can you believe that? What on earth makes a guy tell his girlfriend that he thinks another girl, or better yet, the girl he had sex with is superhot, not just hot, no, no, no, she is superhot!" And as she talks about it her speech starts to get faster and faster and her face turns into a bright shade of red.
As Pucks hears her he begins to look a little scared but then his lips turns into a smirck and he simply says. "So your answer to my question is no, you're not over Santana's drama, uhn?"
She stares blank at Puck for a while not knowing what to say until it hits her. No, she is not over Santana' situation and maybe Finn is not the only one who needs some time and happiness after all.
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