Prologue- the beginning of the end

Summary

"You're no better than the men who brutally rape me" Were the last words I said to him as I walked out the room. Where I was just violated all over again this time by the people I love. When you have nothing else to lose what more do you live for? (Excerpt from future chapter and DOESN'T NECESSARILY MEAN Rape through penetration)

Bella and Edward had it all, a happy childhood, a loving and supportive family, but most important they held each other's hearts even before they said their first words. On the day that they finally given themselves fully to each other a traumatic event occurs that changes life as they knew it. They say that time heals all wounds and love can conquer all but can love really conquer all when you've been betrayed by the ones you love?

Warning

This story gets into the heavy stuff pretty fast. As you can tell by this chapter all the things happen on their wedding night which is literally 3-4 chapters away. This story touches a lot of moral and graphic issues such as rape (physically, mentally and emotionally) and women rights(Right from the start I'm going to say am PRO CHOICE but with that being said does not necessarily mean how I'm going to write this story.)

Disclaimer: I own absolutely nothing credit goes to Stephenie Meyer. This disclaimer goes for the whole entire story

Please understand if love ends
Then I promise you, I promise you
That, that I shall never breathe again

~ Toni Braxton

BPOV

Once upon time there was a girl who fell in love with a boy and they lived happily ever after right?

I mean that's what ever Disney story and/or movie ever taught us growing up.

Quite frankly screw you Walt Disney and the rest of the creative heads at Disney that sets little girls up for failure when we grow up.

I wasn't always this cynical when it came to love. I actually did believe in Fairytales and Happily Ever After at one point or another in my life.

Hell I actually thought I was living it. I met my Prince Charming when we were both still in diapers.

I don't remember much about our diapers days but from what our parents told us we were even inseparable since then.

They'll share cute embarrassing stories about us as babies all the time. Such as one time when we learned how to take our diapers off on our own and began running around the house naked with our diapers in our hands. Or the time when we shared out first kiss when I was one years old.

If you had asked me five years ago where did I see myself or what direction my life would take? The answer would have been so simply, happily married with a dual degree in Communications and English literature.

Ever since I was a little girl I had my life mapped out for me. Hell I even met the man I would grow to love and marry when I was out the womb.

My mom and her best friend Lizzy ended up being pregnant 3 months apart from each other. I kid you not those two had been plotting Edward and I wedding even before we were out the womb; and to tell you the truth I wouldn't have it any other way.

Call it a sixth sense or even the Disney Effect but I knew growing up that Edward was my other half. We completed each other in every aspect. He was my Yin and I was his yang.

Or as my of our friends dubbed us as "The Ross and Rachel of the real world"

Yes as phoebe from friends would say "he's my lobster" as I'm his.

When our budding relationship started out, Edward was my protector ever since we both started walking and talking.

Once we started school he enforced that stance more when other kids started picking on me due to by clumsiness.

Even when we started school the boys teased him for being friends with a girl because girls have cooties; but Edward never cared. He still stuck by my side sharing his PB&J with fluff and frosted animal crackers

Edward never let the teasing get to him though even when I told him it's okay to be friends with the other boys in class. Because no matter what happen at school at the end of the day Edward and I always hung out at my house while his parents worked.

And when the boys would tease me or pull my hair, Edward would come to my rescue just like Prince Charming would to save his Princess and chase the boys away.

What can I say I lived for Fairytales as a little girl!

At age six I told our parents that Edward and I was going to get married when we get older.

At age ten I just knew I was in love with him and that one day we too would have our perfect ever after just like all the fairytales we grew up watching.

As the years passed by our friendship grew deeper and we developed a bonded no one could ever break.

Trust me when I saw people had tried to break us but when it all came down to it no matter what we always had each other's back. Yeah we gotten mad with each other plenty of times but it were like an unspoken rule we never let the day end being mad at the other.

My dad died when I was thirteen years old and that was the time our friendship change into something more.

Since I was ten I held a crush but never persuade it because I never wanted to lose the friendship we had. However once my dad died I realized life was too short and if you wanted something you had to go after it. So that's exactly what I did, a week after my dad's funeral we were hanging out in our hidden garden when I just turn around and kissed him passionately laying all my cards on the table.

I prepared myself for the worst but the worst never came. Instead I learnt that he harbored feelings for me as well but was afraid of the damage it may cause to our friendship had we did seek out to date each other romantically

We shared many first throughout the years but we saved one very special first till our wedding night.

On his 18th birthday Edward ask me to marry him in our secret garden where we shared our first kiss as lovers. I didn't even hesitate my answer was yes as soon as I saw him drop down on his knees.

We were both going off to NYU in the fall and instead of doing the whole dorm scene we ended up renting a loft in Soho.

We made many friends during college and of course our relationship was tested again.

Women were drawn to Edward and you would think I would by insecure by this but it made my love stronger. One might wonder why I said that the answer is simple.

I always thought I was your average cookie cutter plain Jane girl next door type of person compared to my Edward.

Edward was the epiphany of FINE from head to toe. He's 6"4 with a well defined body (meaning he had muscles in all the right places), and oh my goodness his eyes were the window to his soul.

I could get drown in his sea of green Tourmaline gem (which is actually the gem in my engagement ring) eyes any day.

Many people would say his eyes are like emeralds but emeralds are too common and his eyes were as rare as like I said his eyes are extremely rare and goodness do not let me start on his unruly bronze hair.

Let me get back on track though on why all the attention Edward gets from females that make my love grow for him more.

Being with Edward since we were kids help built my self esteem. While I went through those awkward braces, bad hair and glasses stage in life. Edward always made me feel wanted, loved and beautiful even when I didn't see it in myself.

But the most important reason why is because Edward never acknowledge these women, he only had eyes for me and at the end of the day three facts remained the same. It was his ring on my finger, my name tattooed on his ring finger and most importantly it was me he came home to at the end of the day.

On August 13 about a month or so after we both graduated from NYU with honors was the day our lives change and we were both looking towards the future.

That was the day we became husband and wife after a four year engagement.

We just knew we had the world in our hands and nothing could come between us as long as we stood by each other no matter what.

Our wedding day was the beginning of our happily ever after however 24 hours after our I Do's everything fell apart destroying everything we've ever worked for.

Our wedding night changed us in so many ways and worse of all we lost our selves; but most importantly we lost our way.

That night caused so much irreversible damage.

I stand now in the doorway of our home reminiscing of happier times but one thing that remains the same it's too late the damage has been done.

Lots of things were stolen from us on our wedding night. Part of me knew with time everything between us would be fixed, however that would not be the case.

Shortly after our wedding night I was betrayed in the worse way possible by my own husband.

This leads us right back to today alittle over 7 months later that I'm doing the one thing I knew I would never do.

Turning my back on everything I ever wanted. With a heavy sigh I turned away and walked out of the one place that was supposed to be home.

I walked out leaving him with HER the one he fought so hard for; the one who ruined everything and took away my very essences.

Author's note

Mine you this is the prologue which is only partial of what the actual chapter is. With that being said I'll tell you one thing, things may or may not be what they seem.

This is a Bella and Edward story as of right now I do not know if the ending will be tragic, bittersweet or HEA. I do tend to lead towards the HEA side so we'll just have to wait and see.