Cursed to be Born
If Fai could choose a day to remove from his life, it would be the day he had been born.
He wishes he could turn back time and stop the event from ever happening; to end the past before he lived the future.
One day cursed his life forever.
Only a few things from that day of tears and bloodshed remain in his memory: the curses and the screams; cries greeting the morning that should never have come for him. He was born and so had his fate sealed to forever be the accursed one; to be covered in the blood of the be the face of misery and suffering.
He knows it is not his fault. He hadn't chosen to be born a twin; was never given the choice to be cursed with magic.
He still blames himself.
He remembers his mother's face when she looked at him, her pretty features twisted into an anguished sob. He remembers how she could never be around them for very long without bursting into guilty tears at the calamity she had brought upon the world. He watched her die—he never forgets her hand clutching the knife, blood streaming from the self-inflicted wound. She would still be alive, he thinks, if he had never been born.
So would Fai.
If he had died in his mother's womb - if he had never existed - Fai would have lived, and it is this thought that fuels Fai's dark wish.
If he had never been born, Fai would have been the crown prince and lived his life in luxury and happiness. Not left alone to starve to death in a high tower, cut off from love and humanity; forced to watch the destruction of a world.
If he had never been, his mother would have lived. Fai would not have died. The valley would have continued in peace, unmarred by the stains of destruction and death.
And he would have been happy.
But no spell, no whimsical wish, can change the hands of time and turn back the tidal wave of blood that tore his soul to pieces as it ripped through his life. The dead cannot be brought to life, and so he must live with the guilt life brings until the day it surrenders its hold on him and he breathes his last.
Maybe then he'll be truly happy.