Brotherly Doubts
Disclaimer: k don't own Inuyasha
AN: Tazi game me this idea because I was in an Angst mood. Now ppl don't
take me wrong I LOVE Sesshoumaru but Yah I thought this would make a great
fic.
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Inuyasha, a ½ dog demon and wielder of the Tetsusaiga had finally slain his full dog demon ½ brother Sesshoumaru. The battle was a deadly one and both brothers were seriously wounded, thought Sesshoumaru's proved to be more fatal. At this point Inuyasha was panting heavily and leaning against a tree. His eyes were closed and blood from a gash on his forehead was dripping down his face. The Tetsusaiga, a sword with the power to slay 100 demons in one swing through the use of the Wind-Scar lay at his feet. Reflecting a deep shade of crimson in the full moons light.
Sesshoumaru's body laying a few feet away, destroyed; a complete wreck, was unmoving, his eyes wide open in shock, forever staring. Or at least that is what Inuyasha would see. If he had not been slashed across the face with his brothers' poison claws in one last failing attempt to win, before the Tetsusaiga was barbarously shoved into his chest, killing him instantly!
Slowly the sun rose and the way the battleground truly looked was reviled. Not a tree was standing, not a bird sung, and no animals moved from the safety of their homes. Everything was stained the deepest crimson, and the air smelled thickly of the life fluid. And over in the corner leaned the victor, thought still unable to see, and hardly able to stand.
Normally in his current state he would wait until he healed or one of his friends came to help him, even against his pride, he would accept their help. But he couldn't wait here, the smell was getting to him and the memories still fresh are hard to bear. And his friends were never coming. They were all killed. Kagome, Sango, Miroku, Shippo... were all dead, even Kilala was gone. No one was still alive except Inuyasha; Sesshoumaru had murdered them all to get Inuyashas' temper going.
And it had worked thought not in Sesshoumaru's favor.
The day slowly passes and at noon the sun is high in the sky beating down on the blood soaked earth, and the dying half demon. But still no one came and as time passed Inuyasha slowly and silently fell deeply into his mind wondering what he ever did wrong, what he could have changed. How, even thought he knows its too late now, he still believes if he wills it hard enough and opens his eyes their every one will be there. Every thing will be back to normal.
But when he does open his yellow orbs he still sees the battlefield, though now poor Rin is gently shaking the body of her beloved Sesshoumaru speaking softly to him.
"Lord Sesshoumaru, wake up Lord Sesshoumaru. Please wake up, we have to go. I don't like this place Sesshoumaru, please get up so we can leave. Please, Please get up. Lord Sesshoumaru! Lord Sesshoumaru!" Rin than collapses into his chest sobbing when she finally realizes he will never wake up.
'Poor child' Inuyasha thinks while silently watching the 7-year-old cry. 'He was like her father, always watching over her. Now she'll have to live with his death for the rest of her life, knowing there was nothing she could do......... like I'll have to live with the deaths of my friends, thought I'll live longer than her, forever remembering how I could have helped but wasn't there at the time to do so.'
'Did I make the right choice in killing him?' Inuyasha silently asks his self 'could I hav spared him but live without the fear of him coming back to kill me? Probably not, Sesshoumaru swore that as long as he still drew breath he would find a way to kill me. And in a way, he has killed me. I have no more reason to go on. No friends to spend my years with. Even if they were humans, would not live as long as me. I would have been happy to see them grow old or die on the battlefield with them. Instead of living with out them because it was Sesshoumaru's idea of a sick joke. A sick joke where only he understood the punch line. We all thought that Rin would bring happiness to his cold heart, teach him how to truly live like only she could do. I guess it didn't work, out hopes were too high. And now I can't even stand to look at her. She has seen more death than any other 7-year-old child has. First the death of her parents and now the death of Sesshoumaru. I guess that's what will happen if you become attached to a man like him.'
Inuyasha slowly stands up and walks towards the crying Rin. He kneels down beside her and gently picks her up and takes her away from the body and into the shade a distance away.
Rin looks up at Inuyasha and quietly speaks "Inuyasha why is Lord Sesshoumaru....d-"
'She can't even bring her self to say it' Inuyasha thinks before speaking "I'm sorry Rin but he killed all of my friends and tried to kill me. I tried to find a way to spare him, but there was none."
"Oh" is all Rin says before crying deeply into the half dog demons chest.
"Thought, he did say something before he died. I guess it was his last words."
~~ Flash Back ~~
Inuyasha deeply plunged the Tetsusaiga into his brothers' chest watching as his eyes grew huge and blood went every where. Than he spoke or more like he whispered.
"You have finally won little brother, congratulations.....But please tell Rin I am sorry....I didn't want to leave her...." Slowly Sesshoumaru's fell backwards off the sword he died trying to get.
"I'm sorry it had to be this way, Sesshoumaru, but you chose you own fate." Said Inuyasha before he stumbled over to the tree.
~~ End Flash Back ~~
"Rin," he whispers "Sesshoumaru told me to tell you he's sorry. He didn't want to leave you so soon."
Inuyasha receives no reply and guesses it's for the best. Though now more than ever he wishes he could have spared his brother. Sure they hated each other, wanted to kill each other more than once. But they were family, no matter what. In a way they needed each other, needed to know they weren't the last.
'I...I still remember when we were younger, before Sesshoumaru turned. He was like any big brother a child could wish for. Thought I was only 2, he was 9, and treated me like family. Even if we were only half-brothers we had loved each other. I looked up to him, and he protected me. I got him out of trouble (and in) and he helped make me stronger.'
Inuyasha shakes his head to stop the tears before he returns to his thoughts 'I don't even know what happened to him. He just walked into the house, his face blank and cold, his eyes hard. He had no smile and completely ignored me. After collecting his things he left. Never even said good bye to anyone. I remember meeting him 7 years later when I was ten, him 17. He was cold as ever, stronger than me by a lot and heartless. The love for my brother left that day, along with so much more.'
A tear rolls down Inuyasha cheek and drips off his chin.
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And that's the end of the first chapter! Hope its good. And Yah I no I kinda stretched Inu's past a bit to make it work. But hell I don't really no much 'bout his past 'cept the basics.
So is it any good? You could tell me in a review *hinty hinty*. O and chapter 2 will b up as soon as my writer's block leaves!
Inu: oh great another chapter
Sess: O.O u killed me!
Inu: yes I did
Sess: O.O u killed me!
Inu: yes I did now shut up!
Sess: O.O u killed me!
Ice Panther (IP): no I killed u off in the story through the usage of your brother.
Sess: oh...ok.
Inu: *shakes head* we're not related ok
Sess: goody er good
Inu: look wat u did u fangirl!
IP: soooo? Is Sess not allowed to have a personal fan girl who follows him every where and is kinda like a cheerleader without the skirt, pompoms, and a cheesy chant? (Inside joke with a long story)
Inu: yes Sesshoumaru is not allowed a fangirl!
IP: than I'm outta job!"
Inu: look shut up and rite the next chapter!
Sess: *bonks Inu over head* and you tell me I need to be nicer?
IP: exactly! Oh well time to start next chapter buhbye!
Ice Panther signing out!
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Inuyasha, a ½ dog demon and wielder of the Tetsusaiga had finally slain his full dog demon ½ brother Sesshoumaru. The battle was a deadly one and both brothers were seriously wounded, thought Sesshoumaru's proved to be more fatal. At this point Inuyasha was panting heavily and leaning against a tree. His eyes were closed and blood from a gash on his forehead was dripping down his face. The Tetsusaiga, a sword with the power to slay 100 demons in one swing through the use of the Wind-Scar lay at his feet. Reflecting a deep shade of crimson in the full moons light.
Sesshoumaru's body laying a few feet away, destroyed; a complete wreck, was unmoving, his eyes wide open in shock, forever staring. Or at least that is what Inuyasha would see. If he had not been slashed across the face with his brothers' poison claws in one last failing attempt to win, before the Tetsusaiga was barbarously shoved into his chest, killing him instantly!
Slowly the sun rose and the way the battleground truly looked was reviled. Not a tree was standing, not a bird sung, and no animals moved from the safety of their homes. Everything was stained the deepest crimson, and the air smelled thickly of the life fluid. And over in the corner leaned the victor, thought still unable to see, and hardly able to stand.
Normally in his current state he would wait until he healed or one of his friends came to help him, even against his pride, he would accept their help. But he couldn't wait here, the smell was getting to him and the memories still fresh are hard to bear. And his friends were never coming. They were all killed. Kagome, Sango, Miroku, Shippo... were all dead, even Kilala was gone. No one was still alive except Inuyasha; Sesshoumaru had murdered them all to get Inuyashas' temper going.
And it had worked thought not in Sesshoumaru's favor.
The day slowly passes and at noon the sun is high in the sky beating down on the blood soaked earth, and the dying half demon. But still no one came and as time passed Inuyasha slowly and silently fell deeply into his mind wondering what he ever did wrong, what he could have changed. How, even thought he knows its too late now, he still believes if he wills it hard enough and opens his eyes their every one will be there. Every thing will be back to normal.
But when he does open his yellow orbs he still sees the battlefield, though now poor Rin is gently shaking the body of her beloved Sesshoumaru speaking softly to him.
"Lord Sesshoumaru, wake up Lord Sesshoumaru. Please wake up, we have to go. I don't like this place Sesshoumaru, please get up so we can leave. Please, Please get up. Lord Sesshoumaru! Lord Sesshoumaru!" Rin than collapses into his chest sobbing when she finally realizes he will never wake up.
'Poor child' Inuyasha thinks while silently watching the 7-year-old cry. 'He was like her father, always watching over her. Now she'll have to live with his death for the rest of her life, knowing there was nothing she could do......... like I'll have to live with the deaths of my friends, thought I'll live longer than her, forever remembering how I could have helped but wasn't there at the time to do so.'
'Did I make the right choice in killing him?' Inuyasha silently asks his self 'could I hav spared him but live without the fear of him coming back to kill me? Probably not, Sesshoumaru swore that as long as he still drew breath he would find a way to kill me. And in a way, he has killed me. I have no more reason to go on. No friends to spend my years with. Even if they were humans, would not live as long as me. I would have been happy to see them grow old or die on the battlefield with them. Instead of living with out them because it was Sesshoumaru's idea of a sick joke. A sick joke where only he understood the punch line. We all thought that Rin would bring happiness to his cold heart, teach him how to truly live like only she could do. I guess it didn't work, out hopes were too high. And now I can't even stand to look at her. She has seen more death than any other 7-year-old child has. First the death of her parents and now the death of Sesshoumaru. I guess that's what will happen if you become attached to a man like him.'
Inuyasha slowly stands up and walks towards the crying Rin. He kneels down beside her and gently picks her up and takes her away from the body and into the shade a distance away.
Rin looks up at Inuyasha and quietly speaks "Inuyasha why is Lord Sesshoumaru....d-"
'She can't even bring her self to say it' Inuyasha thinks before speaking "I'm sorry Rin but he killed all of my friends and tried to kill me. I tried to find a way to spare him, but there was none."
"Oh" is all Rin says before crying deeply into the half dog demons chest.
"Thought, he did say something before he died. I guess it was his last words."
~~ Flash Back ~~
Inuyasha deeply plunged the Tetsusaiga into his brothers' chest watching as his eyes grew huge and blood went every where. Than he spoke or more like he whispered.
"You have finally won little brother, congratulations.....But please tell Rin I am sorry....I didn't want to leave her...." Slowly Sesshoumaru's fell backwards off the sword he died trying to get.
"I'm sorry it had to be this way, Sesshoumaru, but you chose you own fate." Said Inuyasha before he stumbled over to the tree.
~~ End Flash Back ~~
"Rin," he whispers "Sesshoumaru told me to tell you he's sorry. He didn't want to leave you so soon."
Inuyasha receives no reply and guesses it's for the best. Though now more than ever he wishes he could have spared his brother. Sure they hated each other, wanted to kill each other more than once. But they were family, no matter what. In a way they needed each other, needed to know they weren't the last.
'I...I still remember when we were younger, before Sesshoumaru turned. He was like any big brother a child could wish for. Thought I was only 2, he was 9, and treated me like family. Even if we were only half-brothers we had loved each other. I looked up to him, and he protected me. I got him out of trouble (and in) and he helped make me stronger.'
Inuyasha shakes his head to stop the tears before he returns to his thoughts 'I don't even know what happened to him. He just walked into the house, his face blank and cold, his eyes hard. He had no smile and completely ignored me. After collecting his things he left. Never even said good bye to anyone. I remember meeting him 7 years later when I was ten, him 17. He was cold as ever, stronger than me by a lot and heartless. The love for my brother left that day, along with so much more.'
A tear rolls down Inuyasha cheek and drips off his chin.
~~**~~
And that's the end of the first chapter! Hope its good. And Yah I no I kinda stretched Inu's past a bit to make it work. But hell I don't really no much 'bout his past 'cept the basics.
So is it any good? You could tell me in a review *hinty hinty*. O and chapter 2 will b up as soon as my writer's block leaves!
Inu: oh great another chapter
Sess: O.O u killed me!
Inu: yes I did
Sess: O.O u killed me!
Inu: yes I did now shut up!
Sess: O.O u killed me!
Ice Panther (IP): no I killed u off in the story through the usage of your brother.
Sess: oh...ok.
Inu: *shakes head* we're not related ok
Sess: goody er good
Inu: look wat u did u fangirl!
IP: soooo? Is Sess not allowed to have a personal fan girl who follows him every where and is kinda like a cheerleader without the skirt, pompoms, and a cheesy chant? (Inside joke with a long story)
Inu: yes Sesshoumaru is not allowed a fangirl!
IP: than I'm outta job!"
Inu: look shut up and rite the next chapter!
Sess: *bonks Inu over head* and you tell me I need to be nicer?
IP: exactly! Oh well time to start next chapter buhbye!
Ice Panther signing out!