Will I Ever Be Accepted?
Well here it is! The fic that was deemed unworthy of ff.net until I reread it over the summer and thought that is was really ok.
Disclaimer: I can't and don't own Inuyasha and co. (
Chapter 1: Meet The Freak
I sit on my bed thinking about what's going to happen when I go to school tomorrow, a Monday. I have just moved to this area and will be attending a very prestigious high school called Shikon High. Why they chose that name, I do not know.
I am in my 'true form', as I call it. I'm supposedly a human who was accidentally transformed into a youkia/human creature with Inu youkai blood and an angle type youkai blood. They, meaning doctors, don't know how to reverse it or how it actually happened. I can switch from my youkai form to my human form at any time form the extensive training I have had from the past 10 years. My training started when I was 6 and now I'm 16. I have met other youkai and they say I'm unnatural, they obviously don't know that I am one of them when they talk, and humans don't even know I exist. I'm one of the most shunned things on this planet and I hate it but I have to put up with it. Hanyous are the only other things that are shunned as much as me and they are very, VERY rare.
My looks, you may be wondering. Well, I have claws, fangs, waist length semi-wavy hair that is raven black with a deep rich blue ting to it, blue- silver eyes, a tail and dog like ears on top of my head, both of which are the same color as my hair. I also have the ability to produce wings on my back that in the light they shine different shades of a deep rich blue, silver and raven black and feel like velvet. (a/n: If you have seen Earthian or D.N. Angle it's that type of wings, not the rounded ones that you see in most pictures of angels and not like a bids.) I can make them appear and disappear at any time.
I have strength beyond words and am about 5' 5", lean and muscular but still delicate and fragile like the woman I am. I also have extremely heightened abilities. All my senses are better than a normal humans and are better than a dogs for that matter. I can sense when another youkai is near by, most of them, but they can't sense me and they don't have to disguise themselves from the humans. Everyone knows that there are youkai in the world but because I come from the riches human family in all of Japan, I must hide my youkai side. They don't want it out that I'm some sorta freak of nature and have me shunned even more than the normal youkai do already. Youkai know for a fact that creatures like me exist and when they think none are around that's when they talk about them. I always hear them talk and it makes me mad that they can't just accept us. We are people too.
My human looks aren't that bad either. I have the same length hair that is just ebony black, honey brown-dark brown eyes and have everything else that a normal human would have, that means no tail, claws, wings, dog-ears or fangs. I also am a little shorter in this form considering that my youkai form is taller than my human form should be, I'm about 5' 3". I am accepted in this form and not to many people now about what I truly am. Some friends, really close friends, and relatives manly. I don't even want to know what would happen if people at my new school found out what I am and what they would do to me. That is why I dread going. Even though I can be in my human form, when I get really pissed at something I always transform into 'the demon'. I have never been able to keep my anger inside of me and that's how I got to live here. My anger took over and I transformed into 'the demon' as my mother calls it and everyone saw. They were paid with a great amount of money to keep their moths shut about it and they willingly agreed to it. I just want to live a normal life the way I am and not have to be forced all the time to be something I don't want to be and normally am not for at home I stay in my 'true form'.
When I'm in 'human form', as I call it, I feel vulnerable, weak and useless. I hate that of all things but have to live with it. Even though my parents don't think this, I am a freak that will never be accepted for who and what I am.
Well here it is! The fic that was deemed unworthy of ff.net until I reread it over the summer and thought that is was really ok.
Disclaimer: I can't and don't own Inuyasha and co. (
Chapter 1: Meet The Freak
I sit on my bed thinking about what's going to happen when I go to school tomorrow, a Monday. I have just moved to this area and will be attending a very prestigious high school called Shikon High. Why they chose that name, I do not know.
I am in my 'true form', as I call it. I'm supposedly a human who was accidentally transformed into a youkia/human creature with Inu youkai blood and an angle type youkai blood. They, meaning doctors, don't know how to reverse it or how it actually happened. I can switch from my youkai form to my human form at any time form the extensive training I have had from the past 10 years. My training started when I was 6 and now I'm 16. I have met other youkai and they say I'm unnatural, they obviously don't know that I am one of them when they talk, and humans don't even know I exist. I'm one of the most shunned things on this planet and I hate it but I have to put up with it. Hanyous are the only other things that are shunned as much as me and they are very, VERY rare.
My looks, you may be wondering. Well, I have claws, fangs, waist length semi-wavy hair that is raven black with a deep rich blue ting to it, blue- silver eyes, a tail and dog like ears on top of my head, both of which are the same color as my hair. I also have the ability to produce wings on my back that in the light they shine different shades of a deep rich blue, silver and raven black and feel like velvet. (a/n: If you have seen Earthian or D.N. Angle it's that type of wings, not the rounded ones that you see in most pictures of angels and not like a bids.) I can make them appear and disappear at any time.
I have strength beyond words and am about 5' 5", lean and muscular but still delicate and fragile like the woman I am. I also have extremely heightened abilities. All my senses are better than a normal humans and are better than a dogs for that matter. I can sense when another youkai is near by, most of them, but they can't sense me and they don't have to disguise themselves from the humans. Everyone knows that there are youkai in the world but because I come from the riches human family in all of Japan, I must hide my youkai side. They don't want it out that I'm some sorta freak of nature and have me shunned even more than the normal youkai do already. Youkai know for a fact that creatures like me exist and when they think none are around that's when they talk about them. I always hear them talk and it makes me mad that they can't just accept us. We are people too.
My human looks aren't that bad either. I have the same length hair that is just ebony black, honey brown-dark brown eyes and have everything else that a normal human would have, that means no tail, claws, wings, dog-ears or fangs. I also am a little shorter in this form considering that my youkai form is taller than my human form should be, I'm about 5' 3". I am accepted in this form and not to many people now about what I truly am. Some friends, really close friends, and relatives manly. I don't even want to know what would happen if people at my new school found out what I am and what they would do to me. That is why I dread going. Even though I can be in my human form, when I get really pissed at something I always transform into 'the demon'. I have never been able to keep my anger inside of me and that's how I got to live here. My anger took over and I transformed into 'the demon' as my mother calls it and everyone saw. They were paid with a great amount of money to keep their moths shut about it and they willingly agreed to it. I just want to live a normal life the way I am and not have to be forced all the time to be something I don't want to be and normally am not for at home I stay in my 'true form'.
When I'm in 'human form', as I call it, I feel vulnerable, weak and useless. I hate that of all things but have to live with it. Even though my parents don't think this, I am a freak that will never be accepted for who and what I am.