AN: This is the repost of Nothing I've Ever Known, the Bryan Adams SongFic I did a while ago. I removed it because I wanted to rework it abit, rename it and give it some chapters. Hope it meets your approval.

Disclaimer: I don't own Remus or Severus, the Spirit song or soundtrack, or the poems in the future chapters. I feel I've given the appropriate info on them and will also willingly give out the links to the site I got them off of. I'm not going to bother with reposting the disclaimer or doing new ones on each chapter.

Nothing I've Ever Known

Severus sat on the couch in his living room, sipping red wine and watching the flames in the fireplace die. Their death was slow and steady, like his thoughts. Occasionally there was a sudden burst of sparks, a sudden realisation or idea.

He was considering Remus. He was coming over later. He said they needed to "talk." that made Severus nervous, like it did with any other man. They'd been seeing each other for sometime now; it was a causal thing, a fling or affair really, but all the same Severus didn't want it to end. That's what he was afraid of. Remus deciding it was over, that he was bored of him.

And that's also why he'd sat down to think - to figure out why he didn't want it to end so much, why he was worried, what he could do to keep the werewolf to himself. He'd had advice from several people in the last few days. Potter said that Remus wanted commitment. Minerva said he wanted space. Black said that it Severus hurt Remus, he'd see to it that Severus was castrated. He shuddered at the thought. Black was enough of a sick fuck to do it, too.

He stood and went to the shelf that held several framed pictures. There was one of his mother, one of his father, several of various cousins, and one of he and Remus. He picked it up and studied it. The figures could hardly keep their hands off each other, not letting go of their embrace, kissing occasionally, stroking and fixing each other's hair. They took no notice of their watcher. He sighed and carried it over to the window ledge, setting it down beside him as he leaned on the frame. He finished the wine as he gazed out the window at the white Hogwarts grounds behind it, his confusion growing. He'd never experienced this before.

Right now I feel - Just like a leaf on a breeze

Who knows where it's blowin'

Who knows where it's goin'

I find myself somewhere I - I never thought I'd be

Going in circles

Thinking about you and me

How do I explain it when - I don't know what to say

What do I do now - So much has changed

He sighed again, setting down his glass. He wanted to assume Potter was right. Commitment. But that was risky. Commitment means telling each other your deepest, darkest secrets, and if he told Remus those he'd leave for sure. Commitment also meant he would have to open himself to Remus and show emotion and weakness and all those other things Severus had spent years training himself against. He'd never associated anything but lust with Remus - once he'd become Remus anyways. He'd always been Lupin before, not worth Severus' time. Now all the potions master wanted to do was spend every waking moment in Remus' company.

He paused at that thought. Every waking moment? That implied that Severus had feelings for Remus, which of course was preposterous. No, he definitely did not. He just appreciated Remus' company, that's all. And yet something about that statement nagged at him. That wasn't how he'd been acting. He'd gone out of his way to see Remus, and come to think of it, Remus had done so as well. If it was just a matter of company it wouldn't matter if Remus left him. He could just get another partner, some other intelligent man.

But Severus didn't want another man.

He wanted the werewolf.

The dying flames suddenly leapt up and changed, sending green light flooding the darkening room as a figure stepped out and brushed himself off. Severus couldn't help the slight smile that came over him as Remus walked over and leaned on the other side of the window, smiling hesitantly at Severus. He suspected it then, very suddenly. What a disturbing thought.

Nothing I have ever known - Has made me feel this way

Nothing I have ever seen - Has made me want to stay

But here I am - Ready for you

I'm torn 'n I'm fallin' - I hear my home callin'

Hey - I've never felt something so strong - Oh no

It's like nothing I've ever known

Remus picked up the picture beside Severus silently. He traced the figures lightly, then sat it back down. He started to speak but Severus cut him off, pulling the smaller man to him and kissing him gently. He felt Remus' surprise and slight hesitation, but they melted away as the kiss slowly deepened. There was no urgency, nothing hurrying them. Neither rushed their slow exploration. The last of Severus' confusion and nervousness disappeared, replace by a calm, flowing knowledge.

Now you're the one I'm lookin' for

You're the one I need

You're the one that gives me - A reason to believe

Following a star - Has lead to where you are

It feels so strong now - This can't be wrong now

Eventually they parted, still holding on to each other. Remus leaned his forehead on Severus' chest as Severus Pressed his cheek lightly against Remus' head. He gently stroked Remus' hair like his picture self, a silent and affectionate gesture. Remus sighed contentedly in his arms and tightened his hold, making Severus smile in spite of himself.

Nothing I have ever known - Has made me feel this way

Nothing I have ever seen - Has made me want to stay

But here I am - Ready for you

I'm torn 'n I'm fallin' - I hear my home callin'

Hey - I've never felt something so strong - Oh no

It's like nothing I've ever known

Severus gently pushed Remus away, not much, just enough to look into his eyes. Those beautiful hazel pools gazed expectantly at him, overflowing with hope and something else, something Severus hoped he wasn't imagining.

Right now I feel - Like a leaf on a breeze

Who knows where it's blowin'

And who knows where I'm goin'

"I love you, Remus."