A DAY LESS...
By mercurianblue
Disclaimer: I do not own Evanescence, "Haunted" by Evanescence, or any part of Sailormoon. Sailormoon and all characters therein belong to Takeuchi Naoko-sama. I only use the music and the characters as inspiration for my own musings.
Haunted
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still cant find what keeps me here
When all this time ive been so hollow inside
I know you're still there...
Usagi sits in front of her mirror staring blankly at her reflection. "Who am I.." she thinks to herself as she examines her crystalline eyes. "Are these even mine? What about this hair? This body? Is any of it truly Tsukino Usagi anymore?" Memories of the silver millennium filter through her mind, whispering words of devotion, hardship, a life she never really knew. All she ever wanted was to be a normal teenager. Survive high school, meet a nice boy, have a family; those were her biggest dreams. Now the soul of Serenity, a princess from ages ago, has begun claiming her place in the heart and mind of Usagi. She sits in front of the mirror as a ghostly image appears, one of a white haired young woman with the same eyes, same hairstyle, with a look of sorrow upon her face.
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Feeling you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
She shifts uncomfortably as the specter of her other self stares out from the glass. "I always wanted to be a princess: graceful, beautiful, smart. Now I am. I got what I wished for. I am the reincarnated body of a dead princess from a chunk of rock orbiting the earth. I am really nothing but a shell. What about the life I had up until this point? Does that not mean a thing? Am I just a container for the heir of the Silver Millennium? I am not she! I am not graceful. I enjoy different things. I want different things from this life. I do not want to fight. I never wanted this responsibility!" She puts her head in her hands and grits her teeth in frustration. "I am losing myself completely...I want to be Usagi, not Serenity!"
Hunting you I can smell you – alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me
She lifts her head and matches her eyes in the reflection. "Yes princess, you have saved me countless times, brought me love and life, but also heartache, pain and death. You are taking everything I am. Must my soul, my essence be sacrificed for you to come?" Little by little, Usagi realizes she is losing the battle for the remainder of her self identity. Usagi thinks back to Naru and Umino. She realizes they are all but gone now. They used to be so close, since they were children. Where are they now? Her senshi friends are wonderful and she would die for them. Same for Mamoru. The man she loved then and loves now. Doesn't she?
Usagi walks over to the window of her bedroom and stares longingly at the rising sun. A new day. A day closer to the day she will fully become the princess. A day closer to the day she will assume the throne over all the earth and become Neo-Queen Serenity. A day less not to be Serenity, or Sailor Moon, but just Usagi.
Disclaimer: I do not own Evanescence, "Haunted" by Evanescence, or any part of Sailormoon. Sailormoon and all characters therein belong to Takeuchi Naoko-sama. I only use the music and the characters as inspiration for my own musings.
Haunted
Long lost words whisper slowly to me
Still cant find what keeps me here
When all this time ive been so hollow inside
I know you're still there...
Usagi sits in front of her mirror staring blankly at her reflection. "Who am I.." she thinks to herself as she examines her crystalline eyes. "Are these even mine? What about this hair? This body? Is any of it truly Tsukino Usagi anymore?" Memories of the silver millennium filter through her mind, whispering words of devotion, hardship, a life she never really knew. All she ever wanted was to be a normal teenager. Survive high school, meet a nice boy, have a family; those were her biggest dreams. Now the soul of Serenity, a princess from ages ago, has begun claiming her place in the heart and mind of Usagi. She sits in front of the mirror as a ghostly image appears, one of a white haired young woman with the same eyes, same hairstyle, with a look of sorrow upon her face.
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Feeling you loving you
I won't let you pull me down
She shifts uncomfortably as the specter of her other self stares out from the glass. "I always wanted to be a princess: graceful, beautiful, smart. Now I am. I got what I wished for. I am the reincarnated body of a dead princess from a chunk of rock orbiting the earth. I am really nothing but a shell. What about the life I had up until this point? Does that not mean a thing? Am I just a container for the heir of the Silver Millennium? I am not she! I am not graceful. I enjoy different things. I want different things from this life. I do not want to fight. I never wanted this responsibility!" She puts her head in her hands and grits her teeth in frustration. "I am losing myself completely...I want to be Usagi, not Serenity!"
Hunting you I can smell you – alive
Your heart pounding in my head
Watching me wanting me
I can feel you pull me down
Saving me raping me
Watching me
She lifts her head and matches her eyes in the reflection. "Yes princess, you have saved me countless times, brought me love and life, but also heartache, pain and death. You are taking everything I am. Must my soul, my essence be sacrificed for you to come?" Little by little, Usagi realizes she is losing the battle for the remainder of her self identity. Usagi thinks back to Naru and Umino. She realizes they are all but gone now. They used to be so close, since they were children. Where are they now? Her senshi friends are wonderful and she would die for them. Same for Mamoru. The man she loved then and loves now. Doesn't she?
Usagi walks over to the window of her bedroom and stares longingly at the rising sun. A new day. A day closer to the day she will fully become the princess. A day closer to the day she will assume the throne over all the earth and become Neo-Queen Serenity. A day less not to be Serenity, or Sailor Moon, but just Usagi.