A/N: Here's a little one shot about Laura/ X-23. I suppose it would actually take place in The New X-Men: Childhood's End story line but it is based primarily off events we saw in Evo so I'm putting it up here. Hope you all enjoy.
Warnings: Self mutilation, rape, torture
Disclaimer: Are you kidding, I barely have enough to pay for my internet connection…
Laura's Secrets…Or the drabbles of a Weapon
When night falls on the Mansion it's mine. I am the one who knows what's going on, where everyone is, what they're doing, what they're dreaming…
I can hear the pained cries…the horrified screams…the whispers of passion.
But no one hears me.
Here in my secret place not even Logan knows where I am. Underneath the heater, wrapped in multiple peoples clothes…he can't smell me, can't hear me…can't find me.
That's the way I like it.
I'm not really here. I'm not a weapon here, don't exist beneath them all. I can observe, I can learn. To be something I'm not.
To be human.
Down here, I can feel. Feel my claws etching patterns into my skin, the blood dripping to the floor, the nausea of guilt as the ruby liquid dries. Feel the pain of what came to pass, the beatings, the violations, the assassinations I was forced to commit, and the pain of knowing I will never be them. Feel the tears slipping down my cheeks, soaking my shirt, mingling with the dust that gathers here.
Dust. Blood. Tears. They make up my secret place, allow me to survive here.
Up there, amoung the ones I think I love, I exist. But I don't survive. Up there, I am X-23. I am a weapon. A killer. Dangerous. The whispers of fear in their eyes confirm it. I will never be human to them. I will never be Laura.
Laura only survives here. With the dust. With the memories. With the blood. With the pain.
Above me, Rogue sobs in her sleep, Ororo screams because of long dead night mares, Jean whispers for Scott to be rougher…and it's mine. And I am human.