This is my first ever Mass Effect fic, so please be nice?

It is short but really I want it this way, short chapters :)

Please enjoy, bad reviews welcome~ Just no real flames?

Ps. Edited it as I now have the story all worked out.

I sat there staring at the glass in my hand, watching the liquid inside it glisten as I turned it slightly, just sat here thinking..

Thinking about how much time I lost out on her life, 109 years to be exact.

"Oh Nezzy.. Why?" I softly muttered this so many times, I can't deny it, I still love her and I always will love her, I just wish secretly we could of worked it out Nezzy, for our girls sake.. For our own sake.

She really has grown up Nezzy, you'd be proud of her, one of the biggest information brokers in the galaxy, dating the great Commander Shepard and I will always watch over her, at least for as long as I can, I have already missed out on her growing up, but no more, nobody messes with my girl.

I always blamed you for what happened with that bastard Saren, but ever since our Little Wing told me you were indoctronated I feel so guilty, blaming you for it..

I should of known better, nearly a thousand years old and I really don't know crap..

The memories just wont go away.. Memories of us, memories of me regretting just letting you go like that, I wish I fought harder for you, I have some ideas of why you left, but I wish I had tracked you down and asked you before you joined that bastard Saren and got involved in all that trouble.

"Damnit Nezzy just listen to me!"

"Why should I? All you resort to is violence, violence solves nothing at all."

"Sometimes violence is needed but for once please listen to me! I love you damnit, just please listen.."

"How am I supposed to know you mean it Aethyta.. You've lied to me before, so why should I believe you now?"

"I lied to protect you but I'd never lie about this, I love you! I've never felt this way about anyone else before, please Nezzy.. Goddess I love you so much!"

"I.. I love you as well Aethyta but..."

Hard to believe you left me while pregnant, with our kid.

Damnit Nezzy, why didn't you tell me why, you know I was I guess, excited to have a kid with you.. I loved you much...

This time, I couldn't stop the stray tear roll down my cheek.

Placing the glass in my hand aside I wiped the tear away, trying so damn hard to make sure no others fall.

Wiping the tears away I just sighed, I don't know what to do anymore, only thing I can really do is make sure our Little Wing is safe, make sure that damned Shepard looks after her.. She better, or I'll be slapping her with a singulairty and making sure she will never come within a damned light year of my girl.

Once thing I can promise you Nezzy, I'll protect her, I'llgive my life to protect her if need be.

She is alot like you, she really is a T'soni, she is calm and loving but can be a real bitch..

Exactly like you were, I wonder if we had made it work, I wonder if you'd still be alive? Or if we'd all be alive, if Liara hadn't of met Shepard then maybe everything would of turned even worse, as much as I wish it could of worked, to be with you again.. Maybe it just was meant to be like this.

Our Little Wing has grown up alot since I last saw her, she was only six months old when I saw her for even if I did sort of break in to your house to see her, but nothing was going to keep me from her.. Not even you Nezzy.

I had tracked you down to your house in Armali, a nice little place by a park..

Perfect to raise a kid for sure, I know you thought you could keep her hidden away from me but you should of known better.

Once I knew you were gone from the house for a while I had broken in, easy task really... but hard part was making sure the damned nursemaid who looked after Liara didn't notice me, once I had slipped past her I went straight to the play room.. Where she was.

I had opened the door to see her in a little playpen, just sat there, giggling and playing with her stuffed toys, I stood there watching her for a few minutes, she was, so cute, looked a little like you too, you could tell she was a T'soni, those damned eyebrow markings, but she was adorable, those freckles made her look like the cutest little thing you ever saw.

I walked over to the playpen smiling, she had noticed me by now, her face lit up as I grew closer, as I picked her up she grabbed the fabric of my dress, I hugged her to me, as I did she sort of... hugged me back, I felt like I was going to cry really.. I had finally done it, I was here, holding my little girl, whom you tried to hide away from me, but I will never allow that.

I had stayed there for around an hour, hiding when the nursemaid came to check on Liara then playing with her when she left, you came into the play room and saw me holding her, you looked like you were about to send a singulairty right at me then and there, but you couldn't risk harming her, so you just.. told me to put her down and get out.

Of course I refused as I have rights as her sire to see her.

"Damnit Aethyta, put her down and get the hell out of here, or goddess help me.."

"Goddess help you what Nezzy? I have rights as her sire to see her, you are not

keeping her from me, she is as much my daughter as she is yours."

"I don't care, your not coming within a light year of her from now on!"

"Nezzy you shout anymore and you'll make her cry, goddess you ran off before she was born and left me blaming myself because you left, but now I see why you left, you're ashamed you've parented a pureblood aren't you? Ashamed to have melded with another f*cking Asari!"

"That is not true Aethyta, I don't have to give you an explanation as to why I left, it is none of your buisness, now put Liara down and leave"

"Liara.. So you used the name we picked otu for her after all? Hehh."

"Don't try to stall Aethyta, out. Now!"

"Fine.. You win this round, but you won't keep her from me!"

As the memories flow through my mind.. I just drink and drink, until I can no longer remember them, at least for tonight, at least for tonight I can sleep peacefully without nightmares about you..

"I love you so much Nezzy and I will never stop loving you."