I swore I was gonna marry him. Instead fate had another thing coming to me. My love was dead, leaving me here stranded alone with a child. I thought about abortion, that wouldn't solve anything. That would be me stopping another heart from beating. Kurtis's heart will forever stopped. I wish mine was. I would kill myself if I had the strength to, but I couldn't see myself injuring an innocent being in me. Now that Kurtis was dead I had no one to run to when mother got angry, no one to truly love.
There was Xander. I don't think of much about him, but he's a good guy. Maybe he could take care of the baby when it comes? Him and his father… maybe the kind man with the odd eyes? It would probably be a burden… But when the child comes, and had a proper home, I would be…
G O N E.
xxx
"She wants to go home
But nobody's home,
That's where she lies,
Broken inside,
She's lost inside,
Lost inside,
Oh-ohh…"
-Nobody's Home (Avril Lavign)