I never cried. I never cried when Stefan broke up with me. Only once did I silently cry into Damon's chest.
I guess I didn't have feelings for him anymore. I felt absolutely nothing for him. I only felt for Damon, but I haven't admitted that to anyone yet - though of course, Stefan guessed by himself. That's why he broke up with me.
We were sitting on the front steps of my house when he told me, and it was a mutual feeling - we couldn't be with each other anymore. He would leave town because he knew I would chase after Damon. He left my house without another word, and the next thing I knew, he was gone. Cut out of my life forever.
The only time I cried was when I saw Damon for the first time since the break up. I felt bad for him - he had lost his brother. Because of me. I felt ashamed. I thought he would hate me forever.
He was crying, shaking, not knowing what to think. Instead, he ran up to me and stood there for a while. And then I figured out what he needed, a hug. I grabbed him into a big hug and didn't say a word. I didn't try to seduce him or anything, he needed a friend right now, not a girlfriend.
I didn't even know if he would be with me after all the times I told him I'd chosen Stefan. His head turned to face me, and his eyes stared deep into my brown ones. His eyes were beautiful - stormy grey and full of grief.
I put my hand on his cheek and told him what I always do when Stefan leaves, "We'll get through this. We always do."
And that was the day I cried for someone else. Not because we had lost someone close, but because he had lost a brother. A friend. An enemy. The only family he had left.
"I thought you'd be balling your eyes out by now. Losing the love of your life and all that," he said.
"Me and Stefan were done when he became a Ripper again. Nothing was the same after that. Being a vampire just made it worse. I cried enough when that happened, and now it's over. There's no more crying left to do. Except for you."
"For me?"
"Yes. Damon, I'm sorry to say, but you don't have a Stefan or an Alaric anymore."
"I have you. And that's all I need."