Second Best- Mello

A/N: I was bored one day and just felt like writing a poem from the point of view of one of the Death Note characters. Since Mello is my favourite character I chose him. So… I hope you enjoy. Oh yeah, and I don't own Death Note, even though I wish I did.

It's hard to battle feelings of inadequacy,

A bigger struggle than it may seem.

But not as hard as ignoring the way people look at me,

Feeling them judging a person I didn't want to be.

All my life I've been taught to succeed,

I was never one to sit back, always got up to lead.

I learnt never to settle for anything less than the best,

I needed to push myself higher than all of the rest.

This one want is my entire being,

The drive inside me that everyone is seeing.

I need to be first to get an ounce of respect,

Or else be ground into the dirt with all the rest.

I needed to form an iron skin,

Make myself incapable of letting anyone else in.

And even though I try to block the pain inside,

In the dark and all alone all I can do is cry.

But it's a sacrifice willingly given,

Call it a selfish desire but it's the way I'm living.

I may have to give up much to get to the top,

But once I get there the satisfaction will never stop.

Then people will like me, love me,

Everyone will scream my name and recognise me!

From all over the world I want to be known,

I'm sick of a life of being neglected and all alone!

So what if this macho act is only a shield,

After all it is the most powerful tool I wield.

A way to release my pent up anger in violent rages,

I have no reason to lock up my emotions in mental cages.

Just seeing people squirm as I crush them gives me pleasure,

Let this world that has treated me so badly get filled with terror!

Then those I hate the most will admit that they're beat,

And will grovel and slobber like dogs at my feet.

I will be something, I must be something,

Anything less… then I am nothing!

I will never be content with second best,

I will surpass Near, L and all the rest!

I know my ambition…

I know my destination…

So why does it hurt so much…

Why doesn't this seem like it is enough…

I do not want to fade,

I do not want to drift away.

But this want is making me the worst to be the best,

And making me lose the rest.

But I can't give up…

I must surpass the rest…

Because no matter what happens…

I don't want to stay as second best.