I don't own Harry Potter or Bones. Hello! So this is my first ever Harry potter and bones crossover. i like Bones but i didnt watch every episode so i'm not that familiar with it but i know the general story of it. So the characters might not be that in character but i hope you guys like it. Also, this is au, there's no magic and i'm not following Bones storyline.

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Perfection is not for me

"It is a pleasure to meet you, Mr. Potter," She extended a hand towards me followed by a warm smile, "Parker speaks of you a lot," I timidly grasp her hand and shook it lightly, my rehearsed was still seamlessly intact even when she mentioned the cute and adorable blonde boy.

"Really? I hope it was all good things," I was proud of my flawless mask. I looked impeccably casual and relaxed as I pulled the chair out for her, wincing inwardly at the screech. Gesturing for her to sit, I also sat down right across from her. There was a tense silence as we both stared at each other, I saw her mouth open and I immediately readied myself for any question she was about to shoot out.

But we were interrupted as a shadow loomed over us. I looked up and all of sudden my shoulders relaxed and I couldn't help but smile. But he wasn't looking at me.

"Hey Bones," they shared a gaze that had me fidgeting in envy, "Harry," I nodded back not missing how he greeted me second, "So anyway, this is Dr. Temperance Brennan, my partner," He declared as he sat down, on the chair right next to her, their elbows were practically touching. My eyes snapped to the browned haired woman in front of me as she spoke.

"Not romantic partners but, "She paused to glance at Booth, "We work together, I am a forensic anthropologist,"

"Bones," the man whispered to his 'partner', "He knows who you are,"

Dr. Brennan leaned closer, "Yes, but we weren't properly introduced and it's professional to say your—"

"Dr. Brennan," I cut her off but abruptly regretted it when their attention was back on me, "I do know who you are, I hear you are the best in the field," I faked an excited chuckle at the end which earned me a quick thank you from the woman.

"Come on Bones, your coffee is getting cold," she nodded but looked at the brown swirling coffee, Booth paused with his cup halfway to his lips, "what's wrong?"

"I told you I liked black coffee,"

"I know, that one's for Harry," His hand skimmed mine as he gave the cup to me, the tingles from my hand overwhelmed me and I almost didn't notice their whispers, "I figure we'd just share, we need to go soon anyway," the officer took a sip as his partner nodded. Dr. Brennan then grabbed the cup and took a gulp placing her mouth right where Booth drank from before. My eyes lingered on the spot. Back when I was a teenager, I would overreact at the prospect of an 'indirect kiss' but I knew that that was far from the extent these two had already experienced together.

After all, the way they leaned towards each other and the way they acted as if they were the only two at the table said it all. Suddenly, I frowned as a thought came to me.

"Where's Parker?" Booth looked up and I struggled to look him in the eye, who knows how many chances I'll get to do it?

"Oh, he went to the bathroom. Here he comes now," I turned around and my face lightened as a bob of blonde hair whirled its way around the crown in the small little café, "Hey buddy!" Booth stood up and grabbed the laughing little boy and lifted him up in the air. I listened aloofly to their father and son conversation filled with laughs and teasing. Across from me, I looked at Dr. Brennan. Her face was quite like mine actually, but there was a sort of freedom to her emotions, like she wasn't afraid to show it. My feelings were hiding, underneath this façade I show every day.

I didn't know whether to be happy or to be sad. The woman had love shining in her eyes, she may not know it yet but she will realize it soon enough. And when he does, it'll make Booth the happiest man on earth. I know Booth, I know him even better than he does and I know Booth felt something all the way back to when he first spoke of the crazy forensic apologist he just met or who's now referred to as Bones, a nickname that brings a light to the officer's eyes. But I wanted to be the one…the one who would make Booth happy, but I know that it's impossible. I might as well accept it.

Booth sat back down with Parker on his lap, Parker smiled at Dr. Brennan before deciding to climb onto my lap. I pasted a huge smile on my face as I hugged the cute kid.

"Hey Parker,"

"Hi Harry!" I grinned as Parker hugged me back and then turned around and started to smell the warm steaming scent of my coffee, which I haven't even drank yet. He propped his elbows on the table and listened to Booth who started to talk.

"Hey buddy, me and Bones are working on a case so you want to stay at Harry's for a little while?"

"Yeah," He bounced up and down on my lap and I chuckled, the first real laugh I had today, Harry's the best babysitter ever,"

"Really? What's so great about him?" Booth asked with a quirk of the lips. Then the little kid enthusiastically started to talk about the adventures we went on and I was able to lose myself in his ramblings for a moment. The little kid really started to open up more as he grew older. But Parker was so into it, he never realized he changed from answering Booth's question to actively talking to me. I nodded her and there to appease the bundle of energy but my smile immediately collapsed as I saw them. Of course, Parker didn't notice and I was able to put my charade back on and continue to listen to Parker, who was now talking about the things we could do today.

But in the corner of my eyes, I saw it. Their hands were grasping each other and they each had a smile on their face, I reveled in Booth's upturned lips, it was a sight I never saw before. But I wished to be able to see Booth's face like that, so warm, so inviting and full of adoration. The only thing that would make this better is if that look was directed towards me.

But it wasn't.

I then turned my sight to Dr. Brennan, my eyes traced her high cheekbones, firm chin, silky brown hair and her lips which looked perfectly soft and smooth. To sum it all up in one word…beautiful.

She was beautiful, worthy of Booth, but whom I still think is ten times more stunning.

She was absolutely perfect. A body wriggled on my lap and I stopped staring at them to look at Parker, who stopped talking and was also looking at his dad and Dr. Brennan. The pair didn't even notice because they were off in their own little world.

"She makes daddy really happy,"

"Hmm?" I started at Parker's comment but I quickly composed myself and forced a beam, "Really," Parker only nodded. I was impressed at Parker's sudden show of maturity.

"I like her," My mouth was too dry to say anything more so I just grunted and buried my face in his hair, "But I like you too," I laughed brokenly.

"Thanks Parker,"

"So don't be sad," My eyes snapped to the little boy's, I stared at him. He was only a kid, how could he know what I was feeling?

"I'm not sad," it sounded even weak to my ears but Parker seemed to have moved on from the conversation and was getting up. He tugged me up and I lifted him up to carry him. I decided to drop the conversation for now, "What do you want Parker?" I asked pleasantly.

"Ice cream,"

"Ok, chocolate right?" He grinned and said yes. I turned around and still saw them looking at each other and whispering about this and that, probably about the case they were working on. It was like there was a bubble around hem and I felt guilty for having to pop that bubble.

"Booth," I coughed to clear my parched throat after I caught their attention, "I'm gonna take Parker to get some ice cream," Booth nodded and didn't even bother to wave. There was silence for a moment before I summoned the courage to say more, "It was nice to meet you Dr. Brennan,"

"You too Mr. Potter," She actually met my gaze and somehow I felt that she knew my most inner thoughts. She looked somewhat apologetic and I panicked for a second thinking she knew about my affections but then I relaxed, thinking she wouldn't be the type of person to hold this against me. Her actions were genuine and I tried to wordlessly tell her it wasn't their fault.

It really isn't her fault, it's not like she stole Booth from me. I may have met him first but…

He wasn't mine to take and he still isn't.

But it didn't stop one tear from escaping through a crack in my mask. Thankfully, I already exited the café by then and Parker was the only one to see the wetness on my cheek. He didn't say anything but instead got down and grabbed my hand to lead me to the ice cream shop right across the street.

I couldn't help but look back one more time, but I wish I didn't.

They were leaning towards each other and from my perspective I could clearly the distance between their mouths. They were still speaking and my eyes were riveted on their lips which were so close together, I mainly couldn't take my eyes off Booth's mouth. I could just imagine me feeling his kisses.

A stranger in the café accidently bumped Booth in the shoulder making him lean even closer to her… and that's when I tore my eyes away because I was already this close to breaking down in public. And I couldn't begin to envision what it would feel like to see those lips I desired for so much to be on someone else's, but what's worse is knowing that they deserve each other and i had absolutely no right to break them apart.

However, I pushed down my panic. I shouldn't have to care. They can do whatever they want; I tried to convince myself unsuccessfully. Booth then turned around and my sorrow was melted all away for a minute. He had the biggest smile on his face, bigger then when Parker got an A in math after much nights of tutoring and studying, bigger than when I took him to whatever football game he's been wanting to go since forever.

In the ice cream shop, I focused back on Parker who was skimming the choices of ice creams, albeit the fact he already knew what he was going to get.

She was perfect, I thought as scooted around to make way for other children.

I took a staggering breath, I couldn't cry, not now.

But the ache in my heart just wouldn't go away and visualizing the image of Booth and Dr. Brennan together with Parker, it just broke me. I wouldn't be in the picture, they wouldn't need me anymore. I scoffed silently, they don't need me right now, I'm only the babysitter and somewhat Booth's…friend.

Just a friend, nothing more.

"Harry, I want chocolate," I didn't grin but I tried to smile with my eyes, "Really? Never would have guessed," Parker giggled and dragged me up to pay.

I froze as the bell on the door ringed when Booth and Dr. Brennan came in. they were still talking, and when Parker came up between them, my heart skipped a beat as I saw the three of them.

I vaguely remembered giving the cashier money and giving the ice cream to Parker. It was all a blur when I hugged them both after they got a phone call and needed to go. But I did remember embracing Booth longer than necessary. And when they were gone, leaving me and Parker sitting at a table with his ice cream dripping all over his little hand, I saw it.

I saw it in my head.

I saw Booth, Dr. Brennan and Parker all together, the picture of perfection. And it didn't have room for one more.

XXX

The next time I met Dr. Brennan was perhaps the most embarrassing moment of my life. My small apartment was getting refurnished so I moved in with Booth. It was heaven, I saw him every day, we're both not big talkers but the silences were comfortable. But it was getting harder to hide my urges, I had to run outside to 'buy some milk' when I saw Booth shirtless coming out of the shower with just a dainty towel around his waist. Or I needed to spend ten minutes in the bathroom after Booth came back from the gym smelling of sweat and then starting to strip to change into something more comfortable.

It still hurt because it doesn't seem like he could get a bloody clue, or perhaps he knows but just chooses to ignore it, that possibility is actually even worse. Parker comes too; sometimes his mom drops him off to spend time with us. I was happy they divorced; she and Booth didn't look that well together. I'd never thought I'd say this but for that reason I'm glad Dr. Brennan is in Booth's life.

Anyway, it was on a normal day and I was in the bedroom I shared with Booth. There were two beds and a few miscellaneous scraps of clothing or trash on the ground.

The sound of low moaning could be heard no matter how much I tried to silence her. The woman on top of me was cute, she was a black-haired beauty with a nice body and back when I was younger, she would be naked already. Yet I didn't try to get our clothes off, I was content with just feeling her tongue slide against mine and her curves pressing against my body. She was straddling me, she started to grind her arse onto my groin but I stopped her.

Her brown eyes looked into mine but I just closed mine and continue kissing her.

It was absolute torture.

Every time she groaned or whimpered I would cringe because that would ruin the illusion that someone else was kissing me. Someone with hard abs and strong arms and whom I'm completely infatuated with.

And that someone is Booth.

Only him.

She finally became quiet and I could almost pretend that she wasn't there; I could almost pretend that her squishy breasts were firm and hard instead and I could almost pretend that there was something extra between her legs.

Almost.

This wasn't meant to happen, I went to the bar for a couple of drinks with Ron my friend whom I haven't seen in a while and we just got a little drunk. It wasn't a big deal when we started flirting with others but I didn't think that the girl I was buying a drink for would be that serious. I tried to protest when she started to get a little frisky but the whole situation with Booth has gotten me down more than I thought.

Honestly, I didn't drink that much and I was pretty much sober when she first kissed me. I was still pretty sober when I led her to my place. But I just couldn't take my crazy hormones that have recently been all over the place because of Booth. I really only meant for it to be a little groping, nothing more but perhaps if I didn't have those couple of drinks, I would be smart enough to not bring her to the apartment I shared with my secret love.

This is what happened, we didn't lock the door. It wasn't like we had too, Booth was off working on a case and I wasn't planning to go that far with this girl I hardly knew. But the door was indeed open and the man who walked in caused me to bolt from the bed and practically throw the girl off from me. Later on, I would apologize for being so rough but she wouldn't accept it and I wouldn't care.

His eyes were huge and his jaws were hanging open. He never saw me with anyone, I was only the babysitter and he didn't care enough to ask about my love life. I was already ready to apologize and try to explain, say something like 'this isn't what it looks like', 'I'm sorry', or 'we're not serious', the last was what I really wanted to say. And I was about to say it, I was about to clarify my actions to the man who only thought me as a responsible babysitter and the man who didn't realize my feelings at all, not even a little bit despite me being around him all the time.

But she stopped me. I got tongue tied. Dr. Brennan was right behind Booth and it wasn't really her that caught my attention, it was the big bruise that was visible on the side of her neck. I gawked at the mark with bulging emerald eyes for a couple of minutes before realizing the girl was already up while I was still on the floor. I shot up and I opened my mouth to say something…anything.

"Hi," That was not what I was planning to say. The words got caught in my throat, I should be saying something along the lines of 'you got it all wrong' or 'we're not like that' but I just couldn't, it was really all because of Dr. Brennan, she brought my resentment back, "This is…awkward," that seemed to crack Booth out of his stupor.

"Yeah…is she your…" Booth started with Dr. Brennan who was pressed up close to his body looking intensely at me.

"Yes," This is what I should've said: no, but instead I said yes, I even proceeded to introduce the confused black haired girl to Booth and Dr. Brennan. After the introductions Booth just gazed at me like he was about to give a hormonal teenager 'the talk'. My hands were behind my back and I started to wring them like rags. The girl was standing next to me with a smug look on her face after hearing me announce her as my girlfriend.

My green eyes bore into Booth's, It was like I was trying to control his mind, trying to make him say something…do something—

Anything! Anything to show he's just a little bit jealous or something! I anticipated it, I wanted him to show that he's just that much upset about me being in a relationship…it has to have an effect on him somehow, or this would all be to waste, I would just look like a player to Booth and Dr. Brennan.

"That's…" I leaned closer, the annoying girl on my arm moved with me,"…it's…its great!" I stood there frozen as Booth came up to me and slapped me on the back. He might as well be slapping my heart.

"G—great, yeah…" I stuttered. Dr. Brennan also nodded, showing off her hickey to the world, or maybe I was the only who cared enough to notice it. She smiled at me and I forced myself to smile back.

"Hey, I got news too," I looked back to Booth who clapped his hands together and started to speak.

"Me and Bones," My blood ran cold when the two shared a meaningful look, "We're together," there was complete silence for a moment, I was too out of it to realize the normal thing would be to congratulate them, although that would be the farthest thing from what I really wanted to do, "Harry? We're partners…you know not like that partners, but like partners partners…" Booth trailed off.

I nodded slightly and struggled to show happiness.

"Wow…t—that's great Booth. I—I'm happy for you," his smile was worth it…I think, maybe only a little bit.

"Thanks man,"

"No problem," I whispered back. That was the most I could accomplish with my heart now in ruins. I didn't even have the energy to give Booth a man hug, an opportunity which I took every time it presented itself to me. I breathed in Booth's cologne as he still dragged me into a hug. He leaned closer.

"Hey, so I'll just leave you two alone ok?" He whispered into my ear. I nodded blankly. I didn't take my eyes off the man for one second as he walked out the room with his 'partner'. I didn't even wave to him and I refuse to feel guilty when he made a confused face at my coldness.

Then I was brought back to the girl whose name I didn't even remember. Her perfume made me sick, it was far too girly and desperate. I silently gagged as she snuggled up to me.

"So," She started, "I am your girlfriend now?" Her voice was actually quite timid and innocent and I just felt so tired thinking how I brought her into this mess. But the regret was short-lived when she started to embrace me tighter, almost choking me in the process.

She waited for a reaction but I only hummed affirmatively as a response.

It was the only thing I could do.

XXX

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