p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;""Matt please turn around and look at me" said Mello. "For everything we've been. Matty"/p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;""Mello" said Matt, almost in tears. "Please leave me, alone"/p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"The words made an eco in Mello's mind. Matt just left him there in the rain. It was poring. That night. All Mello remembers now is them lying in bed together, how they'd talk. How they'd end up kissing each other. How the kissing then turned into a fuck. Then they'd fall asleep, then when Mello awoke the next morning he'd feel at ease./p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"Mello can't remember the reason why Matt left him. When he has tried to move on he can't. When it rains it reminds him of all the things they tried to set into stone./p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"If Mello had another chance he'd fix everything. He'd be good if Matt stayed with him. Mello now stays awake till about five am only getting one hours sleep a night. Each night he promises himself he'd sleep earlier. He keeps breaking that promise./p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"Mello has constantly tried to forget about Matt and his video game habits. The fact that every time Matt needed a cigarette he would return with a chocolate bar for Mello. Mello would then return that with a devilish smile and then a kiss. Sometimes Matt made Mello chase him into the bed room. It was pretty clear where that went./p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"But now it's just Mello. When he tries to sleep he ends up tossing and turning. Mello sees Matt's face. Every time he wakes from a nightmare that's all he thinks about. Is Matt's face. Then to get back to sleep he ends up crying./p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"Mello only has one thing left from Matt. There was a shirt from a store that Matt liked. Mello brought it for him. It was black and white. It now lies in Mello's dresser drawer, because he can't bare to look at it. Occasionally Mello takes it out and hugs it. Mello hasn't washed it since Matt was there. It smells like him./p
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p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"But that's always the same routine. Because each night is a long night with out the one that he loves. Who believes Mello could never love anyone. That's just how the story goes./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;""Mello" said Matt, almost in tears. "Please leave me, alone"/p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"The words made an eco in Mello's mind. Matt just left him there in the rain. It was poring. That night. All Mello remembers now is them lying in bed together, how they'd talk. How they'd end up kissing each other. How the kissing then turned into a fuck. Then they'd fall asleep, then when Mello awoke the next morning he'd feel at ease./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"Mello can't remember the reason why Matt left him. When he has tried to move on he can't. When it rains it reminds him of all the things they tried to set into stone./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"If Mello had another chance he'd fix everything. He'd be good if Matt stayed with him. Mello now stays awake till about five am only getting one hours sleep a night. Each night he promises himself he'd sleep earlier. He keeps breaking that promise./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"Mello has constantly tried to forget about Matt and his video game habits. The fact that every time Matt needed a cigarette he would return with a chocolate bar for Mello. Mello would then return that with a devilish smile and then a kiss. Sometimes Matt made Mello chase him into the bed room. It was pretty clear where that went./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"But now it's just Mello. When he tries to sleep he ends up tossing and turning. Mello sees Matt's face. Every time he wakes from a nightmare that's all he thinks about. Is Matt's face. Then to get back to sleep he ends up crying./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"Mello only has one thing left from Matt. There was a shirt from a store that Matt liked. Mello brought it for him. It was black and white. It now lies in Mello's dresser drawer, because he can't bare to look at it. Occasionally Mello takes it out and hugs it. Mello hasn't washed it since Matt was there. It smells like him./p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;" /p
p style="font-family: 'Times New Roman'; font-size: medium;"But that's always the same routine. Because each night is a long night with out the one that he loves. Who believes Mello could never love anyone. That's just how the story goes./p