She stared out the window arms folded, seagulls flew over head in circles. It was a gorgeous day the sun shined bright warming her face. There wasn't a cloud in the sky at all. She had gotten up early went to the gym. She always felt better when she had done her exercise. She meditated, took a shower, and drank her morning tea. She should have felt amazing, even happy. Things were good, great actually. Most of the villains were locked up tight, therefore Jump City was in no need of saving. The team was great too, Cy had been talking to Bumble Bee on regular basis. One would consider them to be an item but they weren't calling it that. Robin and Starfire had finally put a label on their budding romance. After Tokyo there was no need to hide it anymore. Beast Boy was spending most of his time on an online game with people he had met in Japan. He had be chatting with a girl that currently she didn't remember the name of. Everyone was healthy and contented. Everyone but her. She had every reason to be happy and yet all she felt was dread. She let out a long sigh as she heard the door slide open. Her stomach turned to knots instantly, without turning around she knew it was him. He wrapped his arms around her and pulled her close to him. He kissed her cheek and whispered,

"Good Morning Beautiful."

"You're here early." she retorted she bit her tongue trying to calm herself. He shrugged still holding her against him.

"Yeah I wanted to see you." he replied quietly. She didn't say anything she hoped he wouldn't notice her uneasiness. Many curse words were going through her head when she finally said,

"I'll make you some tea." She pulled away from his embrace. She took one step before his hand was on her arm spinning her around to face him. He leaded in aiming for her lips, she of course saw it coming and turned her head. He gently kissed her cheek instead. He frowned disappointed but he didn't say anything. She knew he wouldn't say anything anyways. She pulled away again and walked towards the kitchen. He sat down on the sofa as she started heating the water. She again found herself staring off into space. Her thoughts wandered thinking about love. She never had considered her as one to be 'in love' but even this seemed wrong to her. She had never been good at expressing emotion but this was different. 'You not suppose to dread seeing someone.' she thought.

She bit her lip as the kettle whistled at her pulling her back to the situation at hand. She poured the water into a cup and grabbed tea bag. She put it in and watched the water swirl around turning from clear to pale brown. She picked up the cup and walked back over to him. Handing him the cup he gave her a short, "Thanks." He took a sip and looked back up at her.

"What do you want to do today?" He asked. She didn't answer as she walked back towards the window again. "Raven!" she jumped at his loud tone. He never shouted.

With her eyes wide she said, "What?" His blue eyes locked on to hers.

"I said, what do you want to do today?" he repeated.

'Anything but be with you.' the thought came and she found herself wishing that she had an excuse to get out of the date. "I don't care." she answered casually. He smiled at her. She gave him a small smile trying to avoid his questions. She turned back gazing at the ocean. 'If a villain wanted to attack right now that would be perfect.'

Raven met Lucas three months ago. They met while the team was busting Johnny Rancid for stealing from Wally's Jewelry. Lucas was there take pictures for Jump City News. He took to Raven quickly and was asking her all sorts of questions. At first she wasn't sure about him, he had quiet mannerisms but he made it clear that he liked her. He asked her to dinner and after much persuasion from Star and Cyborg, she complied.
After dinner he took her to a dark poetry read at her favorite book store. She founded out Lucas was a lot like her in the ways of they liked tea, dark poetry, and reading. He an average height and build, bright blues eyes and black hair. Nothing super special about him most people wouldn't give him a second glance unless they were a 'emotional' teenager. The down side of Lucas was he was quiet, which Raven herself wasn't any chatty Kathy but he was almost too quiet. She thought she prefer someone who was quiet like her but as it turned out because he was so quiet their conversations quickly turned into long awkward silences. After the first date that's how it normally went. Silence. When they did talk it was always about tea, books, or photography. It got boring pretty fast for Raven. She brought it up after a month of dating and Lucas said that he liked that he didn't have to always worry about what he was going to say around her. So he was oblivious to the awkwardness or he ignore it.

'Why am I still with him?" she thought. Lucas was very sweet and he always agreed with her. He was generous, she could say she wanted the moon and he find a way to get it for her. He treated her with respect never forcing anything. 'He thoughtful and kind but he just not...'her thoughts stopped 'He not what?' she looked back over and him lounging on the sofa. A single word popped in her head. 'Green.' She didn't move afraid that if she moved her face would somehow show what she was thinking.

Swish

The door opening cause her to jump she turned and saw Beast Boy. Her eyes flew to Lucas back to him. Her heart began to pound in her chest like a drum.

"Hey Rae!" Beast Boy stated cheerily oblivious to Lucas. He had just showered his hair was still wet. He wore and interesting outfit considering but since the lack of missions he felt free to wear his white tank top and basket ball shorts. Raven couldn't help but stare at his shoulders perfectly sculpted and defined with muscle. He opened the fridge and grabbed thing of tofu and carrots. Raven eyes shot back to Lucas who was now standing. Beast Boy turn his eyes locked instantly on Lucas. The whole mood in the room changed. Raven shifted her gazed from Lucas to Beast Boy. Holding her breath she just hoped she wouldn't have break up a fist fight.

Lucas spoke first, almost in whisper, "Garfield." Raven took in a sharp breath and looked at Beast Boy. He glared at Lucas and a smalltsknoise from his mouth.

"Lucy." he growled back. Lucas smiled at his nick name irritating Beast Boy more. He shifted his glare to Raven, who had yet to make a noise. "I didn't know it was bring your pet to work day." Beast Boy hissed at her.

"That's rich coming from you. What is it you do again? Oh right you turn into kittens and bunnies." Lucas shot back at him. Beast Boy narrowed his eyes at him. He took a big breath and then smiled.

"At least I don't have to think of new ways to entertain my girlfriend." He said smugly

Lucas walked over to Raven. "Girlfriend? You mean the one you don't have?" he replied He wrapped his arms around Raven and pulled her tight against him. Raven knew that it was time to leave. She didn't have to be an empath to read what Lucas was implying. Beast Boy's eyes were wide and his face was turning a red color.

She pulled away from Lucas and gave Beast Boy a sad look before saying, "We are leaving now," and with that she grabbed Lucas hand and pulled him out of the common room before Beast Boy get another word in.

Lucas and Raven walked around the park in silence. She didn't know what to say or what to think. She wanted to be mad at Beast Boy for being such a jerk but she just felt more mad at Lucas. 'I shouldn't have let it escalate that far.' she pondered. Lucas reached for her hand showing remorse. She took it fighting her urges to just walk away from him.

"Sorry." He whispered. She bit her lip as she looked at him. "I don't know why but he makes my blood boil." She gave him a swift nod. showing she understood. He frowned and looked down at the ground. "I really am sorry."

"I just wish..." she sighed "I wish you guys could just get along."

"Hey! I tried he was the one who made it clear he didn't want anymore friends." He said defensively.

"I know Beast Boy can't be hard to get along with but he's one of my best friends." She spoke. "Besides you get along with Robin and Cy so well."

Lucas gave her a small smile. "Robin and Cy are cool they respect me, but Lima Bean, he doesn't. I don't know what is but he acts like I stole you from him or something."

She let out a defeated sigh. "Lucas please don't start this again."

"No Raven I'm serious I'm not joking Beast Boy has feeling for you." he jumped in. Again biting her lip this was the only topic they ever fought about.

"Lucas I've told you so many times, Beast Boy and I..."

"I never said it was you." He cut her off. His hand raised to her face. His thumb gently brushed her cheek. "I see the way he looks at you." She rolled her eyes. "Just trust me when I say he got some sort of feeling for you. Whether its a crush or something else... I don't know but I can see it. I'm a guy." His thumb moved to her lips. He ran it across her bottom lip, his eyes never leaving hers. "Luckily for me I am the one who gets you." he whispered. He pulled her in and kissed her. She didn't move she let him kiss her.

'You should try to enjoy this kiss, see if you can feel anything.' she thought suddenly. She began to kiss back for the first time. Wrapping her arms around his neck pulling them closer. Lucas stomach dropped in excitement. He took the opportunity and open the kiss. Raven opened her mouth letting him in. As soon as his tongue slipped into her mouth, she felt her gag reflex coming on. Her eyes flashed open and she pulled away. She wiped away the whatever remained on her mouth. Breathing though her nose she tried to control herself. She moved her hand away from her face and began walking again. Lucas was stunned with what just happened. He followed after and grabbed her arm.

"Are you okay?" He asked. She closed her eyes briefly and lied,

"Yeah, I'm just tired. I didn't get a lot of sleep last night." He just nodded.

"You want to go home?" He asked.

"If you don't mind." she replied He smiled at her and took her hand in his as they started back to the tower. Raven was lost in thought of the kiss she just had. It wasn't like Lucas was a bad kisser. She just didn't feel anything when he kissed her. Then of course when he had slipped her the tongue that when she almost lost it. It was so wrong. She started feeling nauseous thinking about it. She had seen kissing in movies, not to mention the number of times she accidentally walked in on Rob and Star that wasn't suppose to happen. 'You're not suppose to gag on your partners tongue.'

They made it back to the tower and the both decided it was better if Lucas didn't come in. He said his goodbyes and told her call her tomorrow. Raven made into the tower and upstairs. She walked down the hall trying to decide if she should get tea first or meditate first. The dread that she had been carrying around all day was finally gone. It always left as soon as Lucas did. Letting her feet guide her she noticed they taking her to her room. 'Meditation it is.' she thought. She turned down the hall just a few steps from her room and there he was standing there. She felt her mouth dry instantly as she wondered how long he had been waiting for her.

"Raven..." He started She sighed. "We need to talk."

"Beast Boy, please I'm super tired and I don't want to argue you with you." she stopped and faced him.

He stared into her eyes. "I'm not looking for a fight either, Rae." He said in a stern voice. She raised an eye brow at him not believing him.

"Okay? So you're not about to yell at me or call my boyfriend a cretin or an effeminate?" She questioned. The corner of his mouth curled into a small smile.

"I like when you use big words and try to confuse me."

She sighed again she rubbed her forehead. 'I think I feel a headache coming on. Funny how even though it was a beautiful day it still managed to turn into a rotten one.'

"Anyways, I just wanted ask you why?" He added.

"Why what? You should really try to finish your sentences." she retorted

"Why are you dating Lucas?" He questioned. Just the sound of his name made her stomach tie up. Sucking in a breath she tried to remind herself that she was not emotionally prepared for a yelling match.

"Because I like him, he makes me happy." She answered.

"Bull shit." He stated not even blinking. She was lying through her teeth and he knew it.

"Fine you can believe whatever you want but Lucas cares about me." She shot back

"Lucas follows you around like a lost puppy. Waiting by your side at any beckon time." he replied.

"He cares about me! I know it hard to believe that someone would care about me but he does." Her fist clench she was standing on her toes trying to match her height to his. Beast Boy rolled his eyes at her.

"Okay he cares about you, but tell me he makes you happy? How?" He demanded. She glared at him her anger ready boil over at any second. She looked at her door then back at him.

"What does it matter?" she asked

"It matters to me. I want know how,boring, forget he's even in the room, Lucas makes you happy."

"I shouldn't have to explain it to you Beast Boy. You should just be happy that I am happy." she retorted back.

"If you were happy Raven then maybe I would be but you're not happy. I can see it. Look I said some pretty mean things to him this morning and interestingly you didn't say anything to protect him or defend him."

"He can defend himself he's an adult."

"No, that's not what I mean. You could have throw me out the window or kicked my ass, but you didn't which tell me that you don't care about him as much as you pretend to." he taunted "So tell me, do you still get butterflies around him?"

A simple question really but with all the anger she was feeling she couldn't hide her expression on her face. For an instant she wore a look of confusion realizing she never not once felt nervous around Lucas. His eyes studied her and taking aware of her silence he spoke up again, "Have you ever felt butterflies for him?" she purse her lips. Like reading her thoughts she began to feel annoyed and humiliated. How dare he call her out like this and make her feel like a fool.

"Not every one gets all jittery and weak in the knees." she spat her words like venom as she spoke Raising his eye brows he shook his head disagreeing with her. He reached out and with two fingers he touch her fist. Looking down she her hand slow began to open to his touch. He pushed his four fingers through the small space between her hand and her fingers leaving he thumb to rest on top ring and pinky finger. She felt a ping of guilt wash over her as he held her hand. Her eyes moved back to his who was staring at her.

"You don't feel you heart start beating so fast you feel like it pound right out of your chest? Or you stomach just took a one way ride down a roller coaster?" He asked his voice lower now. His thumb began to rub circles on her fingers.

She felt her face flush as she look away from him. Her heart was pounding but she was angry. A very logical reason. This whole thing was stupid. She shook her head.

"Beast Boy I thought you were my friend, friends support each other. So who do you think you are telling me how I should feel." She fumed.

"Rae, I am your friend and as your friend I'm tell you, you should be with someone else. You should be with someone who can make you happy." he persists

"Yeah?" she was now shouting at him "AND since your so smart and a wonderful match maker WHO do you think I should be with?"

"Me." He said in a matter of fact tone. With wide eyes she stared at him almost not believing what she was hearing.

"You?" she questioned. Her whole body was shaking now but she couldn't decide if it was really because she was angry or not.

Without saying anything he decided to prove it to her. He grabbed her wrist pulling her right against his chest. Leaning down, his lips slightly parted he gently touched them to hers. He held her there not moving he just kissed her softly drinking her in.

Raven watched as his lips brushed against hers. His lips were soft and warm. Just like a waterfall all the anger she felt melted away from her. She was stiff as bored as he held his lips on hers. Then she felt it. A spark that felt like she was being shocked. Her stomach dropped to her knees and her arms erupted in goosebumps. He pulled away and looked at her. Her eyes flash open looking at his lips. Her mouth was open partly. She stared at his face in wonderment. 'How did he do that?' She had never felt a kiss like that she didn't think it was possible for her to feel that.

She continued to stare at his lips wondering if they were magic. Her body reacted craving for more. One hand wrapped around his neck pulling him down to her lips. They crashed together and she again felt that magic feeling. His hands moved to her hips pulling her right against his as he returned her kiss. She pushed him up against the wall her hands moved across his shoulders feeling his muscles under her finger tips. Her body felt like fire as she realized she pressed up against him. Beast Boy hands were on her neck now holding her there. She opened her mouth slightly and he followed by sticking his tongue in. She stopped moving as he continued to kiss her. She waited for her body to react like it had with Lucas. It never happened. Instead of a gag she moaned against his mouth. Passion filled their bodies as they kissed. His hands moved down her back igniting shocks of pleasure through her. Her hands were up underneath his shirt. Her finger danced across his perfect muscles. He pulled away from her mouth gasping for air.

"Rae..." She didn't let him finish she kissed him again. He kissed her fiercely and pulled away once more. "I don't want to stop." He whispered.

"Then don't..." She replied pulling him back in for more. He smiled against her lips loving every second he was getting with her.

"But..." he mumbled her mouth was still on his. "Lucas?" As soon as he said it there was a loud POP! The light bulb above them exploded. He pulled away and looked at her. Her eyes were wide as she had forgotten all about Lucas.

"Oh God. Lucas." She groaned. What did she just do? Her plan of mediation and tea to forget about her awful date had turned into full make out session with Beast Boy. Beast Boy! 'oh god I made out with Beast Boy. My teammate... oh..' her mind was racing. She looked at his face which he wore proudly. His arms were still across her back and her hands were under his shirt resting against his abs. Her face redden realizing this she removed them and pulled up her hood to hide from him.

"I have to.. mediate." she said quietly. She moved towards her door and walked in leaving Beast Boy in the hall. His body was still buzzing from their moment. He closed his eyes, his hand moved up through his hair. He didn't know what he had expected when he had pulled away to remind her about Lucas but what he got was less than ideal.

Sighing he removed himself from her door way and walked to his room. 'Shit.'