The Way You Held Me
He walked through the dark house and stopped by the glass doors. When he tilted his head just a little he could see the stars at the sky. But he really didn't see the stars. He saw the dark, cold void without an end. It remind him of the pain he was feeling. He blinked. Those couldn't be tears he was holding back. He took few steps back, opened a cabinet door and grabbed a bottle of clear liquid. He needed a drink like he had never needed before.
The memories were almost too much to bear. He had tried everything but she had rejected him time after time. The times EJ had held Samantha in his arms were only distant memories but he could still feel her touch. Everyhing he had tried to bring her closer had only pushed her further away from him even when all he had done was to speak the truth. Samantha didn't want the truth EJ had come to realize. All she wanted was her own little fantasy world where nothing was quite right.
He gazed the bottle knowing that no amount of alcohol would numb this pain. He leant to put the bottle back to the cabinet when the lights went on. He wasn't alone anymore. He saw his brother by the door trying to look cryptic as always. Instead of putting the bottle away he made two drinks and handed one of the glasses to his brother.
"Are you trying to poison me, EJ?" Benji signed before taking the drink and looking at EJ.
"No, there's no need to do that. Not yet. Did you do what I asked?"
"I hate when you do that. I know father made you his successor but you don't need to rub that in my face."
"I'm sorry. I wish he would have chosen you." EJ said and took a sip.
"No you don't." Benji replied, "That's all you hoped and worked for."
"Yes I do, the price was too high."
A picture of her eyes and smile flashed in his mind. Then he saw her walking away from him once again. Then he had brushed it off and walked to his future as the head of the DiMera clan. Now he would have given anything to go back to that moment and stop her from walking away.
"Still thinking about her are you?" Benji asked. EJ hated that his brother and biggest competition knew his greatest weakness. EJ nodded and took another sip from his drink.
"Why won't you try charm her back?" EJ heard the question and pondered the idea for a while. He had thought about it before but always discarded the idea because he couldn't be sure of his success. She was the only one who could keep him on his toes.
"Samantha is one of a kind. I can't win her back", EJ said and turned to the door to walk away. But Benji wouldn't let get away so easily.
"That doesn't sound anything like you. You don't usually give up so easily. You haven't really fought for her have you?" EJ controlled his temper and turned to face Benji:
"Are you trying to mislead me? What are you up to now, brother?"
"Nothing brother. I wouldn't say no if you were to hand over the DiMera empire to me when you'll go after the love of your life."
EJ gave a little lauhgh. He couldn't afford to make any mistakes while holding the reins of the DiMera empire. EJ still needed to convince his father of his leardership abilities. He needed to do much more than just to crush all the enemies of the DiMera family and shine in business. EJ needed to show Stefano that he was an independent soul and not a puppet. If he would submit to simply following his fathers orders Stefano could never respect him the way he wanted. EJ smiled. He wanted it all and he would get it all, including Samantha.