Prologue
If you wanna leave I won't beg you to stay
And if you gotta go darling
Maybe it's better that way
I'm gunna be strong
I'm gunna be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
Just walk out that door and see if I care
Go on and go now but…
In times like these it's important to be strong for the ill. Without your strength they are nothing; without your strength you are nothing. Lack of strength from the loved ones around you makes knowing your end is near almost unbearable to tolerate
Don't turn around cause you're gunna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around; I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go, but I won't let you know
Strength is having the power to accept the things you cannot change. I've learned that if you must cry give fair warning. Turn your face and make no noise, but cry. Cry all you want, but give fair warning and turn your face. Come to terms that you will have to let go. Hide this from your loved one though, as they will need all the hope you can spare.
I won't miss your arms around me holding me tight
If you ever think about me just know that I'll be alright
I'm gunna be strong
I'm gunna be fine
Don't worry about this heart of mine
I know I'll survive
Sure I'll make it through
And I'll even learn to live without you
They say denial is a bad thing but if it helps you to cope who are they to judge? Stay in denial as long as you please; I am. Keeping up the façade of a strong human being is easier in denial. I've found it's easier to let go when in denial…. Well, sort of.
Don't turn around cause you're gunna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around; I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go, but I won't let you know
Don't show your weakness, they'll give you pity. Don't take pity, you don't need it; I don't need it.
I wish I could scream out loud that I love you
I wish I could say to you "don't go"
As he walks away he feels the pain getting strong
People in your life, they don't know what's going on
Too proud to turn around; he's gone
Or she, in this case. She's gone, but she didn't walk away. It's always a good idea to stray from family in situations where death is involved, especially the death of a mother. No matter how hard they try to reach you, continue to stray. You're not their responsibility, only their blood. They couldn't care less. Yep, keep reminding yourself that they couldn't care less and they couldn't understand. And always remember, fight like hell when they try to uproot you.
Don't turn around cause you're gunna see my heart breaking
Don't turn around; I don't want you seeing me cry
Just walk away
It's tearing me apart that you're leaving
I'm letting you go, but I won't let you know
Just because she's dead doesn't mean she can't see you. Try your best to hide it so she can rest in peace. It's a matter of respect here. And if you must cry, it's polite to warn the dead first. It's also polite to hide away in your room and lock the door. They'll know, and they'll try to reach you, but stay unreachable. You pain is foreign to them, and should remain that way. How could they possibly understand your feelings? It's vital to your health to finally let go now. You have no choice; she's gone, let her go but keep her in your heart. And finally, its important to always remember the quote "don't cry because she's gone; smile because she was here."
Okay, so, this is the prologue to "Don't Turn Around". Musical credits go to Don't turn Around by Ace of a Base. Lol, good song. The prologue is written from the point of view of Faith Lynn Walker, who is the daughter of Walker's sister, Shelley. Shelley has just passed away, if you didn't already figure that out lol. I don't usually write prologues, but I figured what the hell?