Author's note : this is my very first fanfiction that i publish here so please be indulgent lol plus english is not my mother tongue ;)) ok i don't want to get carried away so i'll be very short with this. After seeing the Mentalist season 4 finale everyone seems to ship Jisbon more than ever (including myself) and all the stories i red ended with the both of them in a passionate declaration of love. So i thougt, wait a minut if things were different, if one of the characters didn't reciprocate after one admitted his/her feeling ?

Chapter 1 (A sleepless night)

Jane had told her something very painful something that broke her heart in a tiny bit of second. When she finally had found the courage to ask what he'd meant when he said "good luck Teresa" and then a barely audible "love you" he had denied remembering it for sure. After that her sleep had been horrible. When she had spent endless lonely nights wondering what he had meant by those words, she finally decided it was over, she was tired of Jane's little conning games. Even thought her alarm clock was showing 3 o'clock in the morning she didn't mind : she had to know the truth. So she picked up her jacket and car keys from the kitchen table and drove all the way from her apartment to Jane's house in the middle of the night. Outside was very dark and she could barely see the moon shining from the horizon so she had to be careful when she parked her car in front of Jane's house. When she stepped out of her car she realized it had started to rain and regreted not to have bring something as an umbrella to cover herself up. Not that she mind about the rain but thought it wasn't the best situation. But it was too late, from Jane's driveway to his front door the pouring rain had already drenched her. After the usual three knock on the door it suddenly flew open…

"Lisbon is that you ?" Jane said a little confused "it's raining elephants outside don't stay here come in" he said with his usual grin seeming to be happy to see her

"thank you" Lisbon said trying not to shiver to much

"tea ?" Jane said making his way to the kitchen while Lisbon stayed on the entry carpet

"yeah thank you" she said now starting to regret a little her prompt visit "do you have any towels ? I think the rain was pretty harsh on me" she said with a little hesitation

"oh the bathroom first drawer on the left" he said from the kitchen

When Lisbon came back now drying her hair with the towel Jane finally ask

"so what brings you here ?" he asked as he poured her a hot cup of tea and gave it to her

"don't you wanna sit first ?" Lisbon asked shyly and with a smile

Jane sensed something was off with Lisbon but kept it to himself

"okay" he said souding intrigued "you know Lisbon when I said you were translucid I may change my mind about it right about now" he said joking but when he saw she froze he knew that she came here with a serious topic in mind.

A minut of silence went by before Lisbon finally spoke

"so you couldn't sleep hein ?" she asked

Jane knew she was changing subject but he was still following her line of work. On the other hand Lisbon was now having serious second thoughts about her visit

"what makes you think I couldn't sleep ?" Jane asked her sipping his cup of tea

"well you answered the door pretty quickly and you always have trouble sleeping so it all pretty much makes sense" she said smiling enormly out of ordinary

"I think you are projecting my dear" he said "besides you know i can't resist the warming comfort of my beloved couch when it comes to sleep" Jane said with a grin taking another sip of his tea

"projecting ?" she said started to get a little edgy "it what ways I'm I projecting ?" she asked a little offended trying to smile

"well first your assumptions towards me are partially wrong of course I'm an insomniac so I can see you're the one who had trouble sleeping…and second I can tell when something's wrong…so there's not point it denying it" he responded honestly

"fine you win" lisbon said in a defeating tone "I do have not been spleeping vey well lately nothing serious about it besides since when do you care about my sleep ?" she asked with overload of confidence

It was so unlike Lisbon that Jane was surprised himself

"oh c'mon Lisbon you told me you couldn't sleep well for the past six months and I can see now that it hasn't been better since so yeah I might be a little concerned" he said in defense "I told you there was no point in denying it" he said slowly trying to keep the pace of their conversation cool

Lisbon was now trying to take control over the conversation

"speaking of denial" she started a little bit shyly like she did a week ago "why did you lied to me earlier ?" she asked tossing her hair behind her ear

"lie to you about what ?" Jane asked with a huge smile on his face

"about not remembering what you said before you shot me" she said little shy but looking him in the eyes

"oh that" he said with a light grin taking another sip of tea "I wasn't lying to you Lisbon as I said I was kinda hyphed up but whatever I said I'm pretty sure I meant it" he said as he got up to walk off her as he patted her shoulder gently like and old buddy on the way

At this point it took Lisbon all her strength to not let Jane manipulate her once more again and get away with it. She needed closure and she would get it.

"so when you told me you loved me you meant it ?" she asked very slowly pounding each and every word in her mouth which made Jane stop on his way to the kitchen

"wow I actually said that" Jane said looking surprised "well we are friends Lisbon so sure I meant it" he said with his best innocent smile

But deep down Jane knew it will come back to him. He had to admit that he somehow had underestimated her when thinking she will never dare to ask him about that day. He suddenly felt like a complete fool trapped in a fish bucket.

Jane was trying to go in the kitchen but her gentle voice stopped him along the way

"so you meant it in a friend way ?" she asked almost in a whisper now feeling really uncomfortable her eyes almost watery

Even from the darkness of the living room Jane could see that Lisbon was now crying freely and the view made his heart tingle. For some reason seeing Teresa sad made him sad too, after all she was his best friend.

"of course Lisbon" Jane said now getting serious "besides it what other ways could I have possibly meant it ?" he asked looking at her straight in the eye

"I don't know" she said blinking her eyes almost stuttering "maybe in a lover's way" she said looking back at him hopefull

"yeah sure there is that but why would you think I ment it that way ?" he replied

Lisbon wanted to be angry with him. But the sadness and loneliness stopped her from it. Why was he always returning the question to her ? What did he think it was some kind of a game ? She was not an experience for god's sake she was a human beeing with true feelings that should not be played with.

"you know what forget it" she said trying to wipe the flow of tears running down her cheeck "it was a mistake and I shoudn't have come all the way here to ask you…" she said all giddy now standing up from the couch ready to leave

but a hand cough her wrist…

I know i'm *evil* for ending this so abruptly haha :D but i wanted this story to be original so hope you enjoyed my little experimentation xDD next chapter will give you more explanation and will be almost exclusively from Jane's POV ! hope some of you are looking foward to the next chapter hihi