Just As Much

That backstabbing, lying, gorgeous slut.

She had seen it all, and Silver knew. She'd even winked at her, like it was some sort of personal accomplishment.

Barbara had once told Selina that beauty was a weapon. She now fully understood what it meant.

She knew Bruce was being used, and told herself that that was the reason why she was so concerned. It wasn't fair to Bruce, and while he might've been rich, his parents had just died and his butler was a total twat, so she had to cut him some slack. A pretty girl he honestly liked using him was the last thing he needed.

Though a part of her wondered what it would be like to be the center of Bruce's attention, to be the one he'd cut ties with a friend for.

What would that be like?

I've got a girl crush. Hate to admit it, but

I got a heart rush, ain't slowing down

Why did Bruce like Silver so much? What was wrong with her?

I got it real bad

Want everything she has

That smile and that midnight laugh

She's giving you now

Selina ignored the lump in her throat and blinked, once, twice, three times, as if blinking could get rid of what she had just seen.

I want to taste her lips

Yeah cause they taste like you

She had kissed Bruce before. She didn't admit it, but it was her first kiss. And, well, she kinda liked it. How someone cared about her, enough to want to kiss her. That and he was cute. Really cute.

I wanna drown myself

In a bottle of her perfume

Gutter trash. She had called her gutter trash. Which Selina kind of was, in a depressing way. Barbara's house had been the first time she could remember living in a real house.

I want her long blonde hair

Silver was pretty. Much prettier than Selina was and ever would be. Hell, she didn't even own a hairbrush. Which explained the mess of brown curls. Barbara doing her hair was about the best it would ever get, and the hair sure put up a fight.

I want her magic touch

What was it about Silver that Bruce liked so much? Why was Selina all of a sudden thrown away like trash on the curb? ...gutter trash?

Yeah cause maybe then

You'd want me just as much

Selina wanted Bruce, for better or for worse. She had even gotten to the point of flirting with him!

...where did they go wrong?

I got a girl crush

She watched Silver continue to hug Bruce, crying, even. She was good, Selina had to admit. Then again, Bruce was pretty gullible. Part of what makes him cute.

Bruce just stood there and took it. A week ago, a day ago, even, Bruce would have had no idea how to comfort a crying girl. And all of a sudden he's just some sort of ladies' man?

I got a girl crush

How come Silver got to have the Perfect Boyfriend Bruce?

(Though to be honest Stammery and Stuttery Bruce was also kind of cute.)

I don't get no sleep

I don't get no peace

Thinkin' about her

Under your bed sheets

Earlier Selina had retreated back to her favorite bakery, owned by an elderly woman who always gave her the donuts she hadn't sold at the end of the day and a steaming cup of tea. She repaid her by doing some chores around the bakery that she was getting too old to do. She had told her a version of the story, and she told her, quote unquote, "you shouldn't worry about some man-slut that you're too good for". She didn't even know Mrs. Ellerby knew that kind of language, though she laughed.

She wished she could have told Bruce what Mrs. Ellerby said.

The way that she's whisperin'

The way that she's pullin' you in

What did she want with Bruce? What was she using him for?

Lord knows I've tried

Can't get her off my mind

Why did this hurt her so much?

I wanna taste her lips

Yeah, cause they taste like you

I wanna drown myself

In a bottle of her perfume

I want her long blonde hair

I want her magic touch

Yeah, cause maybe then

You'd want me just as much

She wished Bruce believed her, with all her heart. She wished Bruce would realize the truth and come running back to her and maybe they'd share some donuts at Mrs. Ellerby's. She wished for that so hard it hurt, and she hadn't wished like that in a long, long time.

I got a girl crush...

She didn't even notice the tears rolling down her cheeks.