"Tengoku to Jigoku: Yoru no Kasumi"
by: We are DesCom
Jessa-kun: Yay! We're back!
Kawahi:Whew! School work sure took a lot of our time!
Schatzi: Anyways, we're back with another story…
Jessa-kun: People we're asking for a sequel to Tengoku to Jigoku, so while we're writing that sequel, we came up with another Tengoku to Jigoku story: Yoru no Kasumi. We hope that you like it:D
Kawahi: Also, about our other fic, Visionary: people were telling us that it was a lot like Isshin Deshin. We checked it out at sasunaru.is.love and yeah, the similarity was scary.
Schatzi: However, we did not copy anything, honest. We ourselves were surprised when we read the doujin. It was good though.
Jessa-kun: So please don't accuse us of copying the doujin. We came up with Visionary entirely on our own for a contest in our livejournal community. Anyways, we have another does of angst….
Disclaimer: DesCom does not own Naruto or any of its characters. If we did, Sasuke would not have and would have screwed naruto immediately. :D
OoO Tengoku to Jigoku: Yoru no Kasumi OoO
Heaven and Earth: Mist of the Night
Naruto wiped the traces of tears on his face, hoping to erase any hints of his loss of control over his emotions. If ever anyone found out, he would have to explain. He did not want to explain to anyone the reason of his tears. Nobody needed to know.
His room was unbearably silent. He wanted to throw an explosive kunai at the wall just to break the deafening tranquility. The cold just made it worse. However, Naruto did not mind the cold. He was naked, with a thin linen blanket serving as his only protection against the cold. He lay down on his bed, the pale moonlight bathing him in an almost ethereal glow. He was…
No, he was not beautiful. He was ugly and pathetic, an eyesore. His sun-kissed skin and yellow hair had lost their shine and glow of life. His cerulean orbs had turned a dark shade of blue, a far cry from the lively azure eyes that he had been famous for. His smile was no longer there.
He was only an outer shell of what he used to be.
And it was all because of him.
Naruto knew nothing would come out of their relationship. It has already been five months, and still nothing has changed. He closed his eyes and let his mind drift off to their fist night together. It had been an accident, he thought. Sasuke—yes, Sasuke—had been drunk, and he was not in his right mind when he had taken Naruto—by force.
The blonde shinobi bit his lip. That night had been nonconsensual and yet, Naruto did not tell anyone about it. Sasuke did not apologize either. What was worse was that was not the only time Sasuke had taken him. Every night, Sasuke would come and take him, whether he consented or not. Naruto had learned to close his eyes and endure everything He learned to bite his lip and still his tongue. He learned to block away the pain.
It was all because he loved Sasuke.
Sasuke, who had always been his rival. Sasuke, who had always looked down on him, Sasuke, the genius everyone adored. Sasuke, who stole his first kiss…who made his heartbeat quicken…who made him feel love for the first time…
Sasuke, who crushed his hopes and broke his heart.
Sasuke…who was in love with Haruno Sakura.
Naruto should have seen it coming. The way the Uchiha looked away from him and focused his gaze on the pink-haired girl…how he admired the sway of her hips, the curve of her body, and the smoothness of her skin…how his eyes glowed whenever she appeared...
Those were the things Naruto wished were for him. He knew he was nothing but something Sasuke was using to appease the trouble in his soul. He was merely a replacement for Sakura. It was ironic, he noted. Back then, Sakura was the one who had been chasing Sasuke. All of a sudden, the tables turned, and now it was Sasuke who was drowning himself in alcohol over the medic nin.
Naruto recalled what he had just thought. No, he told himself. Sasuek had no more reason to drink. Sakura had accepted him, and Naruto had witnessed it.
He wrapped his arms around himself and sobbed. Memories of that night flowed back into his mind. He saw when the two of them were inside Sasuke's room. He saw when they shared that kiss. He saw when…when…
"No more…" His voice was hoarse, and his throat ached. His chest hurt as he tried to forget that memory. He remembered how he had tripped several times in his attempt to run away from the scene. He remembered how the heavens opened and how the rain poured down on him, leaving him soaked and feverish. He remembered how he called out Sasuke's name, and yet he never came.
Naruto lay in his despair, his fragile heart in pieces. It had only been a few minutes since Sasuke left after taking him once again. He knew the Uchiha was with Sakura. He knew that even though Sasuke was with her, he would still return to claim Naruto's body again, for simply the sake of pleasure. No love. There can never be love.
Which is why it should end.
He searched for the blade under the bed. It had been waiting there for the past three weeks. It was time to use it. He sat up and in the darkness placed the edge of the blade against his wrist. He made the first cut, and the blood appeared as a thin line on his flesh. The cut stung for a while, then he ran the blade across his wrist once more.
Naruto did not know how many cuts he made, since he had lost count after the fifteenth. All he could think of was the pool of blood beneath his hands, and the room going in circles. The blade lay forgotten somewhere, bathed in crimson. The linen had turned red as well, and so did the mattress of his bed. The only thing that escaped the crimson wrath was the moon, brilliantly pure as ever.
He knew he was the reason why Sasuke could not be happy. He was the one between him and Sakura—the barrier. He wanted Sasuke to be happy, to smile, to laugh. He did not want to hold him back. Everything was Naruto's fault. If only he had stopped Sasuke five months ago…if only his indecent body had not seduced the Uchiha…if only he realized his wish can never come true…
In his state, he was still able to smile. With him gone Sasuke and Sakura can be together. Sasuke will be free and Naruto would not hurt anymore. He can dream forever of Sasuke, and his nightmare would no longer bother him.
He wondered what his teammates were doing. Were they holding hands? Were they in each other's arms? Were they kissing? Were they outside, watching the night sky? Or in Sasuke's room, drowning themselves with their love and passion?
Naruto wanted to turn around, but he had lost far too much blood. His consciousness continued to falter. The room was getting darker and darker. He closed his eyes and smiled. He felt light, as if he was floating. It was almost over, he noted. He regretted nothing except the fact that he had not told Sasuke about his feelings. It is not as if he would accept them anyway. Sasuke could never love him. He was disgusting.
Naruto slowly let sleep overcome him. The darkness was too strong to fight. He was too tired, and he needed his sleep.
"Good…bye…Sasuke…"
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I see the angels
I'll lead them to your door
There's no escape now,
no mercy no more
No remorse cause I still remember
The smile when you tore me apart
You took my heart
Deceived me right from the start
You showed me dreams
I wish the could turn into real
You broke the promise
And made me realize
It was all just a lie
Could have been forever
Now we have reached the end…
--"Angels", by Within Temptation
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Jessa-kun: I just HAD to put those lyrics there, sorry!
Schatzi: Jessa is really A BIG WT fan… (sweatdrop)
Kawahi: I guess it can't be helped. The lyrics fit the fic though…
Schatzi: (nods)
Jessa-kun: Anyway…I can't believed I didn't bash Sakura in this one…
Kawahi: Yeah, for once you actually made her look…pleasing…
Schatzi: Are you sure you're Jessa?
Jessa-kun: Yes, I am!! Anyways, we need people to vote on whether you want a happy or a sad ending.
Schatzi: (whispers) Even though she's already written the sequel…
Jessa-kun: SH!!!!! Anyway, it's all up to you our dear readers:D
Kawahi: We're hoping to get at least ten reviews before we post the 2nd part which would be rated M completely…
Schatzi: Either somebody's gonna die or somebody's gonna get screwed…
Jessa- kun: STOP IT WITH THE SPOILERS, SCHATZI!!!!!
Schatzi: I'm stopping, I'm stopping!!!!!!
Kawahi: (sweatdrop) Anyway, to those who liked the fic, please send us some plushies and donuts. We seriously need them now. We need Kiba, Gaara and Sai plushies…And Sai's sketchbook, if anyone has it. (smiles) I'm addicted to Sai right now…
Schatzi: To Sai…?(sulks and cries)
Kawahi: (sweatdrops) Aw, come on, Schatzi! You know you're still my number one! Sai is just my favorite character!!!
Schatzi: (still sulking)
Jessa-kun: Uh-oh…I smell trouble…DONUTS!!!!