me:hikari..............sight I love you and this is for you.................I will work more on it tomorrow(I hope),I love you TT I miss you so badly.
ruri:have mercy on her cause this is her first time,and just in case.........she doesn't yawn owns yugioh,for if she did then she would be MUCH happier

It was right after a fight,the whole mess started right after that,ryou always alone wanted nothing but to be loved and once he found that special someone,he didn't want to let him go "bakura,I want you so badly but for the first time my father has forbidden me seeing someone,why?why did it have to be you?"ryou said to himself as he watched the rain outside his window.
"Oh bakura,if only you knew how much I want to talk to you,to kiss you,to hear your voice once more but after that fight we had last week"
(flashback)
"but why?why can't we be together?"ryou forgetting that his father was home for once,was yelling at the person on the other side of the phone line "ryou we just can't" the voice on the other line was cold and eventhou he was trying as hard to hide his sorrow ryou could tell that he was having a hard time keeping himself together.
"bakura,my love......if you leave then....."ryou was sobbing so hard that the words were hard to pronounce and he felt like he was drowning in his own tears,"then you'll what?!"bakura said the words as if he tried not to be too concerned,"then...I'll kill myself"ryou at that point couldn't hold it in any longer and started crying harder than he ever had in his life,he truly loved bakura and was willing to die for him,"listen,I don't need any blood on my hands,so if you do then don't expect me to be sorry"he said it in his usual tone but ryou knew he was lying "and as far as I'm concerned,we're over",with that last sentence ryou felt like his heart broke,like someone had ripped it out of him,then chopped it up in little pieces,put it on a blender till it was nothing more than a pile of mushthe incinerated and then they tried to put it back as if nothing had happened,the words that came out of his mouth didn't matter anymore,ryou knew that he was yelling and sobbing but he didn't know which words were coming out of his mouth,it really didn't matter to him anymore bakura had killed him,maybe not phisically but mentally he butchered him unmercilessly,thats when ryou's father steeped in,ryou heard a knock on the door and panicked,he was caught and he couldn't hide before he knew it he was off the phone thanks to his father and him forcing ryou to tell him things that he knew he couldn't trust his father with,in the end ryou's father won and he got everything out of ryou,demanding that he didn't cry ryou's father told him the worst thing he could have said at that moment "you are forbidden to ever speak to him ever again",then after that he left ryou's room and ryou tried to fall asleep but found it impossible,the hours past and they seemed like the worst torture,in his mind ryou was trying to remember all the good things that him and kura had done and said,in his mind he played the song that bakura sang to him over and over again trying to bring bakura closer anyway possible,the taught of suicide becoming better by the moment but his energy to get out of bed was not there.
(end of flashback)
"if I had had the energy that night....then I wouldn't be here today"he talked mostly to himself after that night and the maids were starting to think that he was losing it "maybe I am losing it,so what if I am?!?!,they don't know anything about me,so how can they even think of labeling me?",he opened the drawer were he keep his most personal things and took out a box,inside it there was a picture that was taken right before his break up with bakura,it was a group pic of him and the two psychos, malik and marik "how I survived that day is beyond my knowledge"(a/n:can you blame me for putting that?lol) just as he was putting it back on his box,ryou noticed something he hadn't seen before,it was a letter with ryou's name in the envelope "a letter?when have I?wait...this isn't my hand writting!"he opened it to find out that bakura had written it before the fight "well this is....odd......bakura never wrote anything for me before"
to ryou's surprise it was not only directed to him but also bakura had a nice calligraphy (O.O wow)
my koi
if you find this then that means that I did a lousy job in hiding it,I know we are goin to have a fight soon and that I'm going to leave, please don't do anything stupid to yourself (you know what I'm talking about), don't worry I will return someday,I just can't have you know at this moment the reason why I haveto leave,well not now at least.
please wait for me,no matter what happens,no matter if I break a promisse,please don't hate me,please don't leave me.
look at me,the once "great tomb robber" begging a chibi for something that he probably won't understand,oh well......please ryou,if you find this.....then please wait for me and don't hate me if something goes wrong along the way.
your koi
bakura
tears were running down ryou's cheek as he finished reading the letter "oh kura,how could you ever believe I could hate you?" he folded the letter and put it back on the envelope and hid it in his back pack,so no one would find it and tear it up.

me:ok thats it,I can't take this anymore,I feel like puking and I bet everyone that read this is feeling the same,so I'll update once I am feeling better
ruri:for everyone out there,please forgive her....she is stupid and-
me:hey!!!! what do you mean stupid?!?!
ruri: ignore her,like I was saying,she also has a cold and is in love,so given all those factors I would suggest that everyone runs for cover,bye
me:"ignore her" she says,well lets see if you ignore me once I have a knife on my hands,umm for everyone thats not her,please read and review,and kusabana.....happy b-day and I will try and update soon(I will also try not to suck as much ) and before I forget,don't forget to IM me and tell me how things went and remember you told me you wouldn't (you know what I'm talking about)