Title: Caused By The One You Love (Depression)

Summary: Dougie was normally full of energy, but after being told to die by his bandmate he changed.

Characters: McFly

Pairing: Dougie/Harry 'Pudd'

Disclaimer: I do not own anything to do with McFly, if I did, I'd just buy Harry.

Dougie sat down on the same chair he'd been accustomed to for quite some time now. He had problems. Problems which hadn't just gone away with a talk to his bandmates. Problems that had been started by a talk with one of his bandmates.

He waited for the same woman to come into the room to give him the same speech she always did about why he was here, what he needs to do and who he needs to speak to in the future.

The door opened and in walked a psychiatrist. "Dougie we're going to try something different with you today. Instead of checking your progress we're going to do a quick test on how your brain is working since you've been here."

"Whatever. It doesn't bother me." Dougie replied, not a sense of animation in his voice. He sounded robotic, another thing which was caused by him.

"Ok Dougie, Julia will be in here in a few minutes, untill then just relax." the psychiatrist left the room.

Julia was the only person who could actually understand where Dougie was coming from. Julia's ex husband had some of the problems that Dougie was having now, although he didn't go to the extremes that Dougie had done.

"Hello Dougie." came the voice that he'd gotten used to hearing at least twice per week.

"Hi Julia. What's with the tests today? Am I going to have to do anything physical?" Dougie asked, looking down at the floor.

"Nothing like that Dougie. We're just going to do something simple to see how your recovering. I'll give you a word, you give me the first word that pops into your head and I'll jot it down on my notepad." Julia produced a pen from her coat pocket.

"Whatever." Dougie replied still not looking up.

"Ok. Lets start. Happiness." Julia got her pen at the ready to make note of whatever Dougie said.

"Non-existant." Dougie replied.

"Loneliness."

"Consumes me." Dougie was still looking at the floor, this was how he felt. Consumed by loneliness.

"Romance." Julia looked at him.

"Harry." Dougie finally looked up, slight tears in his eyes. The name he had just said had set him off. Harry Judd, the reason why he was here. The reason why he had all of these problems. The reason why he'd tried to commit suicide.

"Harry can I speak to you for a second?" Dougie walked in and stood beside the drummer.

"Sure thing Dougs." Harry smiled at Dougie, a smile which was sincere but sexy at the same time, something that just meant Harry was being Harry.

"I...I don't know how to tell you this Harry." Dougie avoided eye contact with Harry.

"Dougie, you can tell me anything you know that right?" Harry questioned Dougie.

"Well... you know I'm gay right?" Dougie asked still avoiding Harry's gaze.

"As am I, and Danny, and Tom." Harry was stating the obvious.

"Well, what if I liked a member of the band?" Dougie asked. Harry wondered what Dougie meant by this.

"If it was me, I'd tell you to go kill yourself as there would be no way on earth that I would date any of you guys, you cannot live up to the standard that is Harry Judd."

Dougie cried in front of Harry right there.

"Dougie... is it me?" Harry asked.

"Well it's not as if your gonna care now you've said that. I might as well go and do it." Dougie walked away from Harry and out of the door.

"Dougie?" Julia asked. "You blanked out for a minute there."

"Oh did I, sorry."

"It's not your fault Dougie, people sometimes say things they don't mean."

"Yeah but I never expected Harry to tell me to go kill myself." Dougie started crying again, just thinking about the words Harry had said was too much for him.

"Dougie, Dougie. Look, why don't you try and get some sleep. I'll come and speak to you again in a few hours, see wether you can get this off your mind. And maybe you can talk to me about it?"

"I'll try Julia. Thanks." Dougie smiled for the first time since he'd been in this place.

Julia left the room and Dougie went out of another door to get to the room he was forced to stay in whilst he was here.

'Try and get some sleep?' He thought. 'I've been having trouble sleeping since this.'

"What the hell are you doing Dougie?" Danny and Tom were standing behind him, Dougie was near the edge of a cliff face, if he took three more steps, he would fall to his doom.

"I'm ending it. Ending everything." Dougie took one step towards the edge.

"Dougie don't do this. Harry was just kidding." Tom started pleading with his friend. He knew how easy Dougie was set off, and this time Harry had taken a joke too far.

"Tom, I don't care about that. I love him and he said that to me. If the man I love doesn't love me then my life has no meaning." Dougie took one more step forward, one more and he would definetly fall off the cliff.

"Dougie don't do it. Look man we'll get Harry, hear it from him, he'll tell you he only said it for a joke and..."

"I DON'T CARE IF IT WAS A JOKE TOM!" tears were running down Dougie's face as he spoke. "He told me to kill myself if I liked him, and thats what I'm going to do."

Just at that moment another car pulled up by the cliff. The person who got out of it was the last person Dougie wanted to see. Harry Judd.

"Dougie, don't do this man. I'm sorry, I'll do anything to make it up to you but this, this is a drastic matter. Dougs if you do this you can't come back.

"THEN WHAT AM I MEANT TO DO HARRY! I CAN'T LIVE KNOWING YOU DON'T LOVE ME AND I CAN'T COME BACK IF I DIE! I'D RATHER HAVE THE OPPURTUNITY OF NEVER SEEING YOU AGAIN!" Dougie shouted at Harry. The water at the bottom of the cliff face seemed louder as the water splashed up against the sides.

Harry walked past Danny and Tom and closer to Dougie. "It doesn't have to be like this though Dougs. You can never see me again without killing yourself. I'll leave the band, I'll leave town, hell I'll even leave the country if it means you won't kill yourself Dougie." Harry started pleading. "I'm begging you Dougie, don't do this." Harry and Dougie were now face to face, tears in both mens eyes. Dougie's because of the man he loved telling him to kill himself, Harry's because he didn't want to lose a friend he'd had his entire life.

"Sorry Harry. It's over. My life, is over." Dougie took a step back and fell off the cliff face. Tom and Danny quickly ran to the edge to see where Dougie would land in the water. Harry was stunned, Dougie had just fell off a cliff, because he didn't love him.

"Dougie?" Julia had walked into Dougie's room.

"Yeah." Dougie asked not making eye contact.

"Someone left a video message for you. I'll let it play in here for you." Julia placed the film on and left the room. Someone came onto the video who Dougie thought he wouldn't see again. Someone he wanted to see but couldn't bare to see. Someone he wished was here now but didn't want contact with them. Someone who he needed in his life, but couldn't stand the hate.

Garuntee most of you will know whos on the video message. But try and guess anyways.

And if your wondering why Dougie is in a psychiatric unit its because he tried to kill himself. Plus he has depression in this story so thats why the word 'Depression' is in the title in brackets.

I just decided I'm going to make a series of these. This fic will be the first of the series. If your looking out for them it'll be once this fic is done. The Caused By The One You Love Series.

Slight character bashing was in here but still. Oh and Mcfly are all gay in my world :D

R&R please. My first Mcfly slash. :D

Oh By the way. If you don't know who McFly are their a British Boyband. And their fit. Nough said.