Title: "Careful With What You Wish - Chap 1: Just The
Beginning"
Author: J.J.
Warning: It's an
AU BASED ON THE MANGA. It requires knowledge of the 'X'
manga. It contains some Japanese words (the Dictionary is at the
bottom), some OOC, a bit of sappiness, twisted relationships, suicide
attempts, mentions of abuse, violence, general insanity and other
stuffs I might have forgot... Deal with this fic with
caution...
Notes: This is dark and twisted, dark and
twisted, dark and twisted... have I mentioned it's dark and twisted?
It's born to show a less nice Seishiro, how bad is Fuma's idea that
Wishes must be fulfilled and how stubborn can be Subaru no matter
what happened to him.
Warning over notes: This fic has
notes. You will find them at the bottom. Each time you see a number
between brackets it means there's a note connected to the
word/sentence that preceded it. However I suggest you to read the
notes AFTER you finished the fic unless the
word/sentence connected to the note is really troublesome for you to
understand. Anyway the fic should be still understandable without the
notes. Notes are merely extra explanations for who wants to know
more.
Disclaimer:
"Tokyo Babylon" and
"X" belong to Clamp. I'm merely using their
characters because I love them... especially Seishiro and
Subaru...
Ehy, Do I own something here? Oh yes, I own the plot and
a sensible heart which would surely break if you give me harsh
reviews... so please be honest but nice ok?
Thanks:
To
Jennifer for betaing this! Thank you a lot!
To Moko,
Tanuki-dono, Meffie, Sakanagi and Yupita
for supporting me while writing this fic! Thank you a lot!
Summary:
After meeting Subaru in his Maboroshi 16 years ago Seishiro chose
to keep him and placed him under a spell so that he would obey to
him. Now, in the year of the destiny he has to face Sumeragi Hokuto
who wants her brother back and Monou Fuma's obsession for fulfilling
wishes...
'We should be glad God doesn't give us everything we ask for.' Andy Rooney
"It's not a strange behaviour, it's the way I am
Nothing puts me down
And if a situation would get out of hand
I'd still back around
You can put me through lots of trouble
But in any way
It's just the beginning and not the end
No use in pretending cause you can't win
It's just a beginning,
The beginning not the end."
(Europe - "Just The Beginning")
A black haired man wearing a dark coat frowned in annoyance as his golden eyes were fixed on the Tokyo Diet Building.
"That brat just broke my Maboroshi," he told to no one in particular as he pulled his cigarette pack from his suit's pocket and extracted one Mild Seven.(1) The boy next to him moved closer to light it for him, an automatic gesture to which neither of the two really paid much attention.
"Thank you, Subaru-kun," the man answered distractedly. Subaru-kun didn't reply, merely slipped back to his place at the man's side as a silent shadow.
"However this has proved that the boy has power, and it could turn out quite interesting," the man continued, returning to the previous topic. "It has been a while since the last time I had a decent fight. Maybe this 'End of the World' business will prove itself worth something in the end," he considered as the corners of his lips turned up. (2) He turned toward his silent companion, finally acknowledging his presence with an almost affectionate smile and a question. "What do you think, Subaru-kun? Should I try to engage Kamui-chan in a fight?"(3)
The boy stared back at him, green eyes dull and empty, face expressionless, resembling more a fine, expensive doll than a living being.
"If that's what you want, Seishiro-san..." he replied, his voice low and toneless. "But please, be careful..." Was there a hint of concern in that toneless voice as he said the last sentence? Seishiro smiled, pleased anyway.
"You're so cute, Subaru-kun," he commented cheerfully. "I will never regret picking you as my plaything when we met under the Sakura in my Maboroshi sixteen years ago,"(4) he added in a lower, sensual tone as he caressed the boy's smooth cheek, then tilted the boy's head up to stare into those two pools of green. "You really are a beautiful doll, Subaru-kun," he murmured, leaning down toward the boy. "And you're all mine, and only mine," he said before capturing the boy's lips for a kiss. Subaru-kun didn't move at first, then, as the man wrapped his arms around his smaller frame he... melted into the kiss, leaning against the other obediently as he had been taught to do. He was kissed deeply, slowly and sensually and then released gently.
He had been put under a spell when he was merely nine and saw the Sakurazukamori, the assassin who killed using Onmyoujutsu, with one of his victims. Seishiro should have killed him, the Sakurazukamori normally murdered whoever knew his true identity, but Subaru-kun had been too cute to kill and so... he had kept him, turning him into a sort of doll forever bent to his will, one who would obey him and him only, and one he treated with extreme care. Subaru-kun was his most beautiful and prized possession, and the closest thing to a companion the Sakurazukamori could allow himself.
Sometimes he almost regretted ripping the boy of almost all his will with that spell, forcing him into submission; sometimes he was possessed by an almost childish curiosity to see what the real Subaru-kun, the pure, caring soul of which he had seen just a glimpse before deciding to keep the child for himself, would do or say if he had been free to act as he pleased. But the curiosity never lasted long and regret was largely foreign to his nature.
Subaru-kun was all he could wish for in a companion. Silent, obedient and pleasant to his eyes. Very pleasant to his eyes. He just mourned the loss of Subaru-kun's smile. The boy had had a beautiful smile, and the artificial one he sometimes wore for him now couldn't really compare to it.
It was an acceptable loss though. Subaru-kun existed to live under his will and had almost none of his own except for some tiny, harmless strands Seishiro had left him so he could get some minimal reaction from him, and so the boy would be capable of taking care of himself should Seishiro left him unsupervised for a while. In this state Subaru-kun still had a personality, even if it was docile and submissive.
Right now, after being kissed in public, Subaru-kun was still expressionless, but was wearing a very cute blush on his cheeks. No matter how many times it had happened before, or the fact Seishiro had previously done more to him than just kiss him on his lips, he still was shy of public expressions of affection. Seishiro liked his shyness very much, and that was why he enjoyed embarrassing the boy every chance he got. He looked down at him fondly, wondering if he should just kiss the boy again to increase that delicious blush when his Shikigami returned, catching his attention with a sharp cry. Keeping an arm around Subaru-kun's shoulders and pulling the boy against his chest so he could hide his flaming cheeks from the rest of the world (Subaru-kun's blush was his and his only to see) he moved the other toward the bird so that it settled on it before Seishiro dispelled it.
"It seems Kamui-chan is leaving the Diet Building alone for a walk, Subaru-kun," he whispered straight in the boy's ear, his breath brushing Subaru-kun's hair. "What would you say if we were to go exchange two words with him?" The answer came muffled as Subaru-kun made no attempt to leave the shelter Seishiro's embrace provided.
"Whatever you want, Seishiro-san." Seishiro's smile widened. Subaru-kun's obedience and compliance never failed to please him.
"Then we'll go, Subaru-kun. However, we'd better be careful. I would really hate to have my beautiful Subaru-kun damaged by that moody brat," he admitted as he nuzzled his cheek against Subaru-kun's short hair before placing a slow kiss on the boy's pale neck.
Cutting the boy's hair had been a spur of the moment whim. Before he had always left him wearing the same haircut he had when they first met but, recently, he had felt the need for a change, and that was why now Subaru-kun had a shorter haircut. In Seishiro's opinion the boy was still cute with it, even if a bit less childish. He liked it. He turned Subaru-kun's face toward him and kissed the boy again, more passionately than before, uncaring of the people watching them.
His.
Subaru-kun was his.
All his to toy with.
He smirked as he felt Subaru-kun begin to squirm uncomfortably as the kiss became too much for him to handle in public. The struggling was minimal, a mere signal of distress, a silent plea for Seishiro. He wasn't released immediately; Seishiro took his time, just to give the boy a reminder of who was in charge. When the man finally let him go Subaru-kun hung his head in shame.
"I'm sorry, I..." A slender finger was placed on his lips then trailed down his cheek, under his chin, and gently raised his head, forcing him to look up to see Seishiro smiling down at him, pleased.
"I know. I know you're shy, Subaru-kun, and being kissed in public makes you uncomfortable, but you must always remember you're mine. All mine to do as I please, do you understand?" he asked cheerfully. Subaru-kun nodded. Seishiro smiled amiably. "Then let's go, and don't worry, that brat won't manage to lay a finger on my Subaru-kun. I'll protect you well," he assured him, wrapping his arm around the boy's shoulders. Subaru-kun nodded again and leaned against him obediently.
His.
All his.
He wondered from where came that... tiny nagging feeling that said it would be a bad idea to allow Kamui-chan to see his Subaru-kun. It made no sense. Subaru-kun might have been born to be a Ten no Ryu, but, in the submissive state Seishiro had put him, he wouldn't be able to do a thing without requesting Seishiro's approbation first, and he sure as hell wasn't going to allow his Subaru-kun to join a side opposed to his or to take part in this silly game that the battle between Ten no Ryu and Chi no Ryu was. End of the world or not, Subaru-kun was going to stay obediently at his side no matter what. He would make sure of this and murder anyone who tried to oppose his decision.
Subaru-kun was his.
It would be like that forever.
To be continued...
JJ's Notes:
1. In 'X' Vol. 5 Seishiro dragged Kamui, Sorata, Arashi, Yuzuriha, Inuki, Hinoto, Souhi, Hien and Daisuke in one of his Maboroshi while they were under the Diet Building. Kamui however managed to break his illusion.
2. Seishiro never looked like he cared about the end of the world much... He just did his share of work...
3. In the manga isn't said how Seishiro calls Kamui. I have him calling Kamui 'Kamui-chan' because he's kind of mocking Kamui's young age.
4. I'm assuming that Subaru and Seishiro met in a Maboroshi. After all when Subaru remembers his grandmother's reaction at his marks we see the Sakura behind them disappear as if it was an illusion. Anyway, since this is an AU, the first meeting between Subaru and Seishiro went differently from the one in the manga.
JJ's Extra Notes:
When I started writing this fic my aim
was to show how CLAMP characters in 'X' have not the most
remote idea of what would be better for them.
This story start
from 'X' Vol. 5 and it's mostly centred on Subaru and
Seishiro. It requires 'X' knowledge because I'm not going to
rewrite everything that happened in the manga, only what went
different or it's important in this fic. The fic should still be
understandable without 'X' knowledge but without it it's a lot
less enjoyable.
Oh, yes, this story is based on the Manga and not
on the Anime. Between the two there are differences. However since
this is an AU I don't think it should be a problem.
Dictionary:
-chan:
Name ending used to express affection and familiarity or to talk with
a child
-kun: Young
-san: "Mr." or
"Mrs."
Chi no Ryu: Dragon of Earth
Maboroshi:
Illusion
Onmyoudo: "Way of Yin and Yang". Yin and
Yang are the male and female forces underlying the movement and
changes of nature. Onmyoudo is based upon the Chinese arts of
astrology, divination and Taoist magic and also represents a mystical
way of living in harmony with the forces of nature
Onmyouji:
"Person who practices Onmyoudo". Basically a magician,
sorcerer, diviner and astrologer
Onmyoujutsu: "Art of
Yin and Yang". The ability to use Onmyoudo spells
Sakura:
"Cherry Tree" or "Cherry Blossom"
Sakurazukamori:
"Guardian of the Cherry Blossom Burial Mound". The assassin
who uses Onmyoujutsu to kill who threatens Japan
Shikigami:
"Ceremonial God". Summoned creature that attends an
Onmyouji
Ten no Ryu: Dragon of Heaven
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