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By KnotgrassKola008. Disclaimer: I do not Nepeta, Chopper, Fluttershy, Gavin Free, Alex (ImmortalHD), Setosorcerer and Martin (Bodil40). Nepeta belongs to Andrew Hussie, Chopper belongs to Eiichiro Oda, Fluttershy belongs to Hasbro, Gavin works for RoosterTeeth, Alex and Martin and Seto do youtube. I do not do this for financial gain.

Chapter 1: Why are you here?

Waking up was a pain these days.

Some days Gavin could barely open his eyes, but he wasn't asleep. His body was restless so he would close his eyes and pretend he was sleeping. It was easier than sleeping. On those days he could barely move to do anything. Sure, he was restless, but he barely had energy to do anything. Though he could feel anger itching under his skin. It was one of the few emotions left him in his body.

Some days when he could sleep only made everything worse. He could only dream of Prium. He could see those blue dead eyes and blood seeping through his clothes. It felt like he was in some nightmarish time loop. Feeling the pain, having those strained emotions and finally closing his eyes as he was pushed off the tower. Then he would be awake.

Heavily sweating and body violently trembling; somedays he would be sick. Gavin was thankful that Geoff never questioned it and just helped him.
It had only been four months since the incident, but it only felt like a week to the blonde.

Even now as he lay on the couch in his lounge. He could go two days without sleep and then pass out. The blond having dark circles under his eyes and a lot more stubble on his chin and sides. His green scarf was secured around his neck and a white shirt underneath. The only thing that was new on him was a tan coloured trench coat he wore on himself. It had a few stitches on its and had been worn out.

Gavin rolled onto his stomach and faced against the wall. The couch had become one of the few places where he could get about five hours sleep. Even though he had been in this sleep schedule for three months, he still wasn't use to it. All he did was lie on the couch, sometimes eat, go to the bathroom and sometimes sleep.
Of course he had gone out several times but clung onto Ryan or Geoff or anybody who came with him. It was stressful chore; his entire body would race.

"You ok, buddy?"

Turning his head to the side he spotted Geoff, the moustached man gave some sort of smile to him. He also had bags under his eyes but unlike Gavin he wasn't as bad. Some days he never slept but then also took naps. Stepping over to the blonde he bent down so he was facing the Brit. Fingers gently went through his hair, a sensation that was rather relaxing.

"Do you want anything? Ryan is still out shopping with Jack and Ray with Michael went to get some more crackers? Geoff asked and also moved himself so he sat on the arm of the couch. Gavin blinked slightly.

"I'm fine." He mumbled but a frown went over Geoff face.

"We can do something else you know. How about watching those films? Going on youtube? Playing some videoga-" His voice cut himself off. His entire body froze up as he realised his mistake.

Gavin stared back with no sound. His right hand trembled slightly and he felt irritation bubble up. So he made some sort of huffing noise and rolled over so he pressed against the couch. Geoff removed his fingers and walked away.

Gavin didn't want to think about it.

His hand in the first few weeks could barely grab anything. His fingers couldn't grasp around anything and hold onto it with ease. It had first been something that the brit couldn't forget about. Somedays he would grow so angry that he would smash his hand against things. Michael wouldn't yell but force him to stop, Ray tried to say comforting words, Ryan would pat his back, Jack would bandage his hand and Geoff would just hug him.

He was thankful that his other injuries had healed.

The bruise on his stomach had cleared up in weeks like the doctor had stated and any other injuries had been healed. His ankle took a while and his friend had to carry him to places and he even need crutches for a while. Though his hand was still a little troublesome. He could hold onto glasses of water and drag some items but his fingers still struggled to did find help from the hospital recommendations of a therapist and movement doctors.

Though somethings could not be easily healed.

The first few days were just himself muttering gibberish and staring at the wall, ceiling or view out the window (Ray began to tell him). Some days he felt utterly empty or absolutely out of his own body. He was thankful for Geoff, Michael, Ray, Jack and Ryan being there for him. They tried there best for him but the blonde was still struggling.

Pushing himself up, he got onto his feet and shuffled over to the other side of the room. Finally flopping onto the floor and staring out the window.

The view was enough to see Akura house.

He hadn't gotten much contact from his friends but Akura had been the quietest. The fighter lived right next door but he had not heard a peep from the girl. He hoped to spot her at least; maybe coming home or leaving. This routine was new since he started trying to move about but found himself stuck on the bed.

No Akura.

He heard the door creek up but didn't glance to whoever it was. Instead he continually stared until he felt a hand on his shoulder. Moving his head he spotted that same ginger beard which he knew was Jack at least. Ryan came behind with a large plastic bags in both hands.

"We bought some food...and dog toys." Jack stated and the brit watched as Ryan pulled out a rubber bone and threw it on the floor. He stared a bit before reaching for the chew toy and picking it up. Squeezing it, a loud squeak erupted from the toy and Gavin placed it next to him.

"Its curry tonight." Ryan mumbled and Gavin hummed in response. Hearing the two walk off he returned to staring outside. Hoping again to spot the blue-haired fighter.

"We are back!" That same voice burst through the house with a loud bang that rang through out.

"We bought a lot. I think I might of bought lipstick. I don't know why." Ray followed and Gavin watched his two friends finally see him. Ray warmly smiled and waved then pulled out a tube of lipstick. Michael stared and quickly dumped the extra bags onto Rays arms (who responded with annoyance). Though he ran to where the others were after Michael whispered some words to him. The ginger shuffled over before sitting next to the blonde as well.

"Do you want anything boi?"he asked and waited for any answers. Gavin shook his head while Michael sighed before leaning in closer.

"Do you want me to do anything for you?" Michael asked again but Gavin shook his head. The ginger made no noise but got up and ruffled Gavin's hair.

"Just call me if you have another nightmare bio."

He heard Michael leave the room and the scent of spices quickly enter. It felt much more calmer with his friends around, usually something would be on fire or there would be some sort of dumb argument. He would be in the middle of it or having started it.
There was only calm and peace.

Gavin wasn't sure if that is a good or bad thing.

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He couldn't see.

His eyes hadn't adjusted to the darkness but right now he needed to breath. He was already sweating heavily but he could feel pain all over his body. Shaking, trembling and quickened breath. Feeling a burning sensation at the back of his throat. Gavin felt ill and ready to puke out the curry from his stomach (though he barely ate much in the first place).

'Five in and ten out. Five in and ten out.' A simple breathing technique that he had been taught to, it was one of the few things that he taught his friends as well. They even began to find ways on how to notice such panic attacks and help him.

Though he felt better after he did it.

Gavin squeezed on his scarf before rubbing his eyes and staring outside the window. It was pouring outside, the pitter patter of water droplets sounded calming. It was a quiet house and the quiet didn't get on his nerves.

Thump! Thump!

The blond jumped but snapped his neck towards the door. At first the noise stopped but it continued going afterwards. It was almost drowned out by the rain outside but could be heard. Gavin knew his friends wouldn't hear; so he shuffled himself towards the door. It was harder in the dark and closing his eyes made him feel worse.
Finally his fingers hit the cold lock.
His body hit the floor with great pain.

Gavin snapped out of his thoughts, certain things always came back to hit him. Though he gotten out of the shock of it a long time ago. His fingers firstly went to the lock as it struggled to turn it. The thumping sound getting louder, making Gavin feel anger in his body rise.
Then successful click made him smile and he finally grabbed the doorknob.

It took a couple of minutes to get it open but heard the clicking sound again. This time he was able to finally pull it open. His eyes tried to adjust to whoever was on the other side.

All that he saw was his face.

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This is the final fic in the trilogy which I have done and love to pieces. I have done my research to make sure everything is sort of realistic and also this might be 80 chapters long. I have set up a small idea on how to at least put everything I want. Though it might not be 80 chapters, it might be over that. Depends on how I am going to do this really.
Also thank you for waiting three weeks. Right now I am in Italy and also writing this on my laptop instead of my ipad. So I am not use to it. Thank you for waiting and also thank you for all the views and support on the other two fics.
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