Itazura na kiss- Meant to be

by zuchino.ss

This is a Naoki Pov story of Itazura na kiss the Japanese version 2013. My story begins after episode 15. Kotoko leaves the country and not just the Irie's house,leaving Naoki free to marry Sahoko. In my version we see Naoki fight between his sense of duty and his heart.

1. Chapter 1

July 15

I thought that I already touched the bottom line.

I thought that I already managed to let her go and accept the new reality.

I already said my goodbye when I told her she should find herself a good man too.

I thought,by saying that I would shred the last bond between us and it killed me inside. It killed me inside because I saw it then in her ayes, I actually saw the moment it broke,the moment she finally let go of me. I felt hollow,but I was wrong,it seems I have not reached the bottom line yet,it's still far away from me.

The worse was still to come, because tonight when mother said to me that Kotoko was leaving our house next month,the hollowness inside reached new peaks and after, that Kotoko will leave the country too. I stopped breathing. The air hitched in my lungs.

I turned slowly toward the stairs, maybe to slow, maybe to fast. I can't remember how much it took me before I made the first step, seconds? minutes? I don't know. I felt numb.

Was she so hurt that she felt the need to flee the country in order to get over me? This is ridiculous . Where would they go? What would they do? It was bad enough to let her go as soon as I fully accepted my feelings for her, it was bad enough I have to marry another one,it is bad enough she is leaving my house, but to never ever see her again?not even by chance on the street?or catch a glimpse of her at school?or birthday parties where my mother would surely drag me to? How stupid is she? She can't do this to me.

I wonder what are the limits of sorrow that one can feel.

**please don't be scared because of the short are a few pages of Naoki's diary but it will get better