Prologue
The pain was unbearable.
Months have gone by since Edward and his family left and even now I'm having a hard time coping from the loss.
Charlie thought that my time with Jacob was helping me with my issues but he didn't know the truth that I still thought about Edward and cried for him silently in the night. I didn't want him to worry any more than Renee, my mother who lived in Florida.
Still...despite the pain I still found a little comfort from Jacob as we hang out and do daring things, in fact if it weren't for him I would probably be seeing a shrink.
But even now my little piece of happiness was being taken from me as weeks gone by since I last seen him.
The Flu was what Billy Black said to my father when I asked about being able to see Jacob.
Even I knew that was lie.
Instead of going over and confronting him I simply stayed home and listened to music on my bed.
I remember a couple of weeks ago when we went to the movies that Jacob was feeling warm so maybe he was sick.
My thoughts roam as I thought of the possibilities what he had when all a sudden Edward appeared in mind.
Swallowing hard I shook my head clearing his perfect face away and tried to think of something else besides him.
I knew he was trying to protect me by leaving but what happened at my birthday party was a accident that could had been avoided in my part.
He even took all the photos of him I had in my album to leave no trace of his existence.
But his wonderful alluring smell still clouded my mind in reminder of him proving he did exist and what we had was in fact real.
I knew it was dangerous for a human and vampire to be together because of the blood lust but I loved him more than I ever loved anyone and I want us to be together.
But now that he was gone I knew what we had we may never have it again for I was just plan old Bella and Edward was immortal who would never age.
Feeling my eyes burn as tears began to form I placed the volume higher on my headphones and closed my eyes trying to forget Edward.