Summery – I didn't think I would lose it all...
Don't own kingdom hearts nor do I own the song perfect – simple plan
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Hey Dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according
To plan?
Do you think I'm wasting
My time doing things
I Wanna do?
But it hurts when you
Disapprove all along
When I looked into those beautiful storm like eyes I always thought I couldn't lose that sight. Waking up in the fresh spring morning wrapped up in a silk duvet, happy and content with the world. I always had this strange feeling I might not see them that next day like that.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
Why did those beautiful eyes fail me suddenly? Why did they leave me in pain and sorrow? How could you leave me like that?
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be
Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be
Perfect
I cry up to highest heavens at night praying they would bring you back. I knew it was pointless, I wish I could bring you back. Take my own life just for you. But... that's only in fairytales...
I try not to think
About the pain
I feel inside
Did you know you used to be
My hero?
All the days
You spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't
Care anymore
As I walk past everyone else, their sorrowful looks and grief stricken faces was all too familiar to me. I couldn't stand the way they pity me, the way they said sorry. Why are they saying sorry because you left? I should be sorry to them because I couldn't stop you, help you...
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good
Enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing' alright
As I walk through the town square I couldn't help the pain that welled up in me. Everything I looked at was your achievement. Never mind, you built this place back to the way it is. Maybe you could forgive me if I carried on with what you started?
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be
Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be
Perfect
Every night I rest in bed, never sleeping. I couldn't, not without you by my side. Maybe you could forgive me if I had a sleep filled night? Maybe you could forgive me if I dreamt about you instead of myself?
Nothing's gonna change
The things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this
Right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
As I sit up high on this cliff, all I could think was about you, your smile, your weaknesses your strengths. Maybe if I joined you, you would forgive me? Or would you feel pain?
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be
Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be
Perfect
As I stand on the edge all I could think about was that we were going to see each other again. Would you be happy I would do this to see you again? Would you be sad you let me do this? The cool breeze was almost as signal for me to go, to take the big leap between life and death. Pain and utter happiness. Maybe if you forgave me we could be happy together? Maybe if I left you would ignore me? maybe everyone in the land of the living would be filled with joy when they see me jump. I hear a yell, as I topple of the edge and plunge to my end. Would you forgive me for everything?
'Cuz we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry I can't be
Perfect
Now it's just too late
And we can't go back
I'm sorry I can't be
Perfect
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The end... my very last fic hoped you enjoyed it. Sorry to everyone! Remember to keep smiling...