Prologue
I stared at the body of my son. His infant form lay lifeless before me. I had carried him in my womb for what seemed so short a time now. What did I do wrong? Why did this have to happen? My blouse was dripping with the tears I was still shedding. I glanced at Stephan through the wet blur. He simply sat silently, staring at the lifeless child. I wondered, was God shaking his head at the tragedy of a baby that was never given a chance, or was he simply letting it pass, for these things happen. I knew that my little boy was going to heaven, he had no chance to have earned otherwise.
I wish I could join him. I finally stood, and announced my leave to Stephan that I was going for a walk. He kissed my cheek, and let me go with an "I love you"
It was raining outside, so my tears blended in. I walked aimlessly for a while. Eventually, I found myself facing a cliff, it went down nearly 100 feet. I felt this was a sign, a woman's job was to bring life to the world, and I had failed. With luck, my little boy would be waiting for me on the other side. I stepped back, prayed that I would soon meet my child, and ran. I was falling down, plummeting.
I hit the ground, but did not die. I was lifted. All I could remember was pain, and burning. My first and clearest memory was of opening my eyes, to see the most handsome face I had ever seen, and thinking, no, knowing, that I had found true love and happiness. In two people, my love, Carlisle, and my first son, Edward.