Summary: (Set four years after the anime) Izumi, to Meroko's disappointment is still his cold self. All this time Meroko had been waiting for him to change, dutifully; rejecting all her suitors. But she has finally given up on all hope that Izumi will change for her. Meroko is leaving for good this time. Can Izumi amend his himself in time to win Meroko's heart?

A/N: My first Meroko and Izumi fan fiction! There will be bits of Mitsuki and Takuto in it too. Fate Breaking Love and Deal are on hold right now until I can get more inspiration. I have them partly written but its WAY to short. Sorry! Meanwhile, I hope you enjoy this!

Disclaimer: I don't own Full Moon wo Sagashite.

"So you're leaving me? Is that what you're saying?" Izumi chocked out in a strangled voice of utter disbelief.

In front of him was the girl that he fell in love with all those years ago. Everything about her was flawless, her long mane of pink hair that she grew out again, her large inquisitive eyes, and her determined sprit to win his love. She brought excitement into his life and he loved every minute of it.

Izumi always had the same feelings for her too but he felt that he shouldn't return them because he was a Shinigami. I became a Shinigami because it was my punishment. A punishment for ending my on live. I was cold to her for the past 4 years because I know the boss won't allow it. If our relationship progressed any further, then the only ones that will pay the consequences will be us. I didn't want her to get hurt, and now she's going to leave me.

Their meeting place that Meroko choose wasn't exactly lighting up the mood either. It was night time and they were at a local warehouse, the one where Meroko cried in his lap years ago. Everywhere was dark and there wasn't anything that can emit light into the room. She probably chose this place so she doesn't have to look at my face. That or maybe she doesn't want ME to se her.

"Izumi, I…no, we have to put an end to this." Meroko said her voice soft and barely audible and her eyes searching for anything to look at but Izumi's eyes, "You never returned my love when I was a Shinigami, so why would it change now?"

No! That's not true! I loved you with all my heart dammit! How can you not see that?

"Besides, it's going to be even harder for me to continue this one-sided love now that I'm an angel. I offered you my heart more than once but you've just stepped on it each and every time." she continued slowly, stretching out her wings as if to prove that she was different now, "I need to move on now Izumi. I've been waiting for you to come back to me all this time. I'm getting tired, I truly am. I've been turning down all these men that were trying to ask me out for you and what do you do to me?"

Meroko was getting quite emotional now. Her voice started quivering her body was shaking uncontrollably. Tears were streaming down her face and Izumi couldn't help but feel his heart twist in pain. His expression softened, and reached out to cup her face in his hand…

"Don't touch me!" Meroko yelled fiercely and slapped his hand away. Izumi's eyes widen in utter shock.

"If you comfort me…I won't be able to forget you," Meroko said in a calmer voice and in between sniffs and sobs, "I've worked too hard to forget you and I'm not about to let myself remember. I've made up my mind and I won't turn back this time like I've always have."

"Meroko…the truth is," Izumi stated but was cut off again,

"NO, I don't want to listen to what you have to say Izumi. Nothing's going to change that. Shinigamis are heartless and the only exception to that is Takuto. I thought you've changed too after seeing Takuto getting together with Mitsuki. I thought we would be too. I've waited close to 3 years to see the change and I believe I've waited long enough."

"Meroko, let me explain," Izumi said with a note of frustration, "I've always lo-"

"DON"T SAY IT!" Meroko screamed, "You won't change. People like you, full of hubris and arrogance will never change for someone. I know there is someone out there for me. I believe in fate."

Izumi had been keeping his temper in check but this was the last straw and he snarled,

"How can you say that? Here I am trying to explain to you that I've loved you all these years and you're telling be that you're loving angels of all people instead?"

"Yes," Meroko snapped, "at least none of them are as incorrigible and inconsiderate as you! Goodbye."

And without another word, Meroko spun around on her heels and faded away in a pink shimmering portal that she conjured up.

Izumi went back to his apartment that he and Meroko shared since up to two hours ago. He missed her already. I miss her scent, I miss her everything. The way she's so loud all the time and the way we fight. The more he thought the more bitter he got. Izumi started wandering around his apartment, remembering flashbacks of their times bickering. Izumi wore a smirk on this face. Not that he thought back, no matter how mad he made her; she would always come back asking for forgiveness. He now wandered to Meroko's room and walked into it. Her room had pink walls and everything that Meroko didn't take with her was pink.

Something caught Izumi's eye. On the table was a black book. After further examination, he found out that it was her diary because it said so on the cover with pink letters. Izumi had no idea why she left it there and thought that it wasn't right to open it but curiosity got the best of him. The pink bookmark was left on the last page and he read it with interest:

September 23, 2003

Dear Diary,

Today will be the day that I'll tell him. I've been waiting long enough don't you think? (Meroko's handwriting was getting shaky and tear drops were blurring the page) I need someone to be there for me, someone that will protect me but he has never even given me a hug when I needed him to console me. I'll be leaving in half an hour and Dear Diary, I'll be leaving you here. If I bring you along, it would only spark memories of the moments we had. This time, I want to forget for good. So I guess this is the last time I'll be writing in you… here's a poem for us Izumi, I'm sure you'll read this diary sooner or later. I know you.

The 'ME' in Meroko

I'm hiding behind a false smile,

Something to lead you in believing that I'm alright.

Do you think what I went through was worth while?

Or is it just a struggle, in a futile fight.

I'm standing here all alone,

Yearning for you to look at me.

I need someone that would listen to me drone,

To let out all my worries and leave the past be.

I wanted you to be that someone,

The one who would give me comfort.

But you've just hurt me for fun,

And treated me like dirt.

When I searched you always flew,

Now I've considered long and hard.

And learn to stay away from you,

And always keep my guard.

Meroko, '03

Izumi stood in Meroko's room, no ex-room, his eyes transfixed on the page. After rereading the poem a couple of times, he knew it by heart and he slammed the diary shut. Izumi plopped himself onto the pink bed and tried to process the information that he had gathered. I had no idea that I've hurt her so much. Izumi's brow furrowed and he puts his hands behind his head, propping it up. I'm such a loser. I claimed to myself that she was the 'one' and would protect her to my fullest abilities. But it turns out that the only one hurting her most was me.

Izumi closed his eyes in deep concentration. I need to do something for Meroko. I need to change. For starters, I need to get to know Meroko better and see what she thought of me. That diary will come in handy.

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