It's been five years, five years since Jamie left. I still miss her. I
always will. Every day - every second of my life. I'll never forget her. I
never want to. She's the best thing that's ever happened to me. I loved her
with all my heart and soul, I still do. I always will.
God I miss her.
But I know she is still with me. Physically no, but spiritually, yes. She is like the wind. I can't see her. But I can feel her. I can feel her love.
I sighed and picked up a picture of me and Jamie on our wedding day of the stand next to my bed. I just looked at Jamie in the picture. She looked so happy and healthy. If I didn't know better I never would've guessed she'd had luekemia. But she did. And now she's gone. It hurts so nad knowing that I cant see her. And that I can't hold her in my arms and kiss her softly. I wish everything were like it was before I found out she was sick. I wish she never had luekemia. Then she'd still be here with me. But I'll see her again someday. But right now she's where she's supposed to be. She's an angel in heaven. My angel. I just sat on my bed and continued to think about my time with Jamie. Then the phone rang snapping me out of it. I walked over to it and picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Hi Landon, it's your mom."
"Oh, hi mom."
"How are you?" She asked.
I smiled to myself. Every year on this day my mom always called to make sure I was okay. I meant a lot to me that she cared so much. But wasn't she supposed to? She is my mother after all.
"I'm okay." I answered.
"Are you sure Landon? I know you must be upset."
" I know, I am, but I'm okay."
There was a small silence. Then my mom spoke:
"Jamie would be proud of you Landon."
"I know."
*
Later I got into my car and drove to the flower shop. I walked in and picked out 2 red and 3 white roses. Paid for them and left. I got back into my car and drove to the graveyard. As I walked through it I looked at the other graves. I thought about the lives these people had. What were they like? Who did they love and who loved them? How old were they? How did they die? I kept walking until I reached the familiar grave. Jamie's grave. I knelt down on the ground in front of it and placed the roses in front of it. I started talking to Jamie. I knew she'd hear me from above.
"Hey baby, it's me. I miss you so much. I love you more than anything."
I started to cry and continued to talk to her.
"Your dad misses you to. Everyone does. Medical school is good so far. It's tough though. But I know you still have faith in me and that keeps me going."
I stopped crying and wiped my face with my shirt. I stood up and looked down on the grave. I fell back down on my knees and started to cry again. This time I didn't get up for a long time. I just continued to cry.
~Sorry this was so short. I will have more later!~
God I miss her.
But I know she is still with me. Physically no, but spiritually, yes. She is like the wind. I can't see her. But I can feel her. I can feel her love.
I sighed and picked up a picture of me and Jamie on our wedding day of the stand next to my bed. I just looked at Jamie in the picture. She looked so happy and healthy. If I didn't know better I never would've guessed she'd had luekemia. But she did. And now she's gone. It hurts so nad knowing that I cant see her. And that I can't hold her in my arms and kiss her softly. I wish everything were like it was before I found out she was sick. I wish she never had luekemia. Then she'd still be here with me. But I'll see her again someday. But right now she's where she's supposed to be. She's an angel in heaven. My angel. I just sat on my bed and continued to think about my time with Jamie. Then the phone rang snapping me out of it. I walked over to it and picked it up.
"Hello?"
"Hi Landon, it's your mom."
"Oh, hi mom."
"How are you?" She asked.
I smiled to myself. Every year on this day my mom always called to make sure I was okay. I meant a lot to me that she cared so much. But wasn't she supposed to? She is my mother after all.
"I'm okay." I answered.
"Are you sure Landon? I know you must be upset."
" I know, I am, but I'm okay."
There was a small silence. Then my mom spoke:
"Jamie would be proud of you Landon."
"I know."
*
Later I got into my car and drove to the flower shop. I walked in and picked out 2 red and 3 white roses. Paid for them and left. I got back into my car and drove to the graveyard. As I walked through it I looked at the other graves. I thought about the lives these people had. What were they like? Who did they love and who loved them? How old were they? How did they die? I kept walking until I reached the familiar grave. Jamie's grave. I knelt down on the ground in front of it and placed the roses in front of it. I started talking to Jamie. I knew she'd hear me from above.
"Hey baby, it's me. I miss you so much. I love you more than anything."
I started to cry and continued to talk to her.
"Your dad misses you to. Everyone does. Medical school is good so far. It's tough though. But I know you still have faith in me and that keeps me going."
I stopped crying and wiped my face with my shirt. I stood up and looked down on the grave. I fell back down on my knees and started to cry again. This time I didn't get up for a long time. I just continued to cry.
~Sorry this was so short. I will have more later!~