Hello everyone! I'm glad to be back! Not that I was gone for a long time or anything. I was gonna take a short break from writing, but I've been reading people's reviews and I'm just overwhelmed with joy! I didn't expect people to like it that much. I also have a fun fact. Falling Fast, Stay With Me, and this story, Jealous: Pretty Hurts, are all stories dedicated to some of my favorite songs! Falling Fast by Avril Lavigne, Stay With Me by Sam Smith, and this one, Jealous and Pretty Hurts by Beyonce! This proves that you don't need to write a songfic for you to get the message of a story across. Music plays a very important part of my life, so I have this habit of including it in a lot of things I do. With these stories, I like to align them with the message of the song.
For Falling Fast, Kagome realizes that she's fallen hard for Inuyasha. She wants to go back, but she's not sure. This simple storyline went well with the Avril Lavigne line "I'm falling fast, God, I hope this lasts cause I'm falling hard for you". See what I did there? For the next line ("I say let's take a chance, take it while we can, cause I know you feel it too.) this is the role that Inuyasha plays. He's saying to Kagome that she needs to give him one more chance because he knows she loves him, he needs to prove his love now. It's his turn.
For Stay With Me, it's really simple. Basically, its just Inuyasha saying please stay with me. I know this doesn't feel like love, but please just stay with me. Hold my hand through this. Simple enough.
For Jealous and Pretty Hurts, I'm not revealing that until the very end of this story. I'm very proud of these last two projects. I think it's a great way to combine any type of music with a fanfiction without adding lyrics, making it a cheesy songfic. I hope you guys took the time to read this, because they really do mean a lot to me, and I hope you enjoy my next project/fanfiction, Jealous: Pretty Hurts.
Chapter 1:
Kagome was sitting in her room, with her nose in her books. She had an exam in 2 days and she just started studying. She convinced Inuyasha to let her stay just until the exam is over, then she would be right back.
~~flashback~~
Kagome was gathering her items she needed to take home into her bookbag. She said goodbye to Sango, Miroku, Shippo, and Kaede.
"Bye guys! I'll be back in 2 days, I promise! I gotta go before Inuyasha catches me leaving!" said Kagome as she darted out of the hut, running into a red kimono.
"And where do you think you're going?" asked Inuyasha, looking down at the girl.
"Inuyasha, I have to go home. I have a really big exam in 2 days and I haven't studied yet!" said Kagome.
"You're crazy. You're not leaving. Last time you stayed for a whole week!" said Inuyasha. "and what is it with these exam demons? Why can't I just kill them all and you wouldn't have to worry about them." said Inuyasha. Kagome slapped her forehead.
"For the last time, they're not demons. It's just a test I have to take! Please Inuyasha I have to go home I don't have much time left!" said Kagome.
"Feh, fine. But if you're not back in 2 days, I'm coming to get you no matter what!" said an annoyed Inuyasha.
"Deal!" said Kagome and she darted towards the well.
~~end flashback
'I can't concentrate...how am I supposed to remember all of these equations?!' thought Kagome. She tapped her pencil on the book. When she looked up and saw a small jar with the jewel shards. "There really isn't that much more to go…" said Kagome. She picked up the jar and observed the jewels. 'I can't believe that after all we've been through together, he still wants to become a full youkai. It can't be that important to him.' thought Kagome. 'Would he really choose that over his friends? Over Kikyo?' thought Kagome. She frowned. 'No...Kikyo would persuade him to go to Hell with her. I don't have a doubt in my mind that he would eventually go to her.' thought Kagome. She slammed the bottle back on the desk. It shattered and glass was everywhere. There was glass shards in her hand and she started to bleed. "Oh god...look what I did now." she said to herself. She got up to go get a napkin when suddenly she heard footsteps running up the stairs. Inuyasha barged into the room with a concerned look on his face.
"Kagome! I smelt blood! Are you okay?!" asked Inuyasha. Kagome was shocked.
"Y-Yeah, I'm fine. Why are you here?" asked Kagome. Inuyasha looked at her hand and the blood dripping on the floor.
"K-Kagome! Your hand!" said Inuyasha. He ran and grabbed her hand. "How the hell did you do this? There's glass in your hand!" said Inuyasha.
"I um...slammed the jar with the jewel shards a bit too hard and it broke." said Kagome. Inuyasha was about to rip part of his kimono off and wrap her hand up. "Inuyasha no! Don't ruin your Kimono! Use these." said Kagome, hanging him a box of Kleenex. He looked at the box weirdly and put the box on her wound. "No. Not like that." said Kagome. She took out a couple napkins and began applying pressure on her wound.
"N-No! Let me do it!" said Inuyasha, grabbing the tissues and applying pressure himself. Kagome just rolled her eyes and smiled. "Why did you slam the jar?" asked Inuyasha. Kagome blushed. She couldn't tell him the real reason.
"Um. T-The studying wasn't going so well." said Kagome. Inuyasha gave her a dumb look.
"Liar." said Inuyasha.
"I am not!" replied Kagome.
"Yeah you are. Why would you take the jar of jewel shards and break it because you can't study well?" asked Inuyasha.
"I-I can study just fine! It's just that the material is hard to get a grip of!" said Kagome. Inuyasha rolled his eyes. She sighed. "Ok, fine. Inuyasha...when the jewel is complete, what are you going to do with it?" asked Kagome. Inuyasha smiled.
"I'm going to become a full fledged demon, I've told you this!" he said.
"And...what about me? What about Sango and the rest of the gang?" asked Kagome. Inuyasha looked at her weird. "...what about...Kikyo? Are you just going to forget about all of us just so you could be stronger?" asked Kagome. Inuyasha got the bleeding to stop and put her hand down and looked away.
"I-I don't want to talk about this anymore…" said Inuyasha. Kagome sighed and her eyes saddened.
"Whatever you say...why are you here anyway?" asked Kagome. Inuyasha looked down and a light blush appeared on his face.
"I uh...wanted to check on you…" said Inuyasha.
"You missed Buyo didn't you?" said Kagome with a wide smile. Inuyasha blushed harder. She sighed and got up. "I'll go put some bandaged on and I'll come get him. But for now, can you clean the glass on my desk?" she asked. She opened her closet and got out a brush and dust pan. She handed it to him and he started cleaning it.
'She asked me about Kikyo...she never does that.' thought Inuyasha. 'Kagome...I don't know what I'm going to do when the jewel is complete...' he thought. He cleaned the glass and dumped it in the trash can. He sat down and kept thinking of that question. 'If I become a full fledged demon...I won't remember Kagome...or the rest of the gang. I could kill them...' he thought. He looked at his claws. 'These hands have already drawn blood from Kagome.' he thought. He remembered when that witch turned him into a full demon and Kagome had kissed him. That was the only way he could go back to his original form. He played that scene over and over in his head. He remembered getting his vision back and seeing Kagome kissing him. His claws were in her arms. 'Would that have happened if Kikyo did that?' he asked himself. 'Would I have felt anything like I felt when Kagome did it?' he said. Kagome walked in with a bandage on her hand and a fat cat in her arms. Inuyasha smiled wide.
"Here Buyo! Inuyasha's here!" she said as she handed the cat to Inuyasha. The cat rubbed his head on Inuyasha's arms. Inuyasha began to play with his paws like he always does. Kagome giggled as she observed him playing. "Hey Inuyasha?" asked Kagome. Inuyasha looked at her.
"Yeah? What is it?" replied Inuyasha. Kagome was silent.
'Should I ask him if he still loves her?' thought Kagome. "Um...do...do you and Kikyo still have problems?" she asked. Inuyasha put Buyo down and he ran away. Inuyasha put his hands on his knees. He was sitting cross-legged.
"Kagome...I don't know. All I know is that I still have feelings for her. I have to avenge her death." said Inuyasha. Kagome nodded.
"Do you love her?" she asked. Inuyasha stopped breathing for a second.
"Um...y-yes. I do. It's hard to stop loving someone you have a deep connection with." said Inuyasha. Kagome put on a fake smile.
"Well...I'm sorry I make you feel bad whenever you go to her. I have no right to interfere with your love life." she said as she got up and walked to her dresser. She got out a comb and began brushing her hair.
"You shouldn't apologize, Kagome." said Inuyasha.
"But I did. Every time you're with her I have to butt in. You don't deserve that." said Kagome.
'Kagome...I'm sorry I put you through so much pain...you don't deserve it.' thought Inuyasha. "It's not your fault. You never knew it was me and her." he said. Kagome looked back at him and smiled.
"Yeah, who's fault is that?" she asked with a giggle. He blushed and looked down.
"Kagome I know how much you hate talking about her." he said. She froze. She put the comb down. She looked down at her hand.
"Sometimes I admire her…" she said. Inuyasha's ears perked up.
"What? How?" he asked.
"Well...she's much wiser than I am, that's for sure." she said. She looked at her bandaged hand again. "She's much stronger than I am." she said. Inuyasha looked at her with sad eyes.
'This is killing her right now...why is she doing this? Does she think I enjoy seeing her like this?' he thought.
"And she's much prettier than I am." said Kagome. Inuyasha's eyes widened.
"K-Kagome…" he said. She smiled a sad smile.
"But it's okay. I can't make myself into whoever I want. I just have to deal with the things I have." she said. "It's just that sometimes, when I feel insecure about myself, I think about her. She's great at archery, and I'm not. She's stronger than I am. And I need makeup to look like her. And she doesn't." she said sitting down at her desk. She sighed. Inuyasha looked down.
"You shouldn't do that." he said. "You shouldn't make yourself seem so low." he said.
"Inuyasha, I know I'm not better than her. Nor will I ever be. So spare your speech." she said. "I'm sorry...I didn't mean to ruin your night." she said, looking down. Inuyasha looked at her. She looked miserable.
"You didn't...how's your studying going?" he said, trying to change the subject.
"I don't care anymore. I gave up." she said, closing her book. Inuyasha studied her face.
'This talk about Kikyo drained her. Why does she do this to herself.' he asked himself. He saw another cut on Kagome's arm. "Hey Kagome, you cut yourself more." He said. He grabbed her wrist and looked at it.
"No Inuyasha don't. I'm fine." she said.
"Nonsense, I'm just taking a look." said Inuyasha. He pulled up her sleeve and was
shocked at the results. There was cuts everywhere. His eyes widened. Kagome hid her eyes behind her bangs.
"I told you I'm fine." said Kagome, yanking away her arm.
"Kagome...why do you have that many cuts? You didn't do that to yourself did you?" he asked very seriously. She was silent. "Kagome...tell me you didn't do that to yourself." he stated. She was silent. He said nothing. He grabbed her arm and looked at the cuts again. He was heartbroken. He knew he was the reason for this. He ran his fingers across the cuts. Feeling them. "This is because of me...isn't it." he said.
"N-No, Inuyasha. It isn't." she said. "Don't worry about me. I'm fine." she said pulling away her arm and pulling down the sleeve again.
"I know it's because of me. I made you do that to yourself. How should I not worry about that?" he said looking down. "Kagome...I...I didn't know you were in that much pain because of that...if I knew...I...I wouldn't have…" he started. His voice started to crack. He tried everything to fight the tears. One escaped his eyes. A tear rolled down his cheek. "I'm...I'm so sorry…" he said. Kagome began to cry. She got up and sat next to him on the bad.
"Inuyasha…please don't do this. I'm fine. I won't do it anymore. I promise. I want to make you happy." she said.
"Kagome...I made you hurt yourself. Why would you want to make me happy?" he said, letting another tear fall down. She leaned over and hugged him. He turned around and pulled her into a warm hug. "I'm so sorry." he said. He began to cry freely.
"Inuyasha stop! You never cry! Stop it!" she said. He didn't listen.
"Why didn't you tell me…" he said. Kagome was silent.
"I was afraid you would do this…" she replied. He wrapped his arms around her tighter before letting the hug stop. He looked at her arm again. He pulled up a sleeve and examined the cuts again. He rubbed his hands on them. He pulled her arm up, bent down, and kissed the cuts over and over. Kagome's eyes widened at this. "W-What are you doing?" she asked. She blushed lightly. He stopped kissing them.
"From this day forward...I'll make sure you never do this again. I'm sorry Kagome. I'll never go to Kikyo again. I promise." he said. Kagome frowned.
"Then you'll be unhappy. It's okay to be jealous Inuyasha. You love her. I'm not going to make you stop going to her." said Kagome. His red and puffy eyes widened.
"Y-You're jealous?" he asked. Kagome smiled as tears formed in her eyes.
"Inuyasha. I'm only human." she said as a tear fell down her cheek. He bent over and kissed her cheek and wiped the tear away.
"Why?" he asked. She looked down.
"Well...like I said before. She's just better than me. She's stronger, wiser, prettier." she said. Inuyasha frowned.
"But you're all of those things too." he said. "You shouldn't have to worry about what she is to you. You should be happy that you're yourself." he said.
"But...she has you." she said, letting tears fall freely down her face. His eyes widened.
"Kagome…you...you love me?" he asked.
"I didn't want you to find out this way...but yes. I do. So much." she said looking down. Inuyasha was shocked. Did he feel the same way about her? Maybe. Maybe not.
"Kagome...I…" he started.
"It's okay if you don't. I understand." she said. He just looked down.
'I hurt you deep, Kagome. I'm so sorry.' he thought. "I don't deserve you." he said. She looked up at him.
"W-What?" asked Kagome.
"I don't deserve you. You're such a kind, strong, beautiful young woman. And I hurt you. I made you hurt yourself. I don't deserve you...or her." he said. She smiled and put a hand on his cheek.
"I guess the tables have turned." she said, smiling. He didn't smile back.
"I can't tell you how sorry I am." he said looking her in the eyes. He pulled her into a hug. She hugged him back.
"Are you tired?" she asked. He nodded. "Then sleep. Me and you can sleep in the bed tonight." she said smiling. He frowned.
"I can go back to my time if you want." he said. She smiled and hugged him again. This time she sunk her face into his kimono on his chest. He hugged her back.
"Let's go to sleep." she said. They both got under the covered and the lights were out. Inuyasha was on his side and Kagome's back was facing him. He pulled her in and he hugged her from behind. That's how they slept. Inuyasha hid his face in Kagome's hair. He took in her scent.
'Kagome...forgive me.' he thought. 'I put you through so much. I don't deserve you.' he said. He fell asleep with these thoughts.
'I can't believe he caught me.' Kagome thought to herself. 'Why did he react that way? He started crying! For me!' she thought. 'At the end of the day, he'll always go back to Kikyo. But it's moments like these that keep me from getting mad at him.' she thought. She fell asleep with the man of her dreams arms around her.
Well! Thats it for this chapter! I'll have the next chapter up within a couple days, maybe tomorrow night? Don't forget to review! All reviews are accepted, just be respectful! Thank you!