Short oneshot because a) the speech I am writing is rubbish and b) someone was SUPPOSED to be at upper school because he was supposed to be teaching me at that time but study leave means he no longer does… but HE WAS NOT THERE!

So, yeah, short oneshot

I don't own anything

He wasn't supposed to be there.

He wasn't supposed to be fighting.

He wasn't supposed to be out in the open, where he could be captured or seen or anything.

No, he was supposed to be at home, in Grimmauld Place.

He was supposed to wait there.

Dumbledore made him promise. But he broke his promise. He went with the rest of the Order to the Ministry to fight the Death Eaters with me and my friends. He went there as he didn't want to be riled by Snape anymore, being riled because he wasn't 'allowed to leave the house', because 'he was keeping his neck safe' according to Snape.

He went there and he died.

It's all my fault.

It's only my fault. It isn't his fault, even though he shouldn't have left… no, because if I hadn't been stupid enough to fall for the damned mind tricks that had me thinking he, the only family I had left, was being tortured. If I had listened to Snape, or even to my friends, I could have stopped this, but no… no, I had to cause my Godfather to die.

It's all my fault.

Whilst he shouldn't have been there, I could have done so much to stop him dying. I could have just not gone… but then I could have fought her. I could have fought that bitch to get rid of her… so that Sirius didn't have to try. I could have done anything in my power but no… no, I just ran and hid and did as I was told, watching as my friends were attacked around me.

And now he is dead.

Because of me.

I could have saved him, somehow. I could have followed him through the veil, but I was pulled back. I could have done anything to save him, but I didn't.

And he is dead forever. I will never see him again.

Dead and gone, is Sirius Black. But he will never be forgotten.

Not by me, anyway.

Thoughts?

Off to go to lower school now to try and stalk him there… or maybe I'll wait till Monday… decisions XD

Vicky xx