I'm Sorry

Chapter 1: IT'S NOT MY FAULT

I grabbed the fragile human from behind and I angled her neck so I had a clean view of her neck. Her blood smelled so good. I haven't tasted any human blood at all, but I think that she was my singer. I knew she was.

I could feel her shaking against my body. I knew she was scared as hell. She started to make some weird noise. Oh, she's whimpering? Great I love my victims scared and making noise.

I stopped. I looked at the poor girl. She was shaking and my teeth were a mere inch away from her neck. I could feel my eyes going coal black once again. I couldn't control myself. I bit into her neck. She was screaming really aloud! The loudest I have ever heard human scream. She shocked me, which made me stagger back and away from her.

Then she collapsed on the ground quivering with pain and she was screaming like hell.

I kneeled in front of her. "I am so sorry."

"ROSALIE! What did you do!" Carlisle said with on a note of disappointment.

Carlisle was going to put her out of her pain and kill her. I couldn't let him kill this beauty. "Carlisle stop. Leave her she'll be better off like us then being killed."

My beauty was burning because of me. Guilt was someday going to eat me up because of what I did.

It's been three days now. She's starting to wake up. She's so cute when she's asleep. She's so beautiful. She looks so peaceful.

She growled and stood up. She was glaring at me when she gave me a mocking grin. What the hell? "Well, I guess you don't like introductions since you never introduced yourself and you just started eating me like a monster."

"I'm sorry the monster in me wanted you so I went on instinct," I said looking down.

She rolled her eyes and said, "Well, I'm Bella Swan. I love to read and write. I skate board but always fall. I have two loving parents … Well I should say had since I can't see them again because I'm a monster now. And it's all your fault!"

I glared at her and said, "So, is your name short for Isabella?" I wanted to change the subject before I felt too guilty.

She glared at me back and said, "No dur! What's your name?"

My eyes went soft as I said, "Rosalie Hale. But you can call me Rose if you want."

"Whatever. God my throat is killing me." She started rubbing her throat. Right, like that would actually stop the pain the burns because of the animal with in you. It wouldn't I promise. It'll only get worse until you hunt.

I grabbed her hand only for her to rip out of my grasp. I sighed. "You have to hunt or your throat will just get worse, now come one." I didn't let her respond before I grabbed her hand in an unbreakable grasp.

Bella tried to rip her arm from my hold but was unsuccessful.

We ran until we were in the woods. "We're going to hunt out here okay. So drink as much as you want until you're full."

Before I was done saying anything she was gone. Great.

I hunted for dears and everything that was animal. Then as I ate my last dear I smelt it. Human blood. It wasn't far from here, I could make it before she drinks from her, I hope.

"ISABELLA!" I screamed knowing she would hear me. I hope that would shock her and she wouldn't go after the hiker.

I was too late. She already got to her. I stopped when I saw Bella draining the life out a poor hiker girl. I felt rage coming out of me like waves. God, couldn't she control herself! I mean I did when I was a newborn

The hikers body fell limp as she died. I took a few steps to Isabella. I wanted to scream at her right now and tell her how weak she is. Then I heard her whimper.

"I-I …. I killed …" She couldn't finish. Sobs wrecked her body. Suddenly I felt bad for her.

I kneeled next to her and rubbed her back. She fell on me and started crying. "Shshhh. It's all right you didn't mean to do it. It was your natural instinct. You didn't mean it." I wrapped my arms around her and picked her up like she was a baby and walked away from the corpse on the ground.

"She – she just smelt so good," Bella said sobbing into my shoulder. I didn't think she would ever stop.

I should have warned her about the temptation about human blood. It was all my fault.

When she opened her mouth again I thought that she was going to say how it was all my fault. "It's all my fault. I should have controlled myself better. I'm such a monster. I can't believe myself. She just smelled so good. But I should have resisted like I resisted my mom's pies." I couldn't believe my ears. She was blaming herself and not me.

I rubbed her back and tried to calm her down. "It's not your fault. You're not a monster you just new to all this."

Then she was angry again. "Yeah you should know. You turned me into this monster. You're a monster just like your family!"

She jumped off my lap and started racing deeper in the woods.

You're a monster just like your family! I'm a monster.