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It was late in the morgue when Maura was finishing up her third autopsy of the day. Maura had not seen Jane all day. Although Jane hadn't left her thoughts all day. As of late Maura was getting more anxious every time she was with Jane. Maura had realized her feelings had changed about Jane. Her feelings for Jane have been going way past friendship . Maura's mind couldn't stop imagining Jane in different sexual scenarios. Her latest fantasy she couldn't stop having was Jane professing her undying love for her while stripping the scrubs off of her in office.

Just as the fantasy was getting to the good part Jane walks in the morgue. "Hey Maura you about done? I'm headed to the Dirty Robber want to go with me?"

Maura tries to shake the fantasy out of her thoughts. But she was having a hard time connecting her thoughts back to reality.

Jane staring at her waiting for an answer. "Earth to Maura hello?"

Maura was still feeling Jane's hands on her in the fantasy . She shook her head once more to rid her of the thoughts. "Oh Jane..um the Robber yes I would like to go. I am about done here...Maybe ten minutes tops I'll be finished here."

"So do you want me to wait or do you want to meet me there?" Jane hops up on an empty autopsy table having already in her mind decided to wait for her.

Maura smiles watching Jane scooting herself around getting comfortable on the table. "Looks like you want to wait for me . So stay I promise I'm almost done here."

"No hurry. So you been busy all day?" Maura looked up nodding her head. Jane tilts her head sympathizing " I missed you at lunch. I had to eat with Korsak he's on a new vegetarian diet. Yuck."

"You actually ate something healthy with him Jane?"

"Yeah only because I didn't have a choice. It's your fault because you were busy."

Maura laughing "Maybe we should eat every lunch with Korsak? I mean if that's what it takes for you to eat healthier."
Jane shook her head disgusted thinking about eating that healthy food again. "No,no way I will eat out of the dead people frig before I'll eat that God awful food again."

Maura shaking her head disapprovingly at Jane while taking off her latex gloves. "Well I'm finished with this. I just need to take a quick shower . I'll be back soon. You can wait in my office if you want ?"

Jane hops off the table "Yeah I think I will . Hurry up I want a hamburger so bad."

Maura walking to the showers corrects Jane "Badly , you badly want a hamburger Jane."

Maura disappears as Jane mocks her to herself exaggeratedly says "Bad-ly Jane. I don't care how to say it I just want a hamburger Mau-ra."

Jane walks into Maura's office sits down at her desk. Jane sees that Maura was shopping on her laptop for shoes online ..again. Jane looks around to make sure Maura wasn't around. Then she looks through the online store for the ugliest shoes she could find. She finds a pair of huge knee high lime colored hideous looking hunting boots. She puts them in Maura's shopping cart online laughing picturing Maura's face when she sees them.

Maura comes walking in her office as Jane shuts the laptop.

Maura knows Jane's is up to something goes to her laptop .

Maura looks at the boots on the computer screen her face scrunches up as she deletes the boots off her cart. "Oh Jane I wish you'd stop putting things in my shopping carts. Last time I received my order there was a huge neon pink sombrero with three thirty inch peacocks feathers sticking out of it."

Jane giggles "Do you still have it? I thought it would look cute on you."

Maura smacks her on her shoulder. "Oh Jane...I don't wear hats...That thing was hideous."

Jane laughing "Ready to go?" She starts to get up as Maura reaches across her to grab her purse. Maura loses her balance as she bumps into Jane as she is getting up. Maura falls down across Jane into her lap. Jane catches her as they both start laughing.

Jane jokes holding Maura on her lap in her arms . "Maura are you trying to tell me something?"

Maura stopped laughing as she was feeling way too good in Jane's arm. She was flashing back to her fantasy of them both naked in each others arms. All she wanted to do was say yes I'm trying to tell you I want you more than I've ever wanted anybody in my life. But instead she awkwardly stands up looking down at Jane. She instantly feels the loss of having Jane's arms around her.

Jane turns her head to the side looking at her "Maura you okay?"

Maura grabs her purse from her desk trying to keep from making eye contact with her "Yes , yes I'm fine let's go."

Jane and Maura spent a few hours at the Robber. Jane finally got her hamburger which Maura ate half of along with two shots with three beers. Maura drank only one glass of wine afraid she would say more than she wanted to Jane. Maura being the sober one drove them home to her house.

Jane plops herself down on Maura's couch turning the TV on to the Sox's game. "Hey Maura do you have any beer?"

Maura smiles as she sits her purse down. "Yes , I'll get one for you since I'm up."
"Thanks Maur." Jane puts her feet up on the coffee table smiling.

Maura comes back sits down next to Jane handing her a beer. "Who's winning?"

"Fu...Freaking Yankees. But it's only the seventh inning they're going to comeback."

Maura was going crazy this crush or whatever the hell it was she had on Jane was too much for her. She had to talk to someone about it. She would usually talk with her friend her best friend Jane about things like this. But how could she talk with her about her.

An hour or so later Maura had finished her second glass of wine Jane had two more beers. Maura had gathered her courage together enough to tell Jane how she felt about her.

"Jane can I talk to you about something personal?" Maura was so nervous she was visibly shaking.

Jane was worried when she looked at Maura seeing that she shaking . Jane takes Maura's hands in hers looking her in the eyes says "Maura what's wrong? You know you can always talk to me about anything really what is it?"

Maura feeling herself chickening out of telling her says "Oh nothing never mind.." Maura points at the TV "Oh look Jane someone just hit a home run."

Jane didn't even turn to see what happened on the TV. "Maura c'mon tell me what's wrong?"

Maura looked over Jane's shoulder watching the ball game. She wanted to look anywhere but at Jane. She knew if she looked at her she wouldn't tell Jane.

"Jane ...for awhile now something has changed in me."

Jane was worried puts her arms around Maura pulling her into her body for a hug. "Are you sick ? Tell me what's wrong?"
Maura closes her eyes enjoying the hugging closeness with Jane. "No Jane I'm not sick, Well not physically sick." Jane pulls away from the hug. She looks at her confusion in her eyes. "Jane it's ...promise me you won't overreact when I tell you alright please?"

Jane was really beginning to worry. "Maura tell me I you're scaring me. I promise okay just tell me."

Maura still staring at the TV notices a Sox's player just hit a three run homer which makes the Sox's winning in the top of the ninth.

Maura excitedly says "Oh Jane look look your team is winning ."

Jane's pissed off grabs the remote turning off the TV. "Maura I don't care about the game. I care about you now tell me."

Maura stared at the blank TV screen then hung her head down. "It's silly really never mind just turn your game on ."

Jane didn't move she just looked at Maura waiting for her to tell her. Maura sighs she could tell Jane wasn't going to let her out of telling her. "I'm going to say it just put it out there. You don't have to say anything only listen so..." Maura finally looks at Jane but causes her to stop speaking.

Jane rolls her eyes getting impatient drags out in a whine "Mauurrra tell me."

"Fine I...I'm well my feelings lately about you have changed .." Jane moves closer listening to her. " I ah I've started having more feelings for you." Maura lets out the breath she'd been holding in after finally telling Jane. Maura waits for Jane to react but Jane has a blank look on her face.

Jane trying to figure out what Maura was trying to say. "Maura what I don't understand?"

Maura couldn't understand why Jane wasn't getting it. "I said I have more feelings for you." She looked again for a reaction from Jane. Jane shakes her head not getting it. Maura tries to explain. "Romantic feelings sexual feelings Jane."

Jane's eyes almost pops out of her head. She really wasn't expecting to her that come from Maura. Jane lowers her head rubbing the scars on her hands. " Oh...well …. um...I'm not sure what to say really Maura. I mean you know you're my best friend …"

Maura puts her hands on top of Jane's hands "I said you don't have to react or say anything. I had to tell you that's all. You can think about it as long as you need to...when you're ready to talk about it we can … okay?"

Jane still rubbing her hands along with Maura's too now. "Maura can I ask you some questions?"

"Of course ask me anything you want to."

"Okay but don't get mad at me okay?" Maura smiles nods. Jane says "How I mean I didn't know you liked women. Have you had relationships with women before."

" No I haven't been with or even found women sexually attractive before you. I need more wine you need another beer?" Maura gets up heading towards the kitchen.

Jane rubs her face with both of her hands "Yes please ...tequila too if you have any."

Maura came back with a tray with a beer , wine and bottle of tequila on it. Jane grabs the bottle tequila pours herself a shot glass full of tequila. She downs the shot chasing it with a drink from her beer.

Maura takes a big gulp of her wine. "I'm sorry Jane I know this is unexpected. Why don't we forget I brought it up or even said it. It will probably go away … maybe if we don't talk about it."

"No no Maura we need to talk about it. It's just I...well I'm sorry Maura I think of you as my best friend. I don't want to hurt your feelings but I'm not attracted to you in that way. I'm sor."
Maura stops her "Don't apologize Jane. If that's how you feel that's how you feel. I mean if your not attracted sexually to women I can understand that." Jane looks away like she's trying to hide something from Maura. Maura asks her "That is what you're saying right? You aren't sexually attracted to women right?"

Jane sheepishly looks up at her. "First would you please stop saying sexually. Second well" Jane pours herself another shot of tequila then downs it. " I in the past have had relationships with women." She raises her hand up to Maura "Wait don't get mad because I never told you. I knew..well I thought I knew you didn't date women so that's why I never told you. I didn't want to be judged or talked and questioned to death about my relationships...sorry Maura."

Maura poured herself a shot of tequila then downs it to calm herself from blurting out a million questions to Jane. "Okay Jane I hear you. But I would never of judged you. Have I ever judge you about anything?"

Jane shakes her head no. " No you never have ."

Maura smiles sweetly then asks " So you're attracted sex...sorry I mean physically to women?" Jane nods yes . Maura letting it dawn on her . "But you don't find me sex...I mean physically attractive?"

"Um yeah I guess that's what I 'm saying sorry..." Jane seeing the hurt look in Maura's eyes adds "Maura you are very attractive you are a beautiful woman...Really you are gorgeous there isn't a man or woman probably who wouldn't love to be with you."

Maura's eyes starting to get a little teary "So everyone but you would want me is that what you're saying?"

Jane struggles not to hurt her feelings. "Maura everyone has a type of person that they're attracted to...As gorgeously beautiful you are … you just aren't the type I'm attracted to. I'm so sorry. I love you Maura . You're my best friend I don't want to lose you over this please."

Maura wiped a stray tear away from her eye " Of course not Jane. Our friendship means the world to me. You won't we won't lose our friendship over this … I promise."

Jane relieved looks up at Maura "Thank God I don't know what I'd do without you." Jane holds out her arms Maura falls in them as they hug each other.

Maura moves away from the hug smiling "So you've been with women? Who? Do I know any of them? Tell me about them? What ?"

Jane laughs loudly as she tries to stop the avalanche of questions Maura's letting fall all over her. "Whoa whoa Maura c'mon stop. Look don't tell anyone at the station okay?"

"I won't Jane . Tell me about them." Maura sips her wine waiting for Jane.

"Well okay um oh I do think you know one woman that I dated before."
Maura excitedly blurts out "Oh who does she work at BPD?"
Jane grins "Yes she did but she doesn't now she was transferred. Do you remember Lucy Owens?"

Maura thought trying to place a face with the name. "Um what department did she work for?"

"She worked traffic."

Maura remembers started to laugh "You mean she was a meter maid? Oh I remember her now. Isn't she the one that everybody...Oh God!" Maura laughs harder when she remembered her. The only reason she remembered her was because everyone called her Maura Jr.. She looked like Maura's twin. The only difference was she was taller a brunette and well let's say not as intelligent as Maura.

Jane was upset at her laughing "What are you laughing about?"

"Okay you say I'm not your type right?"

"Yeah I did. I sorry I don't want to hurt your feelings Maura but."
"Wait wait Jane." Maura stops as she tries to stop laughing."

"Maura! Stop laughing what is so funny?"

"Jane do you remember what Lucy's nickname at work?"

Jane remembers as she throws her face in her hands . "Oh yeah...Maura Jr. ..um ..well she was a brunette...also tall."

Maura smiling shaking her head then gets serious asks Jane. "No I don't think so. Alright what is the real reason? Why don't you want to be with me? Is it because I'm too weird, too nerdy , what I can take it just tell me?"

Jane takes a sipped from her beer struggling to find an answer for Maura.

Taking too long for Maura she asks Jane "Have you never thought about us together sexually... ever? Just tell me you haven't and we'll never talk about this again okay?"

Jane sits staring at Maura like some answer is just going to magically appear on Maura's forehead.

A/N- Thanks for reading! Any interest in a Chapter 2 ? yea or nay.