So I realise that a lot of my Emmerdale Fics delve into Cain's past a little-bit…But it just intrigues me! So with Cain having walked out on Moira (sob) because he couldn't bare to watch her get hurt by addiction…I thought I'd write a little one-shot!
Cain was sat-at the bar in the Woolpack, waiting for Chas to bring-him his 5th Pint of the afternoon…He had slept on the sofa at Lisa's last-night, having walked-out on Moira. He was devastated-to have left her in the state she was-in, but he just couldn't handle-it…He loved that woman too much to have to suffer watching her get her heart-broken by her drug-addicted Daughter.
Chas wandered-over-to him with his pint from the other-side-of the bar and placed-it down infront of him.
"Last one alright?!" Chas told-him.
"I think I'll decide that if it's all the same Sis." Cain told-her, he wasn't angry, but upset. Which in some ways was worse than him being angry…Everyone knew by now how to handle Cain when he was angry, but to see him this down and upset, shocked everyone, let-alone his Sister.
"Awh come-on Cain, ya need-to pull-yourself together somehow…This isn't like-you." Chas told-him, being sympathetic but at the same-time trying to snap-him out-of this…Whatever 'this' was.
"I can't…I love-her Chas…I love-her so much…But I'd rather be apart from her and not know how much she is suffering than to be with her and watch Holly break her heart…" Cain said, sadly.
"Cain, you live-in the same village-as her…She's the woman who has changed your life for the better…So whether you're with her or not…You're gonna know what's going-on with her…'Cos you won't be able to help yourself." Chas told-him, gently.
"Then I'll go and stay with Debbie for a bit. Get away from this stupid place." Cain said.
"No…Debbie's got enough-on her plate, she doesn't need-to be sorting-out your problems n all…Listen…Why is it so hard for you to stay with her…To support her through all of this rubbish with Holly?!" Chas asked-her Brother, intrigued.
"You know why Chas…" Cain replied, looking-her in the eye. "You know what Shadrach used-to do…"
"Yeah…And?! That was years ago." Chas asked.
"I don't care how long ago it was Chas…His addiction ruined-my life…I'm the way I am because of that waste-of space…My Dad had-to virtually put-me on me death-bed because of the way I was acting…John Barton is dead because of me and my foolish actions…And ya know what?! I used-to blame-myself…But maybe recently I've began-to realise that all of that happened because of him…Because of the way he treated-me as a kid…It's all his fault Chas! Shadrach broke-me, just like Holly is gonna break Moira, and I'm not gonna stand-around and watch that happen…I can't Chas! And Moira won't let me deal with Holly my way because she loves her too much, so that left me with no choice but to get-out-of there…" Cain said, finished his little-speech with tears in his eyes, tears which he refused-to let fall.
Chas paused for a minute, not knowing what to say after all of that. It was rare that Cain ever showed-his heart like that. Things must have been bad for him.
"Cain, why don't ya come-out the back ey?! We can chat some more then…And with more privacy." Chas softly suggested-to him.
"Nah, I need-to go…Lisa will be wondering where I am…" Cain said, downing his pint.
"Cain…I understand-ya know…But you and Moira are meant-to be together…So if I can help in anyway…Then just let-me know okay?!" Chas told-him, sweetly.
"Nooo you've got enough-on your plate…" Cain said as he began-to walk towards the pub-door. "But…There is one-thing you could-do?!" He said, as he stopped-in his tracks.
"Yeah?! Anything Cain, and I mean that." Chas replied.
"If ya see Moira…Could you try and explain some-of that to her?! I've tried-but I just can't seem-to get through-to her…But…You're mates with her…And she likes-you and respects-ya…She might listen-to you more than-she listens-to-me…" Cain finished-with, before walking-out-of the pub.
That evening, Moira came-into the Woolpack.
"Hey You." Chas greeted-her friend-as she approached-the bar.
"Heyyy…" Moira said, exhausted.
"How's everything going with Holly?!" Chas asked-her, sympathetically.
"I dunno…Okay…I think…Can I have a glass of wine please?! And make-it a large-one…" Moira requested.
"Sure…Listen, why don't ya come-out the back hey?! You look-like you could-do with a girly-chat…" Chas said, as Moira made-her way-into the back-room with Chas.
Sitting-at the table, Moira shot Chas half-a-smile-as she brought-over 2 Large Glasses-of wine for both-of them.
"Cain was in here earlier…" Chas began.
"Owh…Did he say anything-to you?!" Moira asked-her, knowing that they were dead-close-as brother and sister.
"Yeah he did…He was pretty-down actually…It's not like him…I think he's more upset about leaving-you than he's letting-on…" Chas told Moria truthfully.
"I didn't want-him to leave Chas…But he says he can't stay and watch Holly hurt-me again…" Moira said.
"He loves-you so-much Moira, anyone can see-that…And seeing you get hurt, well, it hurts-him too…" Chas said, understanding her brother.
"Yeah I know…But him leaving-me isn't helping-me…Infact, he's just hurting-me even-more…I've got to start-again with Holly-now and I could really-use his support…But his way-of supporting-me is either to take-over or to leave…Neither of which I want-to happen." Moria confided-in her close-friend.
"Yeah but ya know what he's like when it comes-to addiction…He's sensitive-to it." Chas said.
"Yeah but he was only a child when it happened-to him…" Moira said.
"That doesn't make-it any easier for him Moira…He reckons he's the way he is because of Shadrach…The way he was brought-up…It's really hurt-him deep-down…And he can't bare to see you go through the same as he did…" Chas told her friendly softly.
"But I'm not going-to…Holly's on the road-to recovery-now…" Moira said.
"Well that's great…But Cain's not convinced it's gonna stay that way…" Chas replied.
"Yeah and have ya ever thought-that Cain might-be wrong?!" Moira asked.
"Yeah I know…But he watched Shadrach drink himself silly time and time again…And he had to suffer Shadrach beating him-up as a kid…He turned-him black and blue Moira! But Shadrach drunk regardless of how much he was hurting Cain…Because he didn't care…Because he loved the drink more than his own family…So as far as Cain's concerned…There's no going-back for an addict…And it's gonna take a lot to get-him to think otherwise…" Chas told Moira truthfully, she understood her brother so-well.
"So how do I get him to come-home?!" Moira asked, desperately.
"Show him that you understand…" Chas said.
"But how can I do that without neglecting-my Daughter?!" Moira questioned, getting tearful-now.
"Well Cain's said himself that he'd never make you choose…So if he truly-believes that you understand his concerns, and if you allow-him to be there for you after you've told-him that Holly is staying…Then he won't be able to help-himself…Because at the end-of the day he loves-you Moira…And he loves-you like he's never loved anyone-else in his life before." Chas said.
"I need-to go and find my Husband…" Moira said, before leaving the room…