A/N: hello fellow obsessive Twilight fans. Hope you enjoy my newest installment of my obsessive Edward and Bella shrine. Hoping to get the second chapter up later today. Cross your fingers. Well enjoy.

Disclaimer: I don't own Twilight pounds on floor screaming why why why?????????

I would like to dedicate this to my friends Rachel, Vanessa, Alex, Alice, and Sarah

Thanks so much guys for encouraging me.

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Sorry really long authors note. Please continue.

Now or Never

It's been seven years since I last saw his face. Seven years of pain. Seven years of anger. Seven years of confusion. Not one day of peace. He said he loved me, now I can see what he did. I was only the current attraction. I guess I wasn't good enough for him.

It's not fair that even though things are different that I still can't stop thinking of him. His face is the only one I see when I close my eyes. The curve of his lips. The color of his eyes. The shape of his jaw.

It was half a year after he left. It was the day Jake took me cliff diving. Being the complete idiot that I am I jumped right into Victoria's waiting arms…and sharp pointy teeth.

According to the papers around Washington the headlines read, "Tragic Loss Hits Small Town", or "18 Year Old Girl's Body Lost at Sea"

Tragic loss my ass and my body was so not lost at sea. Just imagine my surprise when I woke up on a rocky beach clad in a ripped t-shirt and ragged jeans that barely covered my anatomy. The even bigger shock was when I realized I was a bloodthirsty vampire.

As soon as I realized what had happened I rushed back to Charlie's house. When I saw what was waiting for me I cracked. There was my dad surrounded by other police officers laughing. My picture was in his hands and he was laughing. Didn't he care at all that I hadn't been home for the last five days.

Shouldn't I be classified as missing or something? With the anger burning deep in my chest I made my way quickly to my room and packed a small bag full of a weeks worth of clothes and grabbed my money stash in the sock drawer. Seven hundred dollars would hold me over for now. With one last look over my shoulder I left Forks for the last time.

After two months of wondering I met up with my current coven. Their were four of us. Sophia has been like my sister these last couple years. She was twenty one when changed and has not regretted it a day since. Then there was Kahl and Pogue. Kahl was like my older brother, the overprotective and overbearing older brother. Pogue on the other hand was completely his own person and I loved him for it. Pogue was just Pogue.

When I first met them they hunted people but over time I got them to change their minds about it and now we are all safe pleasant people who love the world and fluffy little animals. Yahhhhhhh…..Right. (A/N: Bella is a very sarcastic person these days.)

Anyways we lived in the small town of Quillayute, Washington now and the weather hadn't improved much since the last time I had been in this state seven years ago. The trees were still the same, to green, and the sky was still the same black.

We had arrived a month before to get settled in. it was just after New Year and Christmas break was settling down. It was a new year with new possibilities.

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