it was evening...it was a beautiful site to see...sun setting in the distant hills which seemed to be fadded ...a long road...green farms on both sides...the pleasant air which was moving slowly but enough to bring a smile on everyones face at it touched their cheeks...the unknown travel ...it was the name which could be given...the set half in the hills...the tyres were moving fast...no sound...its soo pleasant on the sound of the wind and the bus were heard...there she sat with a expression less face leaning on the window rod...her head touching it...she looked out at the beautiful world outside just to realise it was beautiful for rest and for her the world no more exists for her,...yeah her world ended...it always started and ended with HIM...he was no more in her so called life...so no more world to her...she sat in the moving bus never knowing where she was leading...she looked at the distant hill ..the setting sun...she smiled little knowing that her sun had set already...this sun would return...but her sun? never...atleast it was that she thought...
kaash aapse ek aakri baar mil paati...khair chodiye,...milne se bhi kya faida? marne ke baad dekhun ya na dekhun isme farak kya padega...
yeah she was dead...the only thing alive was her heart which was in his protection...even though she ditched him somewhere without knowing his heart took care of her's ...its the only reason that she is alive...some crazy hope to see him again atleast from distance...she thought as breeze hit her cheeks...she closed her eyes and inhaled the air...it smelled lyk him...wait? how could it happen...?even she dnt know where she was then how could he...she looked around...but all in vain ,,,,,he was not there...
dil hai ki maanta hi nahi...
then realisation struck her as she smiled...it was his coat...she was ri8 now wearing...the one which hugged him long back and now giving the comfort of his arms to her...
kaash ...sach bol paati toh kam se kam ek aakhri baar mujhe gale lagaliya hote aap...jhalli...agar sach pata hota toh hamesha keliye wahi rehjati...unki baahon mei...tumhe kya lagta hai wo tumhe jaane denge? waise acha kiya jhoot bola...kam se kam wo toh khush rahenge...
it was dark now...the had set before a ong back but she didnt notice...
apni zindagi kab kaise dhal gayi wohi pata nahi tumhe ab tak...toh ye suraj kya cheez hai...hmmm...
.she smiled as a tear rolled down her cheek...she again looked out at the landscape which was getiing dark...she pulled the coat tight hugging it more tight...
aap hote toh ab tak mujhe andere se chupaliya hoten...par koi baat nahi...jo andera meri zindagi bangayi usse bhayankar thodi hai ye...
"rey!"she said and drifted to sleep...
he turned back swiftly...hmm ...
kaash sach mei tum mujhe bulati...
again turned front...his eyes were burning...he was struggling with himself...
his heart never accepted the bitter truth...infact a lie.!
mai bilkul theek hun .dekha nahi tune..wo meri bohut achi khyaal rakh rahi baat sun...mai mehsoos kar rahi hun...mujhe pata hai...dukhi mat ho...wo sab jhoot tha...
his heart spoke out...
woh hamesha aise hi kehti hai...uski mat suno...jo tumne apni aankhon se dekha...jo apni kaanon se suna wo galat hai kya? nahi na...sab sahi hai...woh kuch nahi jaanti sab aankhein band karke samaj jaati hai...meri suno...usne tumhe chod diya...hamesha keliye...tadpo mat...nafrat...yahi sahi hai uskeliye...pyaar nahi...
his mind spoke...he was struggling b/w these two...tears flowing continuously...he was throwing the ball with full force...everytime it made a goal...y not he was a perfectionist...he smiled...
agar itna hi perfectionist hota toh woh mujhe chod ke nahi jaati...bataya bhi nahi...
he again aimed this tym it missed...it came straight back and hit him on forehead...he throwed it with such a force that he fell down now...
"rey!" all came running ...all were sitting on the stairs watching thought of not talking as he needed to be alone...quite to get over the turmoil...
vicky caught him by shoulders to lift but he shoved off and next second back to the ball...again strtd...
all were silent when swayam took everyones attention,...
"aap?!"he asked...except rey everyone turned...he was in his own world...thinking didnt she never felt the same as him...his heart cried...she was giving the warmth that i needed just trust me and her...when his mind said...uski mat suno hamesha galat raaste pe jaata hai wo...she ditched u...
"no she didnt believe me"
"no she ditched u...listen to me..."
"uski nahi meri suno...plzz"his heart pleaded...
"nahi bhool jao use"his mind ordered...
"she needs u..."his heart cried...
"she used u!"his mind growled...
"no"
"yes"
"no!"
"yes!"
" A BIG NO!"
"its hell yess!"
"kriya"...this broke his thoughts...he turned back in a jolt. to see her...
but she was no where seen...he ran to the basket ball gate and looked out in a hope he would find her and would sort out anything and everything...
he was dissapointed...he walked back to the ball with his face low as tears rolled continously...then he saw someone...
"aa..aap?"he asked dead...lifeless...
smriti stod there crying...
"reyaansh...mujhe pata nahi tum kaise ho...aur agar tum mujhe selfish samjho ki mai pehle tumse door rehne keliye kehti hun aur ab..."
she was cut by him...
"door rehne keliye?"he asked confused...
"haan ,.plzz ...mujhe pata hai aisa kehne keliye tum mujhse gussa ho...par plzz meri baat suno...ek maa hun...aur ek akeli aurat hun jisne duniye ne bhut dhoka diya...isiliye hamesha chahti thi ki meri beti ki mera haal na ho...isiliye maine use tumse door rehne keliye kaha tha...par shayad yahi meri galti hai ki woh tumhare jaane ke baad mujhe chod ke chaligayi..."she said crying...
"mere chalejane ke baad?aap kya baat kar rahe ho kuch samaj nahi aaraha hai..."he asked curiously...damn!he still loves her like hell!
"kya?kal tumse baat karne ke baad ...usne tumhe nahi bataya ?/ ki maine tumse door rehne ki wada li thi?"she asked getting the situation...she got what her daughter was abt to tell that day when she returned...
"WAT? WADA? wth ! dekhiye plzz mujhe chod dijiye...haan maanta hun aapko pasand nahi hun...par mai bhi insaan hun...pyaar kiya usse...kya yahi meri galti thi ki aap donon ek ke baad ek aake mujhe aur thodne mei lage hue ho?"he asked really annoyed...and crying silently...
she got the whole thing...she cried and cursed herself...
"matlab usne tumse kuch nahi kaha?/ ki maine use footloose mei part lene pe tumse aur dance se hamesha hamesha keliye door rehne ki wada liya?/ usne tumhara dil thoda? " she asked ...
"wat?matlab...CRAP! matlab ...mujhe jo lag raha tha wo sach tha...usne mujhe ditch nahi kiya...how could i?"he cried...
"kaha hai wo abhi?"he asked curiously wiping his tears and grinning wide...
she collapsed down on her knees and started crying...
"woh mujhe chod ke chaligayi...aaj subah ham dehradun jaane wale the...airport mei taxi se jab uthre tab mere saath thi...par uske baad ...uske baad pata nahi kahan chaligayi...bas mereliye mere purse mei ye note chod di..."she said giving him a chit...
he tried to open but all in vain...
chaligayi? kahan gayi?bina bataye chaligayi?
these were the only words repeting in his mind...neha took the chit and read loud...
momm
sorry...mai jaa rahi hun...
mujhe mat dhoondh na .mai mumbai chdke jaarahi...
ye mat poochna kaha? uska toh mujhe bhi nahi pata...
mai aapko bohut miss karoongi...
bohut...aapki pyaar ,aap ki haat ki khana,aapki sab kuch...
par mai aapke saath rehke mere duh ka zimedar aapko nahi kehsakti...
aur aapke saath khush nahi rehsati...
kyunki meri khushi mumbai mai hi hai...
ye baat aap bhi jaante ho ki i love him...
mai unke paas nahi jaa sakti...
aapke paas bhi nahi rehsakti...
shayad akela rehna hi hai meri kismat mei...
sorry again...
sach mei maa i wanna see u now...
the second ur reading this i wanna see u..
par nahi dekh sakti...
I LOVE U MOM...
aapki choti si chudail ...
kriya...
all cried...he was shocked...
she was no where now...the one thing roaing in his mind...
kaha hogi?woh bhi akele?/raat hogayi...andere mei akele?nahi woh toh darr jayegi...universe ji plzz...plzz take care of her,,,,,,...i promise kriya i will find u...
he came out of trance...he sobbed hard...vicky came to him...
"rey...bhai chup hoja ...she will be back..."vicky said crying...
"vicky...vicky..tu...tu toh mera chuddy buddy hai na...bhai hai na mera?vicky nodded yes...toh mujhe dukh dekh sakte ri8?/meri liye jaan bhi dega ri8?plzz use wapas lao...plzz mujhe milna hai...plzz"he begged...vicky looked away crying...
rey went to swayam..."swayam...wo...wo toh teri best friend haina ...tumhe toh pata hoga na...plzz...plzz usse milwao...mujhe milna hai..plzz" he shouted...
swayam hugged him tight...vicky to hugged them...rey fell down feeling weak in knees crying to help him meet her...
smriti realised what she did...she cruelly tore a soul into two parts...she cried hard knowing this...there he looked lyk mad...just boz of her...her mistake...her over secureness over her daughter spoiled her life...
finally the bus stopped at its final station at 1:00..she got down and walked towards the dark wanting to swallowed by it...she took her bag ...pulled the jacket close for warmth and comfort of his arms...she walked into the dark...