A/N: This is a series of one shots through Edward's perspective starting off where Stephanie Meyers left off in Midnight Sun. I would do the entire book, but I'm too lazy. May run through the entire saga if I so choose, or if the reviewers want it. All will go in order though. I hate when things are out of order. I'm not OCD. -twitchtwitch- Some of these may be songfics as
Disclaimer- I wish.
My dead heart was aching for her. Every fiber of my being was screaming in protest, telling me that leaving her, even for the short amount of time I was, was a horrible idea. I watched as her face twisted into a grimace as I told her I was going hunting. I almost smiled in sick satisfaction at that small showing of pain, she wanted me to stay. She hated thinking that I was leaving. Well, I assumed she was thinking about me leaving. I had no idea what she was really thinking, much to my frustration and indignation.
I focused back on her face, her cheeks flushing in pleasure when she caught my gaze. I couldn't take my eyes off of her. Her mahogany hair framed her face perfectly, her deep brown eyes glazing over at my intense stare. I reached over the table, cautiously warning her of my advancement with my eyes, she didn't even blink as my hand came near her face.
But when my fingers touched her face, light as a ghost, gentler than I thought I was capable of, her eyes fluttered closed. I was momentarily stunned by the sight of her. Her lips parted gently, letting her sweet breath caress my face. The warmth of her skin under my icy touch was like nothing I'd ever felt before.
I pulled my fingers from her face abruptly, not wanting to push my luck, and sighed, too quietly for her to hear. She stared at me longingly for a moment, a fierce battle seemed to be raging on behind her eyes. I turned away from her, my heart wrenching with the action, and walked away. I could feel her eyes following me as I departed, and it took everything I had not to turn around and throw her one of my supposedly dazzling smiled. I made my way to my Volvo, the ache for Bella still burning in my chest.
"Took you long enough." Alice joked once I was seated. I threw her a glare, but she merely smiled, totally content with herself Thanks for introducing me to Bella. She thought, her smile turning from content to smug.
"Don't you dare Alice." I growled under my breath, knowing she could hear me. She turned to face me and smiled even wider.
"I'll have you know that Bella and I being best friends is crystal clear again." She said, a tinkling of laughter accompanied the statement, and I frowned. "Bella considered skipping the rest of the school day." She added, looking out the side window.
"Did she?" I asked, trying to keep the curiosity out of my voice. Anything about Bella always caught my interest. There was no subject more interesting to me than Bella. I could talk about her for hours and never get bored.
"Yes. But it changed quickly. She's decided to stick to school. I think she's staying for you." I turned to Alice, my eyes fierce.
"What is that supposed to mean?" I asked my eyes now boring into hers. She sighed and shook her head before thinking to me, slowly, like I was an incompetent child. You told her you worried about being with her so publicly, especially if things ended badly. I continued to stare at Alice, my mind slowly clicking everything in place.
She thought people would assume we were together. She was worried about me. I laughed at the absurdity of it. Why would she worry about me, a vampire who was totally capable of walking across a flat stable surface without running into a catastrophe waiting to happen, when she was just the opposite of this? Fragile, human, and clumsy, a lethal combination. Knowing her, she probably would get hurt doing the laundry.
I nearly had a panic attack at the thought of her injured. I wasn't sure if I could handle it if she were to get hurt. I nearly turned around and raced back to the high school to make sure she was still okay. Judging by the time, she would be heading for gym right now. The thought nearly made me choke on the breath I took. I cast a panicked glance at Alice, but she only shook her head.
"She'll be fine Edward." She reassured me, but I wasn't buying it. My Bella was neverjust fine. "All she's going to do is argue with that Newton kid." She said flippantly. I growled, the sound vibrating its way up my chest and out my gritted, bared teeth. I was going to annihilate Mike Newton. I slammed harder onto the gas, racing my way towards Bella's house.
Once we arrived, I exited the car quickly, Alice in tow. I made my way to the front door, slipping the key from the eve and unlocking it. "Where did you say she put it last night?" I asked, even though I knew very well where she said it was.
"It's in a pair of jeans at the bottom of a pile of laundry in the laundry room." Alice chirped, making her way upstairs. I could hear her footsteps going near Bella's room, and I growled, a feral sound, letting her know that Bella's room was mine. Before I even realized that I'd made the sound, Alice was scolding me. "Oh honestly Edward, she's not your property." I felt an ache in my chest where my dead heart was. But I loved her with every fiber of my soulless existence, wasn't that the same thing?
I swiftly made my way to the laundry room, digging through the clothes until I found the key. I placed everything back the way it was before I'd rummaged through it. I spotted a shirt throw in the corner of my room, and I selfishly wished I could take it with me. "Come on Alice." I said softly. She bounded down the stairs, her spiky black hair bouncing with her lithe movements. She held out her hand, and I dropped the key into her hand.
I locked the front door and hid the key back in its place before I made my way back to my Volvo while Alice sulked over to the truck. She hated driving slow just as much as I did. I laughed at her thoughts. Stupid truck. Why couldn't it just go over say, a hundred? I wouldn't mind so much if it did that one simple thing. Her inner voice cursed at the ancient red truck, and I laughed even louder.
"I'll meet you back at the school Alice." I tried horribly to contain my laughter at the murderous look on her face at my comment.
"She's your girlfriend, why am I driving her truck?" she whined, and I glared at her furiously. She knew very well why I couldn't sit in Bella's truck. Her scent, so potent in the small cab, would incapacitate me to the point of being animalistic. She pouted, but got in the truck anyway. I slid into the Volvo, starting it with a growl. I hated that everything had to be so complicated. Why couldn't I just be a normal human, so I could be with my Bella the way Alice had insinuated? I raced back to the school, my mind racing faster than the car.
When I reached the parking lot, I sighed. Though I was not able to hear what Bella was thinking, that didn't stop me from dropping in on everyone else around her. I quickly located Mike Newton, and watched angrily as he conversed with Bella, just as Alice said he would.
"Are you going to the dance with Cullen?" Hmm, if she isn't going to Seattle with Cullen… he looked at Bella and I sighed in relief. She appeared to be okay.
"No, I'm not going to the dance at all." She told him, her voice frustrated. I almost laughed at her facial expression, it was twisted into a mask of frustration and indignation.
"What are you doing then?" he asked, and I almost punched a hole in the door of the Volvo as his thoughts took a disgusting turn.
"Laundry, and then I have to study for the Trig test or I'm going to fail." She said in a tone that suggested the conversation should be over, but Vial Newton continued to pester my Bella.
"Is Cullen helping you study?" he asked her. I bared my teeth at his thoughts. He was imagining helping her, but he wasn't helping her study.
"Edward,"she emphasized my name, and it almost made me giddy. She cared what others thought of me. I snorted at my train of thought. Like I didn't already know what others thought of me, "is not going to help me study. He's gone away somewhere for the weekend." Her lie came more easily than they normally did. I watched her face carefully through Newton, she didn't even blush. That's when I realized I wish she had. I loved seeing her blood stain her cheeks crimson.
"Oh." He said with too much enthusiasm. Bella practically growled at him, much to my pleasure. "You know, you could come to the dance with our group anyway- that would be cool. We'd all dance with you." Newton was planning on doing more than dancing if he had his way, and I had to hold tightly to the wheel of the Volvo. Well, as tightly as I could without breaking it.
"I'm not going to the dance, Mike, okay?" she snapped tersely, and I couldn't help but be proud of her tone.
"Fine." He said sulkily, his thoughts turning angry, not at Bella, but at me. I was pleased. "I was just offering."
Just as the conversation closed, there was a gentle rapping of knuckles on my window. I glanced over and saw Alice. She was tapping her foot impatiently, her face furious. I opened the window and she bent down so that her face was level with my own.
"That was the worst torture you could have submitted me to." She said furiously before walking around to her side of the Volvo and getting in. I looked over to Bella's truck, parked in the spot mine had taken previously, and an idea struck me.
"Wait here." I mumbled absently to Alice, who started fiddling with my radio. Great, I'd have to fix whatever damage she did later. I made my way over to the truck, swinging the door open when I got to it. I searched through her glove box and found a blank piece of paper and a pen. I leaned against the window, the most stable thing on the entire truck, and wrote two simple words on the paper, Be safe. I gently kissed the words before folding the paper neatly in half and placing it on the seat. I closed the door gently, my heart aching. I wouldn't see or hear Bella for hours. I wasn't surprised that my heart was breaking at the very thought. I couldn't imagine what the actual action would to me. I walked back to my silver Volvo, my dead heart, the one that hadn't felt for decades, breaking with every step I took. I slid back into the Volvo, waiting for Alice to start making fun of me, but the words didn't come, instead, she rubbed my back soothingly, a small smile touching her lips.
I pulled the car out of it's spot recklessly, knowing I wouldn't hit anyone else's car, if you could call them that. As I passed Bella's truck, I cast it a broken look before whispering softly. "I love you, my Bella."