The Mentalist Tag 6x06 (Fire and Brimstone)
She didn't know how long she had been unconscious from the explosion, but an old wound on her left arm woke her up with hurt.
She watched Jane's old Malibu house burn up in flames as anger was flashing through her now dark green emerald eyes.
Once, again she was too late. She had always promised herself in her most foolish nights-lightly put in the comfort of her bed- that when Jane would make his final stand against Red John, she would be the "one" to save him.
I wanna be there when you reveal Red John, she said
Ok, he replied
She also told Jane that Red John deserved what was coming to him and she would not stop him from doing what he was about to do.
Her worst fatal error.
How could she have been so stupid? Of course he would immediately call up on her lie. She had pushed the envelope too far and the result had been worse than she could ever expect; Jane had left her on the beach after dropping the bomb on her.
You have no idea what you meant, to me.
And then he added, what you "mean" to me.
She should have seen the telltale signs coming. One does not use the past tense unless they are planning on not seeing you again.
It was almost as if his words sounded like good-bye, a mistake her realized seconds too late. But up until now, she was still too blinded by her feelings for him to see it.
Oh, I almost forget I have a surprise for you, he said.
She had walked head first into his trap like a pray immersing into his predator's lair. In the depts of her darkest desire, she even allowed herself to believe her would ask her to marry him.
After, Grace and Rigsby's recent engagement she couldn't help but wash away this gridlock fantasy out of her head.
And then the fairy-tale had come to an end. When she heard the engine of his old Citroën start with a bang, realization hit her.
He was leaving her there, the bastard.
What she thought to be a significant declaration of love from Jane, was after all just a ruse, a "distraction" in which he used her own feelings against her to get away with murder.
Standing still on the ground and unable to move, she remembered when he had put his arms open to full her in one of the longest and tightest embrace they ever shared.
She remembered how the sunlight skimmed an orange gleam over their features during the sunset.
She had so wished his long arms would never leave her small frame, shaking from this endless gesture of affection.
She also wished the warmth of his body would never leave hers, but her most desired wishes of all was that he would have kissed her for once and for all.
But he didn't.
Their first reciprocated hug and he had betrayed her. What she thought would be the most romantic proposal turned into a disaster.
When it came to Red John, she always knew she would be second best, but she never enticed that he would stoop so low, especially after everything she had done for him.
I want to thank you for everything you've done, he had said it himself.
Even after he left her on a deserted beach with nothing but her gun and badge, a part of her wished him no arm.
The worst of it all, she had no idea if Jane was still alive. After years, of trying to protect him from Red John, she had probably failed to the hardest task; to save him from himself.
His words echoed in her ears with the remaining headache she probably got from the explosion. When she though she lost all once of hope for him, she heard the voices again only too vivid for her to be thinking out loud.
Her cop instinct immediately kicked in and then the voices came more perceptibly.
She took her flashlight and penetrated the burned house with precautions, looking around for any survivor.
"Lisbon" someone said
When she finally got closer to the flames, trying to shield herself from the hot burning draft of air, she saw Jane was lying on the remaining ashes of his house, surrounded by large wooden beams.
He seemed to be agitated or in pain, until she saw one of the beams was tucking his right leg. Fortunately, she had called for back-up a long time ago. She could hear the sirens arriving from afar.
"Jane" she shouted as she scooted next to him happy that he was alive
"it's going to be alright" Lisbon told him trying to reassure them both
She was almost at the point of tearing and she tried to stop her voice from cracking up.
"Red John…" Jane mumbled "he got away" he added
Lisbon wanted to say something, wanted to say that she was sorry his plan had literally blow up. But she was more concerned about his safety right now to focus on Red John's escape.
She almost thanked God, he had fell unconscious in the process. The pain was probably too unbearable for any sane person, even a strong mind like Jane, to handle.
"I need help, right here" she shouted almost ecstatic
The paramedics made sure to free his clustered leg before putting him on the stretch. In no time he was being lifted in the air, ready for ER.
"what happened ?" one of the paramedics asked
"it's Patrick Jane you don't ask" the other said giving Lisbon a sympathetic smile
Lisbon was too much in shock to notice one of them was the same paramedic that rescued Jane from beings drowned two years ago when he had a dissociative fugue.
"I'm coming" Lisbon said
She wanted to get into the vehicle with Jane. There was no way she would let him do the trip alone. Her hand never left him in hopes he would wake up and found she wasn't there.
After a while she felt a small pressure on her intertwine hand. Jane's eyes were half-open and he gave her a look filed with what looked like hurt, grief and yes culpability.
He finally spoke again and the words were almost too painful for her to endure.
"I'm sorry Lisbon…for leaving you there" he said his voice racked from the smoke
"I guess you had it coming" Lisbon said
She almost used the very same words Jane had said when Lorelai Martins was killed.
"dark humour I like that" Jane said almost giggling
"how's your leg ?" she asked
"she won't tell me" he puffed his cheeks now red
Lisbon supressed a genuine laugh. Better a happy Jane on drugs than a sad Jane sober, she thought.
"yeah I think you need to rest" she said turning her head away
"no, what I need is to hunt down Red John" Jane said
"Jane" Lisbon shouted "you're injured you can't even walk"
"I don't need to walk… I just need you" Jane pointed out "call it leg-work" he joked
"Jane you just took five people from the law enforcement as hostages and held them at gunpoint, three of which are dead" she was now shouting
"I never intended to kill anyone, but Red John did"
"even if that's true, how would he have known when and where to put the bomb ?" she asked
"Red John must have planned this a long time ago, he must have known about my plan" Jane pointed out
"you think someone spied on us" Lisbon said
"precisely, that's why I insisted on a last minute destination I wanted to be sure of Red John's connections"
"I also learned that three of my suspects have the same tattoo on their shoulder" Jane said
"what ?" Lisbon asked
"Bertram, Reed and McAllister but now one of them is dead so that leaves us with only two suspects, Red John can't get away anymore he's trapped like a fish" Jane said with enthusiasm
The ambulance was parking in the hospital and Lisbon's hand left his, but he caught her wrist.
"what I said on the beach earlier, I meant every word of it" Jane said trying to sound serious
His head was light form the drugs and he had to use biofeedback.
"except for the part where you steal my phone and leave me on the road" she said sarcastically
"first it was on the beach and second I never steal I merely borrow" he said with a teasing eye
Lisbon realized, Jane was still on drugs and that he probably wasn't fully himself. Nonetheless, she hoped he spoke the truth.
For now they would be okay, until the next best disaster.
Author's note : I know I deviated a little but after such powerful episodes, I get so inspired hehe :P Also I read a LOT of fanfiction stories of 6x06, so I tried not to be repetitive and be original. Hope you liked it xD please don't hesitate to comment, I always love to read your beautiful comments ! see you all for the next episode if I survive until then ^^just kidding ;))